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god
has
some
hard
lessons
and
easy
lessons
we
need
to
take
both
and
not
get
stuck
in
a
of
hard
lessons
only !
i
suppose
you
are
all
stunned
mullet?
no
angry
gnomes !
it's
funny
how
at
the
koan
level
a
new
concept
to
zen
it
flummoxes
them
when
they
are
not
trying
to
ban
you !
zen
is
a
mistake
can
i
say
it
and
that
fucked !
Koans
are
crippled
zen
is
crippled
buddhism
is
crippled
what i don't like about these koans is the way they get twisted into propaganda for the zen "master" nonsense (i might use a stronger word !)
spent
drifting
with
clouds
and
this
monk
still
doesn't
know
is
more
deluded
the
koan
master
or
the
koan
student ?
koan
study
is
good
for
inducting
or
reinforcing
schizophrenia
and
not
much
else
in
my
observation
there's
something
to
one
or
two
of
them
but
the
sense
of
most
was
never
there
or
has
been
garbled
or
the
cultural
sense
lost
or
beyond
effective
translation !
he
looked
a
little
self-
confident
pleased
unto
death
inside
truth !
the
web
at
it's
best
works
by
stealth
what
atheism
is
can
be
be
confusing
if
you
look
at
what
it
is
practically
which
is
a
form
of
humanism
the
confusion
clears !
the
same
with
zen
dull
intellectually
retarded
people
clutching
their
precious
little
intellectual
investments !
does
depression
abate
our
egosim
so
much
that
we
can
effectively
problem
solve ?
prison
is
a
form
of
execution
by
poor
diet
and
lack
of
sun !
totality
a
viewpoint
a
eating
zen
twits
before
breakfast
is
pretend
transmission
is
pretend
all
you
won't
begin
to
understand
you
away
from
it !
evolution
is
a
good
example
of
the
limitations
of
quantum
it
can't
tell
ahead
of
time
what
works !
so
and
error !
don't
really
think
anything
matters
at
all !
don't
really
think
anything
matters !
god
can
be
rejection
but
it's
not
arrogance !
god
god
has
no
assemblies !
the
strangeness
of
being
me !
the
whole
thing
about
life
it
can
take
you
20
or
30
years
to
realize
you
have
been
travelling
in
the
wrong
direction !
what
i
do
never
seems
to
fit
any
categories
ever !
if
you
don't
have
any
certainty
about
yourself
you
won't
have
any
certainty
about
anything
else !
my reply:
and the larger sense of life as well since self identity is a neurological construct!
like physicists these people only take the implications of what they do to a certain point and no further !
when
we
are
wrong
we
only
hurt
ourselves !
it's
a
mismatch
all
i
do
is
empty !
you
can
try
to
control
everything
but
you
can't
doesn't
work !
russia
of
apartments
roger
penrose
good
but
off
target !
gender
blurring
some
odd
blend
of
lesbian
and
male
gay !
at
some
point
will
collide
universes even
and
the
moon
will
no
longer
rotate
about
the
earth !
you
are
telling
me
there
is
some
point
to
something ?
rudder
or
rudderless
if
you
are
sunken
what
does
it
matter ?
religion
discordant
mumbo-
jumbo
seem
happy enough with it !
a
lot
of
the
craziness
of
the
human
species
comes
from
rigidity
of
adults !
messiah
think
god
works
that
way !
don't
think
god
works
that
way !
the
degree
of
attention
everything
requires
ridiculous !
you
just
don't
get
better
than
nietzsche
bukowski
keats
mandelstham
schopenhauer
some
sort
of
ceiling !
sappho
emily
dickinson
son
of
sirach
sa'di !
i
don't
think
one
has
to
be
right
particularly
or
even
wrong
this
sort
of
development
is
just
endless !
my
writing
is
not
better
than
bukowski
or
nietzsche
it's
in
a
totally
different
class !
i
don't
know
what
that
means
apples
and
oranges
comparison ?
you
can't
really
compare
it's
not
a
continuum !
what's
really
of
interest
is
this
principle
that's
where
and
ontology
and
everything
meets !
one
never
fitted
that
well
with
life
before
and
maybe
one
fits
well
now ?
it's
actually
not
enough
to
look
at
something
you
have
to
a
memory
a
s
well !
dogen
was
partly
mad
some
of
it
in
a
good
way
some
of
it
in
a
not
good
way !
the
notion
of
god
as
a
creator
is
unsophisticated
as
well
as
being
wrong
it's
more
some
summation
of
infinity
the atheist viewpoint is as simplistic as the religious and in fact is still the human worship of itself by another name, just like religion.
i have no hypothesis about god except a lack of referents and capacity for internal contradictions
which is like life of course !
jesus
being
fictional
like
any
story
character
is
full
of
contradictions !
one
of
the
fundamental
mechanisms
of
human
behavior
is
the
power
of
majority
beliefs
right
or
wrong !
i
am
not
me
we
are
not
solid
objects
it's
interesting
that
the
core
of
physics
and
astrophysics
is
the
anthropic
principle
that
is
wether
something
is
coherent
enough
to
be
observed !
eternal inflation is the bubble expansion of the universe at the big bang which may be a misnomer and actually may be a compression point from a previous universes's collapse
astrophysics has made a bit of progress in recent years, string theory is looking a bit of an orphan and loop quantum gravity (LQG) proposes that space is not infinitely divisible but granular !
under LQG space is a network of intersecting loops, the loops being the quantum excitations of the gravitational field !
page
3
to
me
there's
this
central
issue
of
decompression
what
you
do
and
decompressing
what
you
do !
i
notice
that
top
physicists
like
guth
and
bojowold
have
a
much
more
sophisticated
view
of
ultimate
causes
than
atheists !
atheism
is
like
christianity
an
view
of
reality !
why
is
the
earth
so
rich?
you
can
see
it
everything
else
is
just
a
hunk
of
dust
or
frozen
methane
or
slush
or
whatever !
that
richness
gives
rise
to
life
forms
that
can
perceive
it
that's
about
all
there
is
too
it !
an
unlikely
event
is
likely
to
itself
you
can't
argue
when
all
you
see
around
you
are
yourself
and
it's
antecedents
myself
nietzsche
i
think
it's
different
there
isn't
a
continuum
of
better
or
worse
i
hope
i
am
up
there
with
him !
the
of
the
young
the
of
the
old
knowing
they
will
outlive them !
they
had
any
sense
they
could
see
time
was
coming
around
fast !
there's
abit
missing
in
string
theory
you
don't
know
what
it
is
or
if
it
will
ever
be
found !
it's
part
of
the
inadequacy
that
you
can't
say
much
more
or
if
you
say
more
it's
and
fantasy !
can
only
be
pared
away
by
intense
looking
and
experience
and
still
may
have
positive
outcome !
some-one
like
guth
life
time
of
things
simple
string
theory
may
be
a
meta
theory
of
physics
and
looks
more
shonky
at
the
local
level !
theologians
you
cannot
believe
something
that
is
utterly
untrue
and
obviously
fictious
and
have
a
rate
mind !
the
not
a
principle
of
last
resort
but
resort !
the
anthropic
principle
is
the
fundamental
philosophical
base
of
observation
codicil
or
asking
if
a
religion
is
true
it's
easy
to
see
since
there
is
more
than
one
and
they
are
contradictory
can't
be !
why
does
the
anthropic
principle
cause
so
much
trouble ?
people
can't
take
that
there
are
multiple
states
of
existance
some
even
imaginary
only
the
tinest
proportion
of
which
can
self -
observe !
is
religion
an
improvement
or
a
continuation
of
the
problem ?
humans
are
all
about
breeding !
schopenhauer
one
generation
hitler
the
next
it
doesn't
do
much
good
does it ?
what
does
an
organization
prove ?
that
more
than
one
of
you
is
an
idiot ? !
there's
really
nothing
of
a
communal
nature
or
otherwise
to
convey
is
terms
of
communities
it's
meaningless !
day
you
can't
see
it !
infinity
is
limited
infinity
is
today's
nutrition
is
important
than
tomorrows !
science
fiction
is
a
pale
relative
of
cosmological
physics !
we
sorta
live
blind
it's
not
accidental !
why
do
we
think
there's
always
there
plainly
is
none
it's
always
dithering
between
something
and
nothing !
loop
quantum
i
am
much
more
special
than
it
seems !
are
we
afraid
to
look
at
how
things
factually
are ?
it
can
often
be
in
our
favour !
we're
both
mad
but
there's
sort
of
a
mad
that's
ultra
sane !
skys
swillingly
depressive
grey
skies
swill
type
depression
life
is
like
tai
chi
endless
waves
of
aggressive
pushing
foiled
by
adroit
and
sinuous
deflection
if
you
can !
like
any
new
horizon
it's
exciting
at
first
and
then
dulls
abit
unless
horizons
keep
popping
up !
a
factor
in
the
evolution
fo
human
language
must
have
been
it's
facilitation
of
the
females
ability
to
maintain
control
of
the
male !
i
think
time
is
infinite
where
space
is
not
necessarily
so
space
begins
and
ends
so
to
speak !
what
i
write
basically
too
good
stupid
world !
such
a
quandary
between
knowing
nothing
and
knowing
something !
more
complex
than
what
is
being
designed !
in
terms
of
the
universe
and
biology
these
things
are
at
the
fundamental
limit
of
complexity
into
quantum
and
indeterminancy
so
how
can
you
have
a
designer ?
the
western
education
system
is
utterly
and
completely
about
face !
can
athing
be
all
powerfull
because
it's
a
thing ?
maybe
i
have
moved
ahead
of
you
maybe
i
have
moved
behind
you
maybe
i
have
moved
ahead
and
behind
you
one
can
be
both
and
serious
same
time !
there's
something
about
making
a
lot
of
money
and
some
exclusion
of
vision !
i
now
think
we
will
be
supplanted
by
reproducing
machines
probably
in
a
not
very
friendly
way
rather
like
homo
sapiens
supplanted
neanderthal !
there
is
no
machine
yet
that
is
reproducing !
when
that
happens
look
out
humanity !
they
will
colonise
space
and
not
humans
my
writing
style
is
really
dense
sorta
james
joyce
but
more
so !
the
drop
down
is
to
slow
people
down
and
allow
synergies
develop !
if
it
wasn't
for
the
poetry
would
we
still
together ?
the circus
of
men
and
women
and
child
rearing
what
makes
it
a
circus
is
it's
so
hard
to
escape !
you
shouldn't
look
at
charles
bukowski
without
a
critical
eye
criticisms
can
be
made !
death
and
life
the
simultaneity
of
that
very
and
sorta
interesting
times !
i thought i
couldn't
sleep
but
i
just
went
to
sleep
for
a
time !
in
this
writing
you
can
see
the
infinite
nature
of
life
just
endless
1/2 moons are neap which is low high tides and high low tides !
of
fiteyes
blurred
alittle
bit
of
the
art
of
ambush !
is
misadventure !
more than sentimental
sorta unison of natural imagery with human passions
i think a lot of what the somerset alcohol collective is about is high maintenance men looking for low maintenance women !
is
that
just
life
in
general
interesting that the base of majority opinion is statistical, nothing
to
do
with
right
and
wrong
at
all !
as
history
shows !
i'm
not
really
writing
to
this
generation
christian
myth !
so
who
are
you
and
who
am
i
and
who's
the
moon
and
who's
the
sky ?
it's
a
smaller
world
at
the
top
than
you
might
think
even
the
next
layer
down
is
not
so
crowded
then
the
rabble
set
in
if
you
see
a
ghost
i
think
it
asks
a
question
about
what
there
existance
was !
i
don't
know
why
everyone
has
to
be
such
judgemental
farts
but
they
are !
russell
a
bit
goofy
but
not
too
bad !
charles
bukowski
was
really
able
without
the
writing
and
alcohol
he
could
have
been
steve
jobs
or
bill
gates
or
warren
buffet
and
then
where
would
we
be?
the
world
is
not
short
of
the
rich
misguided
the
price
to
understanding
is
too
high
people
don't
pay
it !
if
you
really
want
to
understand
life
you
have
to
be
stretched
and
stretched
and
stretched !
it
doesn't
hurt
to
be
broken
a
couple
of
times
but
you
must
recover !
about
five
years
before
menopause onset
you
will
start
to
understand
the
defeat
that
is
in
store
for
all
of
us !
the
homilies
and
compendium
in
a
way
ensure
i
never
will
become
successful
like
charles
bukowski
and
drink
defeat
is
essential
for
ultimate
sanity !
sex
for
women
an
antidepressant !
i
am
gullible
if
people
say
something
i
believe
them !
predators
and
sharks
know
this !
charles bukowski
interviews
it
will
never
happen
to
me
i
don't
know
why
what
i
say
is
too
unplatable ?
i
won't
be
alive ?
not
good
enough !
because
you
disagree
with
it
doesn't
make
it
wrong !
genius
cleverness
tarred
with
stupidity ?
one loses a sense of caution and gets what are effectively unrealistic expectations in my experience
unfortunately it can be self feeding !
we
have
always
been
at
war
with
neighbouring
village !
men
natural
roamers
that
get
transfixed
by
women
into
one
place
the land
of
the
dead
is
the
real
view
all other views are illusion !
i'm not sure men really understand how damaging it can be to be casually fucked, it really goes against a woman's brain
the somerset alcohol collective is a sorta place my sperm and run paradigm !
it's the difference between women having to raise a child regardless
and men still being able to leave progeny even if they disappear
are
a
species
basically
blind
through
not
looking
humans
are
a
species
basically
through
not
looking !
women
operate
like
machines
they
don't
question
their
health
they
go
like
the
clappers
if
they
are
able
to
and
if
they
can't
they
don't !
the
modern
theme
downsizing
of
intelligence !
what
are
your
own
thoughts ?
do
you
actually
have
any ?
i
do !
what
are
your
own
thoughts ?
can
you
hear
own
thoughts ?
can
you
hear
your
own
thoughts ?
modern
is
subclinical
cretinism
maybe
clinical
zizek
on
love
and
void !
the loneliness
of
a
single
universe
it's
a
strange
world
people
we
think
we
know
can
move
away
from
us
and
we
can't
see
it
happening !
too
smart
in
one
direction
in
another
direction
too
smart
in
one
direction
failure
in
another
direction
if
you
think
you
have
been
bloody
and
bruised
before . . .
nobody
can
do
it
to
you
like
a
woman
read
the
above
lines
in
they
out
the
from
the
ceiling
and
mix
in
brine !
read
the
above
lines
in
they
out
the
i
am
not
concerned
with
how
i
appear
to
you !
poets
wives
lead
of
poverty
illness
blights
things
it's
not
like
you
are
the
same
person
who
becomes
ill
is
deprecated !
a
of
god !
poems that are not quite right can have interesting insights you may pick up later
i find with stuff i do that too, that they are righter than it can seem at the time and also it's an acceptance of things not being perfect which is important
i do occasionally write homilies/poems i feel like that with
and leave them on
in part because i know that the more wrong minded poems are likely to be popular because of the wrong mindedness of people and space is free
religion
has
always
been
religion
is
imagination
it's
inherent
in
the
way
reality
works !
are
like
leopards
or
tigers
and
always
remain
that
way !
darwin
is
as
true
as
the
periodic
table
is !
i'm not a christian
i'm
not
me
the
last
is
the
most
significant !
only an issue if you get to 94
disappearing into the misty waves is, of course, more poetic !
that's an allegorical and quite wrong minded koan !
a
lover
is
different
from
a
friend
they
get
so
unfriendly
why
do
explanations
fail
with
people
as
they
usually
do ?
why
do
explanations
fail
as
they
usually
do
with
people?
i
never
regarded
migraine
as
pain
but
it
is
i
have
lead
a
bit
of
a
silly
life
in
streaks
not
so
silly !
everything
works
until
it
stops
working