mabus /
dennis markuze
i don't actually disagree with him regarding atheists but death threats are going to far !
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in
writing
it's
better
to
have
something
half
understood
fully !
with
dissonance
thence
springs
peace
with
peace
thence
springs
joy
with
joy
thence
springs
transport !
i'm
not
a
believer
in
consensus
except
the
consensus
of
being
wrong
dissonance
where
is
peace?
without
peace
whereis
relief ?
without
relief
where
is
joy ?
without
joy
whence
comes
the
rule
of
autistic
spectrum
is
that
life
appears
to
occur
in
an
unvarnished
and
brutal
way
if
you
pursue
something
different
in
the
expectation
of
comfort
relief
or
gain
LOOK
OUT !
all
this
writing
and
work
is
really
depressing
because
it's
pointless
and
fruitless
but
you
can't
really
live
life
different
from
the
way
it
is
pointless
and
fruitless
a
slow
downhill
slope
of
degradation
with
the
odd
lucky
break !
ae
housman
the
world
wasn't
as
small
then
travel
was
always
edged
with
some
unknowness
and
magical
exoticness !
all
by
myself
humans
are
too
busy
breeding
poem !
holt : copse, hanger : forest on a slope
the
simple
egocentricity
of
men
how
they
are
steered
through
life
the
simple
egocentricity
of
men
is
how
they
are
steered
through
life
women
their
poor
hearts
why
do
i
figure
you
lot
are
dangerous ?
you
couldn't
run
over
a
cat
most
of
you !
torture
a
human
YES !
cats
just
like
women
turn
up
and
don't
go !
most
people
take
death
in
a
different
way
survival
of
their
children !
it
is
not
education
but
is
the
most
important
thing
for
a
child
oil !
sun
vitamin D !
i quite liked it !
the whole point of them is to show you what you are thinking and put it in a form of memory and change in the right direction comes from that
it's looking at function rather than embroidering trinkets
toyota
used
champion
gobbledygook
a substitute
for
in
depth
product
engineering
knowledge
and
the
price !
if
you
are
ill
you
have
to
be
ill
don't
eat
so
much
for a
start !
if
you
have
any
notion
of
searching
for
something
you
can
be
searching
but
if
you
have
a
notion
you
are
misguided !
zen
is
a
cult
and
has
to
be
you
are
right
and
it
is
against
people's
interest
they
only
react
one
way,
they
try
to
eliminate
you!
a trillion dollars to properly entomb fukushima ?
what
is
an
brain ?
it's
and
not
necessarily
the
instant of
fertilization
that
gives
the
huge
or
quantum
increment
of
coherence
of
the
embryo !
you
are
not
an
idiot
so
don't
treat
yourself
like
one !
you
are
not
an
idiot
why
treat
yourself
like
an
idiot ?
not
everything
written
will
be
brilliant
but
most
will
be
workmanlike !
life
is
just
a
maelstrom
of
damage !
relative
a
tangle !
why
am
i
preachy
i
am
preachy !
do
i
have
to
be
preachy?
i
don't
have
to
be
preachy !
that's
what
i
mean
when
i
say
it's
set
in
the
stars
sometimes
you
can
tell
something
is
going
to
happen
before
it
happens
and
there's
no
way
you
could
reasonably
guess it !
we also have both learnt we are wrong more often than not and permit dissenting opinions on that basis !
buddha, jesus and muhammad are not actually historical figures, but rather stories and need to be taken that way !
how
can
i
be
more
successful?
any
idiot
is
more
successful
than me !
so
many
directions
that
each
step in
one
direction
detracts
from
another
permanently !
there
you
are
a
successful
recipe
for
unsuccess
“ you
pyschotic ”
enlightened ”
pyschotic ! ”
eckhart
tolle
you
can't
be
that
popular
and
100%
right !
like with saundarananda
you cannot get the person to person transmission that zen claims simply because this understanding is historically so rare
plenty of pretenders tho like brad warner and in fact i do not have a high opinion of guido nishijima!
the last two zen masters with a good understanding were the korean kusan sumin and kodo sawaki and there has been nothing really since tho george bowman is quite good, tho his health hasn't helped in recent years !
of the living toni packer at springwater who is ex zen is the best i have found !
but really you have to look across time, heraclitus, sappho, sa'di, montaigne, schopenhauer, keats, plath, mandelstham, emily dickinson, the blue cliff record, charles bukowski and others
have
to
look
across
the
centuries and writing is SO IMPORTANT !
you
can
sorta
stitch
it
together
and
after
a
while
you
can
sorta
see
how
it
hangs
which
is
right !
don't you want to improve your understanding of the stories and even how they are imperfect ?
i don't think you get it, this work is lifelong and one is always discovering how wrong one is !
who
tell
you
what
you
don't
want
to
hear
are
your
best
friends !
everything
is
complex
it's
very
meshed !
christ
is
boring !
it's
all
so
difficult
one
just
wants
to
sit
down
and
cry
and
cry
who
hears?
murderers
and
reprobates ?
see
that's
the
trouble
with
zen
unless
you've
got
your
own
work
you
are
never
going
to
stand
alone !
i
am
all
there
is
and
nobody
wants
me
well
eileen
does
i
have
often
noticed
that
people
really
good
at
something
only
half
understand
it
i
don't
know
why
that
is
a
natural
synchronicity ?
maybe
being
good
at
something
is
only
half
the
total
experience ?
lucky
you
if
you
only
get
to
experience
the
good
half !
a
ditch
you
dig
it
all
out
you
put
it
all
back
that's
progress
perpetuate
this
crippling !
happy
holiday
happy
holiday
happy
holiday
to
you
when
the
moon
comes
down
the
sailing
holiday
to
buddhism
is
flawed
there
is
nothing
to
attain
even
not that it's not there with humans all the time, but in some subtle way it's part of the training with this japanese lineage zen !
i
am
not
impressed
with
the
intelligence
of
humans
a
species !
if
you
felt
yourself
properly
commit
suicide !
a
fractured
monster !
fukushima is partially melted down and the total effect is worse than the atomic bombs dropped in WW2 though in a different way !
the big difference in the assessment of radioactive damage now is not simply the external radiation dose which is how it has always been assessed, but the ingestion of radioactive particles which nuclear power plant meltdowns produce in plenty !
it’s interesting that japan despite all the intelligence of it’s race is so vulnerable to bad decision making at the top which was also it’s problem with making war on the usa in 1941
chris busby is very good and not at all FLAKY
that's
bukowski's
saving
grace
when
he
feels
the
splinters
of
the
bottom
of
the
barrel
going
into
his
guts
as
he
scrapes
along
it
he
sees
it
if
you
felt
yourself
properly
commit
suicide !
but i was thinking of charles bukowski and his alcoholism which he always said kept him from suicide
the drinking took him through life's extremes and he learnt from that
but it's too brutal to live like that
i think he was lucky with the californian climate making that sort of living more possible than it was otherwise
this was before it got really bad i think
as far as i can see, he used to sunbathe !
the
world
is
wider
than
zen
or
any
religion
quite
a
bit
wider !
mabus /
dennis markuze
i don't actually disagree with him regarding atheists but death threats are going to far !
even
self-
honesty
is
not
enough
you
need
clarity
and
a
certain
robust
vigour
about
the
way
you
look
at
the
world !
a
rakusu
and
dog
collar
have
nothing
to
do
with
has
nothing
to
do
with
all
my
life
i
have
gone
through
and
i
never
knew
what
it's
the
ratio
of
the
circumference
of
a
circle
to
it's
diameter !
don't
see
why
it's
so
important !
ah
it's
also
the
ratio
of
the
area
of
a
circle
to
the
square
of
the
radius !
by
not
replying
on
a
message
board
or
blog
comment
i
have
saved
myself
so
much
work
my
disease
to
correct
the
world
a
triptych ?
these
homilies
and
poems
are
a
multitych
wolves are more a learning animal than instinctual, like humans !
maybe even more than dogs !
it's
all
what
happens
in
childhood
or
a
s
puppies !
about 1/3 to half way through
it's rather exceptional to see the close up contact between humans and wolves, they are not dogs !
a
definition
of
a
synergy
where
the
sum
strength
is
greater
than
the
parts !
what
i
found
is
that
wolf
cubs
are
very
like
human
young
they
like
what
they
learn
to
like
not
that
instinctual
at
all !
indifference
neither
includes excludes includes excludes
or nor
includes excludes includes
quantum
space
is
never
wrong
just
actually
i
am
extremely
violent
extremely
what
i
write
is
extremely
violent !
actually
i
am
extremely
violent
what
i
write
is
extremely
violent !
everyone
is
saying
you
are
doing
something
wrong !
they
can't
take it !
you
reading
this
has
returned
you
to
life
more
(quote from francis bacon about 35% into the video)
what
does
being
dead
mean ?
what
is
indeterminancy
you
can't
answer
that
question ?
i
suddenly
realized
when
i
die
i
am
going
to
be
leaving
the
internet !
now
that's
mortality !
telstra
faceless
but
not
voiceless
fellini's
casanova
dancing
doll
is
better
watched
without
the
sound
which
is
of
course
how
it
is
directed
brilliant !
much
serious
philosophical
comment
about
people
and
life !
wwII
and
the
great
purge
what
matters
is
the
death
of
millions ?
or
the
deaths
of
poets
marina
tsvetayeva
osip
mandelshtam ?
Does
the
rain
only
come
from
one
direction
or
all
directions
or
truthfully
from
some
directions
more
than
others ?
Dying
is
hell
anyway
isn't
it ?
i'll
never
get
used
to
something
it's
only
about
10%
done !
the
truth
of
this
universe
which
is
that
we
are
all
autonomous
universes
independent
and
almost
alone
entering
into
the
illusion
of
this
world
through
a
type
of
coherent
coincidence
is
too
weird
to
when i was a teenager it was real tender
not like that now
if
you
view
james
joyce
ae
housman
john
donne
as
your
peers
rather
than
as
unattainable
geniuses
it's
lot
simpler !
everybody
has
something
to
learn
from
somebody
even
if
it's
that
the
opposite
to
what
they
say
is
true !
the
evolutionary
design
of
humans
is
to
make
rigid
robotic
adults
most
of
the
world's
ills
stem
from
this !
when
i
get
things
wrong
the
wrongness
punishes
me
that
is
the
mismatch
between
my
expectations
and
how
things
actually
are !
wwII
and
the
great
purge
what
matters
the
death
of
millions
or
the
deaths
of
poets
marina
tsvetayeva
osip
mandelshtam ?
i
think
basically
zen
has
collapsed
it
collapsed
when
i
left
it
so
has
springwater !
always
rejected
by
men
the
surest
guide
for
truth !
the
saundrananda
the
fiction
of
explanations
and
poor
plots !
i
am
not
sure
that
the
idea
of
a
single
unambiguous
future
has
any
meaning !
there
is
no
arrival
point
there
is
no
departure
point
where
would
we
go ?
there
is
no
arrival
there
is
no
departure
where
would
we
go ?
creationism
i
don't
see
why
ignorance
has
to
be
holy !
ignorance
pretending
to
be
holy
like any religion
blind idiots ruling the roost
zen pretends that you can understand and appreciate infinity in a communal context
this of
course is just not possible
the
one
thing
i
am
really
good
at
the
perspective
in
these
homilies
and
my
writing
sorta
upsets
people
because
they
don't
like
to
think
about
life
in
the
large !
i'm
not
that
sympathetic
to
lions
people
identify
with
different
animals !
and wolves
and foxes
don't take much to kill a wallaby once you get those jaws around the chest !
strong thighs for maybe a final leap onto the wallaby ?
they would have to startle the wallaby then quickly leap onto it
us wallaby killers
a
question
of
why
they
lasted
so
long
in
tasmania !
dense
bush
and
no
dingos
competing
i
guess !
tas tigers hunted at night, no wonder wallabies are hopitty with a fullish moon
we have union in a different way
in
part
p
o
e
t
r
y
:
o
)
how much is this union ever expressed but rather lived?
but as we live
them
it's
sorta
blameless
usual
unusual
what
are
you
bitchin'
about ?
because
it
describes
the
formation
of
the
universe
genesis
has
a
mystique
of
prehistory
but
it's
just
the
6th
and
5th
century
b.c.e
crap !
heraclitus
and
shappo
were
alive
then !
actually
the
mistique
comes
from
it's
lifting
from
sumerian
present
nutritional
need
trumps
later !
so
what
life
started
from !
we
were
brought
up
with
the
genesis
mindset
and
that
is
difficult
to
dispel !
can
freedom
be
bought
yes
it
can
$330
worth
of
gardening !
with
children
men
get
caught
up
in
something
more
interesting
than
sex
much
to
their
surprise !
we
all
look
at
each
other's
errors
and
cringe !
well
maybe
we
look
at
our
own
and
cringe
and
with
others
we
get
indignant !
like
you
i
just
write
to
help
myself
i
have
no
expectation
of
anyone
else
understanding
anything
at
all !
the
head
of
a
staff
has
an
infinite
number
of
heads
is
yours
amongst
them ?
people
misunderstand
about
childhood
it's
the
major
portion
of
your
life
everything
later
is
dross !
you
want
to
let
go
that
there's
any
such
thing
a
s
a
zen
master
it's
an
illusion
it
was
an
illusion
with
dogen !
when
you
see
these
you
know
humans
have
always
been
thugs !
when
you
see
you
know
humans
have
always
been
thugs !
you can sit like eeyore plopping the deflated ballon in and out of the empty honey jar for the rest of your life which is precisely what happens in zen and the so called masters are as bad as the so called pupils
ashford's analysis misses the point of the poem which is actually not really expressable!
Mighty and dreadfull, for, thou art not so,
For, those, whom thou think'st, thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poore death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleepe, which but thy pictures bee,
Much pleasure, then from thee, much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee doe goe,
Rest of their bones, and soules deliverie.
Thou art slave to Fate, Chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poyson, warre, and sicknesse dwell,
And poppie, or charmes can make us sleepe as well,
And better then thy stroake; why swell'st thou then;
One short sleepe past, wee wake eternally,
And death shall be no more; death, thou shalt die
Mighty and dreadfull, for, thou art not soe,
For, those, whom thou think’st, thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poore death, nor yet canst thou kill mee;
From rest and sleepe, which but thy pictures bee,
Much pleasure, then from thee, much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee doe goe,
Rest of their bones, and soules deliverie.
Thou’art slave to Fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poyson, warre, and sicknesse dwell,
And poppie,’or charmes can make us sleepe as well,
And better then thy stroake; why swell’st thou then?
One short sleepe past, wee wake eternally,
And death shall be no more, Death thou shalt die.
unfortunately actors playing dead don't quite cut the ice !
what
makes
homilies
and
poetry
versus
money
so
difficult
is
the
scope
is
so
much
larger !
kim
jong
il
is
an
overconfident
crazy
blood
eating
monster !
stalin
mao
kim jong-il
hitler
very
able
very
misguided
blights
descended
from
heaven
going
to
hell !
always
give
preference
to
present
use
over
future
use !
nostalgia
is
just
another
form
of
passes
leaving
us
all
and
doesn't
know
the
difference
between
right
and
wrong !
time
passes
leaving
us
all
and
doesn't
know
the
difference
between
right
and
wrong !
religion
is
just
worshipping
itself !
communism
never
was
about
for
the
working
class !
it
was
always
about
power
for
their
self appointed
proxies
communist
rulers
zen
you
think
it's
simply
a
matter
of
understanding !
well
you
neither
behave
nor or nor
understand
when
humility
is
needed !
it's
a
funny
thing
passes
and
what
doesn't !
