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what
happens
when
you
write
so
much
you
pray
for
it
to
stop
flowing ?
write
more !
the
future
is
not
predictable
the
past
is
not
understandable
and
the
present
is
predictable
or
understandable !
say
nothing
of
this
moment
the
future
is
not
predictable
the
past
is
not
understandable
and
the
present
is
neither
or
understandable !
dipity
serene
dipity
= ' s
infinity ?
serendipity
= ' s
infinity ?
if
we
lose
the
war
and
i
am
alive
that's
better
than
if
we
win
the
war
and
i
am
dead
of
course
we
can
still
lose
the
war
and
i
be
dead !
quite
confident
about
being
the
7th
zen
patriarch ”
well
yes
quite
often
what
we
seem
is
what
we
are !
d
r
o
p
i
t
c
l
u
n
k
to
see
infinity
you
have
to
be
in
love
with
everything
how
beautiful
and
cruel
that
is !
or
criterion ?
common
usage
and
not
the
dictionary
definition
that
defines
the
meaning
of
a
word !
a
good
criteria
when
you
are
dealing
with
people
is
needy
are
they?
on
by
your
teeth
brad
but
at
some
point
they
fall
out !
how's
that
for
an
obituary !
lol !
zen
is
not
about
sitting
it
doesn't
work
it's
a
monk
management
technique
that's
all !
makes
for
morons
in
my
observation.
mental
cripples !
the
hardcore
zen
blog
is
a
very
dull
board
without
the
rabid
anonymouses
why
are
people
shockingly
self
assured
about
matters
they
are
woefully
ignorant
of ? !
this
writing
is
entirely
contrary
to
conventional
wisdom !
my
life
seems
to
be
one
long
argument
with
everybody
just
as
well
they
only
understand
half
what
i
write
women
connoisseurs
of
love
take
your
hurt
and
use
it
to
weight
your
feet
down
when
you
hang
yourself !
jesus
god
buddha
bodhisattvas
muhammed
apsarases
the
pope
catholic
priests
priests
of
any
denomination
or
religion
the
dali
lama
the
great
pangoo
zen
masters
atheists
the
list
is
endless
fucking
tar
babies !
transgressive
fiction
you
need
to
do
it
occasionally
or
it's
not
writing !
there's lots of good research on this if you use goggle ! the hormones affect the way the brain forms, the final result adds a lot of different factors together, genetic, enviromental and the way the genes are influenced by various enviromental factors.
you can have families with gays in the lineage, i think these families tend to have better quality parenting which may be an evolutionary reason for it !
the other side is today's enviroment is downright toxic with heaps of endocrine disruptors in !
english
literature
education
you
just
learn
all
this
bad
shit
you
have
to
unlearn !
not
to
mention
the
cretins
you
have
to
learn
with !
is
this
hostile ?
JUST
FACTUAL !
university
english
literature
education
you
just
learn
all
this
bad
shit
you
have
to
unlearn !
i suppose
you
are
all
so
behavior
disordered
that
none
of
you
are
even
capable
of
a
sensible
discussion !
haruki
murakami
a
mishima
stylist
to
the
core !
brad
warner
wrote
vertical
hypocrite !
he
didn't
give
a
shit
about
either !
brad
warner
wrote
vertical
you
hypocrite !
there
is
notion
of
transgressive
is
part
of
writing
that
is
outside
social
norms
i
do
really !
zen
and
buddhism
claim
not
to
be
a
religion
but
they
have
all
the
best
elements
hypocrisy
stupidity
and
zen
and
buddhism
claim
not
to
be
a
religion
but
they
have
all
the
best
elements
hypocrisy
stupidity
and
mad !
just
an
escape
clause
so
they
don't
feel
they
have
to
to
kill
me !
fucking
religious
hypocrites !
it
is
already
full
of
bullshit !
of
course
is
fine
but
not
you
know
too
crazy !
and
energy ?
trying
to
blur
the
line
between
imagination
and
reality !
trying
to
blur
the
line
between
vision
and
reality !
visions
have
no
place
in
your
scheme
of
things
what
does
that
say
about
you
and
your
limitations ?
what's
very
hard
to
understand
with
anything
artistic
is
the
better
you
are
the
more
negative
those
around
you
can
be !
mightn't
have
liked
his
smell
after
a
while
you
completely
lose
track
of
the
writing
process
dominates
you
if
people
are
not
going
to
be
sensibly
motivated
to
avoid
issues
like
starvation
and
being
completely
broke
there
is
nothing
you
can
do !
on
the
other
hand
there
is
something
to
insensibility !
if
people
are
not
going
to
be
sensibly
motivated
to
avoid
issues
like
starvation
and
being
completely
broke
there
is
nothing
you
can
do !
you
cannot
do
night
shift
if
you
have
rigid
body
clock
genetics !
my
writing
that's
what
life
is
full
of
blighted
potential !
the
sound
of
a
sheet
being
ripped.
ducks
landing
on
water
across
the
paddock
after dark
really
describable
to
hit
you
for
calling
me
a
thick
aggressive
moron ! ”
is
your
action
that
of
a
thick
aggressive
moron ?
NO
BAM !
which
one
was
on
the
floor
we
don't
know
it's
all
surreal
imagination
anyway !
poetry
magazines
are
very
cliquey
getting
published
depends
on
who
you
know
are
married to,
or
have
as
an
in-law
work
both
ways
be
published
with
some
not
very
good
poetry
when
your
poems
can
shine
with
the
stars
of
the
firmament
on
the
net
fukushima
is
self -
injury
to
the
japanese
and
like
all
self
injury
seems
to
continue
unresolvably !
love
is
a
communication
of
infinity
somewhat
limited
and
plays
over
a
lifetime
to
a
captive
audience !
love
is
a
communication
of
infinity
somewhat
limited
and
plays
over
a
lifetime
my
vision
of
the
sixth
patriarch
or
naoko
the
priority
is
that
communication
from
infinity
not
just
the
dead
can
be
called
in
visions
but
fictions
too
why
can't
fictions
be
made
real
in
a
vision?
what
is
of
informed
imagination
with
reality !
i
think
the
moment
you
the
reader
start
to
communicate
with
me
we
leave
the
normal
and
enter
surreal !
i
think
moment
you
start
to
communicate
with
me
leave
the
normal
and
the
surreal !
the
way
to
keep
trim
is
to
sit
in
front
of
a
computer
all
day !
i
found
running
makes
me
fat
of
course
the
vampire
lover
niche
is
a
sort
of
fake
surreal
a
pastiche
of
of
writing
like
murakami !
well there is some hope !
love is not just feeling but what you do as well !
dry is like the underlying sterility or aridity
it's like the moon, they used to imagine all sorts of lush vegetation on it
it's just the true condition of life is revealed
that's why complete love is dry, it goes beyond the illusions !
of all people you ought to know that love is a poisoned chalice
if we could control it it wouldn't be love would it ?
imo
for
the
amount
of
work
that
goes
into
a
successful
translation
you
are
better
to
write
an
original
work
but
of
course
that's
not
everybody's
inclination !
i'm
the
seventh
patriarch
so
you
can
actually
trust
what
i
say
that's
one
thing !
what
i
write
is
some
mix
of
literary
and
real
you
have
to
work
it
out
that's
what
it
is
about !
god
they
show
the
world
their
smiley
faces ”
i
think
that's
a
really
good
poem
because
of
the
way
that
what
it
doesn't
say
is
so
apparent !
i
honestly
feel
that
having
come
through
the
hard
core
zen
blog
in
it's
unmoderated
days
that
i
have
finished
with
a
disease
process !
i
honestly
feel
that
having
come
through
the
hard
core
zen
blog
in
it's
unmoderated
days
that
i
have
finished
with
a
disease
i
honestly
don't
understand
zen
why
starve
yourself
to
teach
twaddle
to
abunch
of
morons/ idiots
what
they
don't
want
to
know
or
maybe
the
problem
is
they
do ?
eckhart
tolle
at
least
has
some
sense
tho
what he
teaches
is
half
baked
and
is
money
out
of
it !
i
am
a
non-
commercial
writer !
what
is
a
non-
commercial
writer?
well
steven
king
is
a
commercial
writer
he's
very
good
but
his
writing
is
limited
in
an
artistic
sense !
the
extraordinary
difficulties
of
living
mowing
the
lawn
having
sex
cooking
earning
an
income !
the
extraordinary
difficulties
of
living
mowing
the
lawn
having
sex
cooking
earning
an
living !
my
head
is
really
quite
a
deep
song !
you
are
all
blinded
by
women
that's
your
problem !
i
feel
out
of
the
hardcore
zen
blog
now
but
it's
like
there
was
a
definite
progression
of
involvement
and
leaving !
the moment you mention anything deterministic like the ratio of sex hormones in the womb influencing and having an impact on fetal development, people seem to go off their scones
the
world's
not
a
cuddly
teddy
bear
but
angry
grizzlies
for
example
in
terms
of
prison
sentences
you
can
argue
that
if
the
person is unlikely
to
reoffend
then
there's
no
point
in
sending
them
to
prison
however
that
is
not
how
the
justice
system
works
it
is
very
is
it
seeks
to
deter
others
from
commiting
is
these
svelte
female
bodies
behave
like
men !
lot
of
ads
and
all
computer
games
: o )
make
that
mistake!
my point was the ad is an ad, just bullshit selling bullshit !
being gay is decided in the womb by hormone balances
don't
think
shia
la beouf
is
in
any
way
gay !
when
you
accelerate
the
immune
system
you
sure
know
about
it
why
do
i
know
about
those
sort
of
things ?
i
tend
to
do
stuff
one
else
does
i
tend
to
do
stuff
no-
one
else
does
some
women
sometimes
take
the
view
that
any
publicity
even
if
it
brings
the
police
is
good !
women
sometimes
take
the
view
that
any
publicity
even
if
it
brings
the
police
is
good !
from
a
commercial
point
of
view
as
long
as
it
doesn't
bring
the
police
any
publicity
is
good !
where
you
see
meditation
you
see
schizophrenia
where
you
see
zazen
you
see
schizophrenia
that's not a new zealand or australian phrase
would
say
to
be
in
the
lime
light ! ”
and
actually
works
better
than
zazen
wouldn't
be
hard
as
makes
morons !
odd how advertising and technology is going to destroy the health of the french !
the
hardcore
zen
blog
that's
one
tar
baby
that
was
very
hard
to
get
out
of
had
to
put
a
crow
bar
in
eventually
brad
warner
it's
interesting
what
upsets
you
you
are
pissing
your
life
away
on
something
futile
and
meaningless
teaching
voynich
to
nutters !
you
are
degregistered
a
s
a zen
teacher !
seventh
patriarch !
couldn't
post
here
wrote
vertically
you
can't
see
it
can
you ?
conformists
and
idiots
go
together !
women
it's
not
the
vagina
but
the
womb
that
drives
them !
i
think
zen
has
tried
to
recreate
the
monastic
paradigm
and
failed
i
was
talking
about
it
last
night
with
the
sixth
patriarch
and
he
seemed
to
understand !
god
the
cackle
of
schizophrenics !
is
and
is
not (7:35)
zen
is
one
non-
economic
soup
and
tainted
at
that !
it's
basically
too
much
work
for
too
little
reward
who
gives
a
fuck ?
i'm
just
going
to
look
at
the
southern
cross
that's the whole problem with zen, they expect you do to all the work and it's hugely draining for very little or no or negative reward.
usually negative
have
to
say !
the
moment
you
stop
providing
input
it
all
falls
away
they
are
too
slack
to
do
the
work
themselves and now
just hang
about
on
message
boards/blogs
like
this
shitting
over
anything
of
sense !
i think if had the intial cancer removed with cyrosurgery (freezing ablation) rather than scalpel surgery he would still be alive
i
have
noticed that these very wealthy people for whom money
is
no
object don't get the best advice, rather it's always too conservative !
non -
commerical
writing
the
most
depressing
thing
you
can
do !