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i write
like
its
a parallel
universe
shes seeing another man
why
can't i
bloody cry?
born
to
the
useless
provided
the punctuation
capitalization
and
spelling
conform
to what the school marms
say
its
all
ok
so
bleat
the morons
spilling conceptual
rubbish
onto
page
after
page
small
minds
trying
to grasp
what
they
cannot
hold
they are written by
such
morons
ug
and
j
krishnamurti
are
better
understood
as
a
complement
of
which
ug
is
by
far
the more
interesting
half
i
never
existed
anyway
what
does
it
matter?
a woman
without
a
man
is
like
a driver
without
a
car
humans
are
evolutionary
robots
if bukowski has a weakness
and i think
it was the alcohol
its
that
he didn't
develop
the visual
absolute
face
of reality
enough
where
are
we
made
to
go
and
not
to
go?
so much
to do
so
little
time
to do
it
and
the net
is
so
wide
;o)
there is
an
inevitability
about
cycles
doesn't
begin
to
describe
him
the eyes
out of
dante
with
his
when lulled argus, baffled, swooned and slept
so on a delphic reed, my idle spright
so played, so charmed, so conquered, so bereft
the dragon-world of all its hundred eyes;
and seeing it asleep, so fled away
not to pure ida with its snow-cold skies
nor unto tempe, where jove grieved a day
but to that second circle of sad hell
where in the gust, the whirlwind, and the flaw
of rain and hail-stones, lovers need not tell
their sorrows. pale were the sweet lips i saw
pale were the lips i kissed, and fair the form
i floated with, about that melancholy storm.
they will tell you the diagnosis
if you listen even more carefully
they
will tell
you
the treatment”
was deregistered
bukowski has
taught me
to read keats
again
its
sorta
surprising
but actually
they
are very
similar
humans
are
the machinery
of
procreation
on charles bukowski's tombstone
“don't try”
donna willams
has become
a spaced out
brain
fart
just shows
what diabetes
does
to the brain
kitsch
is
humanities
natural
level
i think
what
i say
is
like a
diamond
dropped
into
an ants nest
they will
look
at
it
and
remove it
as
being
of
no
value
if
you
look
at what
is
eternal
it devalues
what
humans
value
and
this
is resented
the central problem
of taking constructs
for
native reality
of course
native reality
is
also
a construct
more nuts
raving schizophrenics
psychotics
con artists
the seedy
twits
the ungrateful
the slack
the lame
the just plain stupid
humanity
are
my
solace
the inauthentic
can't expect
to crap on
without
the
spirit
of
the
authentic
pulling
them
up
men have
no idea
about
women
attila
the hun
in a dress
poetry
is
a natural facility
of
the
brain
that
can be developed
its there
and can help you
why welter in the human
mire
of stupidity
for
want of a little effort?
we
only come
this way once
if theres one thing
i really
loathe
its all these single people
who will never have any kids
and
get things so wrong
and will spend thier lives
obstructing
those
with any understanding
your life is meaningless
in
terms
of conventional values
and all
you can
do is
spoil
things
just get rid of him
our motto is better to die than think
better smarmy fake politeness than real dealing
the usual female dilemma actually
i have
learnt
about women
is they still
can't think
straight
even
when
they need to
this business
of fellow traveller
is
quite
a powerful
way of thinking
who
is
a
fellow
traveller?
shared childhood experience carries a while
and so does genetics
but ultimately
you have to
be doing
some of the
same
things
to
travel
in
time
just read
you have
no control
over
women
they have their
own
agenda
and move
in
their
own
time
with
women
you have
to
be
so skilled
just
to
get up
safely
in
the
morning
behavior
is
genetic
programming
specific
as
body
and
organs
lying is
not
wrong
its
occasionally
necessary
both napoleon
and hitler
made
the
same mistake
napoleon by
not
offering
the serfs
their freedom
and
masters
estates
hitler
by
not
directly
going for
moscow
and
the
communist
rulers
a lack of
centrality
to addressing
the
vulnerability
two
very
prominent
achilles
heels
charlotte
you
are
pursuing
an
illusion
and
don't
give
me
a
fake
zen reply
we can be right
not through
any virtue
of
thinking things
through
but from
ones
personality
and the
way
one
reacts
and
behaves
forcing
the
issue
or
catalysing
a
situation
the basic zen
model
of transmission
of understanding
from
person
to
person
is wrong
hence
any notion
of
disciples
or
dharma
heirs
is
wrong
in terms
of
buddhism
buddha nature
is
what
certifies
and
thats
all
bunch of
frauds
blowing
bubbles
i
give
myself
too completely
to
one
thing
or
another
and
then can't
remember
the thing
i switched
from
love
has
its limitations
and
ungovernable
measure
nothing
is
not
some
empty
dead
quality
as it is
imagined
but dynamic
and full
of energy
in
the
face
of
all
eternity
what
i write
means
nothing
first its the flies
then its
the
swallows
get
out
of
the
house!
love and emotion
is a machinery
you're a funny person
an interesting mix
of sophistication
and
a
lack
of
sophistication
its
better
to
be a bit
catabolic
as
you get
older
the net
is not
particulary
a sane medium
there's
so
many crazies
when you
tell
people
what
they
need
to hear
with
any facility
that is
so
they
understand
well
that
is
trouble
just because you can read
doesn't
mean
you
understand
just another stupid vagina
what is life
what is death
who is
beth
inane ramblings
by
an
idiot
i am
as
much
of
the night
as
the day
its funny having
memory
its like you
are
the only one
who
knows
how
things
occurred
stunned mullet syndrome
the position of men
after
they
are
told
its over
there is a momentary union of ourselves and memory with infinity
if too many people found it the world would cease
people actually do have contact with it in their lives, its just they dont remember or are unable to understand it
or reject because it doesn't fit
sometimes it really scares me how our love has brought so much vision to me
eileen on composing her poem (untitled 371):
gosh thanx andrew it came into my head while i was doing some washing so i ran here (to the computer ed.) but it was slipping away
thats a weird feeling when there is a poem or something that starts to come out but is elusive as u see it it vanishes
andrew:
came from infinity and goes back
we have to go into quite a different space to see it and it doesn't last long
eileen:
yeah its like a rainbow
i've noticed i seem to have 2 different types of poem that come in 1 when im daydreaming the other if im analysing life etc
the first bit just jumped into my head it was so weird
i sang it sing song to myself
da da dee dee dee
snakes can hear
can you hear me?
she's too fat
he's too thin
nothing
is
ever
right
the poets
lot
seems to
be
poverty
poor health
rejection
being ignored
i
could
go
on
poems
are
relatively
objective
that is
they are not
just owned
by the poet
in terms
of the interpretation
and all
sorts
of
things
when
we
praise
another
who are we
praising
and
why?
i think
math
and poetry
are very similar
they
are just
a notation
for
remembering
something
a way
to think
about jesus
is
was
he
perfect?
when the going
gets rough
the
soft
fade
the fundamental fact of life
is cruelty
fortunately
for
most people
they are
not
visited
with
its
extremes
but some
are
its important for teenage and young women not to go
into an intense relationship that is more appropriate to settling down together
there's really about 4 years and longer
of playing the field with several boyfriends before that should happen
it is an actual developmental stage that has to be gone through
and why so many over-young marriages or cohabitations
break up
or rears its head
as infidelity
later in
life
i deleted two posts
bit funny rambling on
talking to myself
i posted some stuff about reading t2 t3 tsh
and it all came back to me
posting on thyroid boards
how hopeless it all was
didn't matter how right i was and how wrong the doctor was
they only wanted to hear the doctor
and the time i wasted ................
childless
i would have made a good father
i never
expected
to be
so taken
by this
particular dog
and
so mangled
by it
some are sceptical
others
not
sceptical
enough
me
i'm
about right
i have no
control
over
what i write
i can't select
out
stuff
and it
remain
coherent
i am feeling
so bruised
by the
whole business
that i can walk away
from
it
i can't
walk
away
from you
but if
you walk away
i can
walk
away
flies are smart
they know
the difference
between flailing arms
and
a swatter
with flailing arms
they are unperturbed
a couple of near misses with a swatter and they
are off
if i have a strength
its having
learnt to carry
something through
until its complete
in
its
own terms
i
let
that
carry
me
that comment about work
was sorta philosophic
and about
how attention gets fragmented
in part
one of karl marx's sons
was quite autistic
died young
karl marx
was indebted to
schopenhauer
for his fundamental
insight
about the demeaning nature of work
and the poverty
it induces
the utility of the first years of primary school
that is
learning
to
read
and
write
is
what
carries
the rest
of
the
whole
atrocious
system
wisdom is always violent
men are basically
a management problem
to
women
charles bukowski
is sorta like
opeming up the garage door
and finding yourself
looking down
an
artillery
gun!
why would you
sit through
the horror
that
is education
unless
you were
clinically
depressed?
sometimes the impossible
can
be done
just persist
when
it seems
most hopeless
if you reversed it and fed humans mouse chow and they became ill
would you advise mice not to eat mouse chow?
as you start to get more correct
you will conflict more
with
the
received wisdom
the whole secret is to not be a know all and expend your energy not in telling people how things are, but learning and progressing
if i am critical of the american education system and education in general its because it makes robots
may seem
harmless
but they
are
the
stepping
stones
to craziness
schooling shows
how depressed
the human species
is
kids
literally
waiting
to
die
we live in a cultural sewer
and perfume
the turds
that
float
by
one thing i have really learnt about life
is emotions don't always steer
us in the right direction
sometimes it just pays
to swallow your pride
and go with the flow
don't help an enemy
become
more compedent
all just turgid low level bullshit
is wonderful
and the moment you get real
it's wrong
you have a narrow soul, don't be part of the crowd
the injured have the greatest potential for broadness
and demonstrate it least
just as much as men
if you want replies, be nice and take a few first steps yourself into the subject matter so the replier doesn't have to go so far to meet you
be
several
roads
in
the same
direction
women are an interesting combination
of fragility
and ruthlessness
things exist
or they don't exist
i think
that
implies
time
what i am writing
itself
breaks down
harmless in some ways
empty space is a form of object
so i am not sure how meaningful
the three dimensions are
the basic human condition is schizophrenic
so sanity always hurts
there's those that talk about things
and there's those that do things
verbal language
is
more
powerful
than
mathematics
i am
slowly
removing
from
trying
to educate
people
the problem with women
is they
expect
a satisfactory
sex
life
emotions
are
robots
stephen king is a good writer
but he is too careless of mechanisms
for what he proposes
any sort of synchronicity with physics
a general weakness of the horror genre
john keats's “ode on a grecian urn”
is like a gift
to an undeserving world
for which
he
paid
a price