jesu  the  *supa nt*

i am an appearance

a deceiver

it's the  as  i'll crucify

a honey pot on a stick

to lure you in

while i suck on your bones

ed:   “nt”  is short for neurotypical,  “as”  is short for autistic/autism, autistic spectrum or aspergers

jesu  the  *supa nt*

i am an appearance

a deceiver

it's the  as  i'll crucify

a honey pot on a stick

to lure you in

while i suck on your bones

ed:   “nt”  is short for neurotypical,  “as”  is short for autistic/autism, autistic spectrum or aspergers

i'm really confused, the original poem was some words that just plopped through, but i forgot them and have to sorta reconstruct what the poem was, the original version was right.

another  version

jesu  the *supa nt*

i am an appearance

a deceiver

it's the  as  that i haul up on the cross

a honeypot on a stick

to lure you in

while i suck on your bones / i'll suck on your bones

i really hate this, it can a month of hard thinking to  work through the permutations.

or

i am an appearance

the deceiver

it's  as  that i haul up on the cross

a honeypot on a stick

to lure you in

i'll suck on your bones

in the link  (lost!)  under the photo's there's a hopeless translation of apoem by dogen

this is just my half thought

the weakness of clouds

dreaming

the blackness of rain

anybody else like to have a go?

you can't build self esteem. it's a neurological thing and low self esteem can be quite adaptive surprisingly because it enables viewpoints to pivot on others.

so for me  (i do not have high self esteem),  it enables me to pick up and move on the viewpoints of others,  it certainly has its down side in being a total cot case in being influenced by others, though when i am by myself, things reassert gradually.

what you might mistake as high self esteem is a very strong grounding in objective fact,  so the strength of the consistency of the objective view carries the weight and not me, i'd cripple in a second.  nt's basically cannot understand reality as a single homogenous flow, they deny it's unity and think individual viewpoints are valid.

jeremiah is straight asd,  (ed. autistic spectrum disorder)  look how the grounding in objective fact bore him through, that's what it's all about.

parents think asd is damaged, quite an understandable viewpoint but on this ground of objective fact shatters.

human life, it's sufficiencies and values are only obscurations on a vaster sea, it is damage in the human condition that enables this vaster sea to be seen.