i came across this  video  after writing this

“nothing exists in its pure unadultered form in this world

its always better to have a substantial degree of spoiling

because it will happen anyway”

pretty much the same thing, milder perhaps

if you compare them, you can see the difference between me and bukowski, i try to live with it much more than he does, less of a burn and crash type, tho of course i do burn and crash