07/04/02

四月 我家多了一台車 ... MX 5  一款 兩門 開篷的小跑車 .... 用我的名字 買的 ...

雖然  olive 不是很喜歡  .. 但是對我來說 這可是我  一台 不可多得的 跑車 ...

我 對於 這 一台 一不小心   就會失控甩尾的車 .. 可是很有興趣 ...

所以 從前天開始 我家有三台車  .. 一台我弟開走了 .. 剩下 兩台  ... 嘿嘿嘿 ...

都是我的 ... 耶 !!!!!!!

09/04/02

Tomorrow  .. the little green car is going to be fitted with alarm and sound system ... ^^

And This little devil is much more than an little Jap import .. It corners well , accelerate well...

Just a fun car to be around .. guess once I change some of the things in the car .. everything will be fine ,,,

^^ ................. and of course ... my goal is to learn drifting like guys in Initial D ... Yeah ...

13/04/02

''Listen, here's the thing. If you can't spot the sucker in your first half hour at the table, then you are the sucker."

Maybe .. I am the sucker in my whole life .. I am not what I think I am ... ^^

27/04/02

一晃眼 又兩個禮拜了 .... 我發現自己常常 開了網頁 卻不知該寫些什麼 ... 本來想寫一些 日常活動

卻又覺得 嗯 ... 很無力 ...  我爸媽 回去台灣了 ... 所以 我家  又是只剩下我一個人 ...

最近錢花的很兇..... ..... errrr .... 很 久才寫一次日記 代表了 我現在的生活  沒有太多空的時間 或者是

我的日子過的不錯 所以 也沒有什麼 好 抱怨的 ... 但 是 當然  也可以說是 我的生活最近很平凡 .. 

嗯  希望 枷哩角 可以贏   3 T ... 賺多一點錢  來修理    三天一小壞 五天一大壞      坳尿  的 眼鏡 ....  Yeah !!!! 

27/05/02

^^ another month passed by .. and I am still not that keen on writing my diary ....

many many friends send me e-mail .. ask me not to give up ... ^^  thanks .. many thanks ..

You are all my good friends .. thanks ^^   I will always remember .. ^^  

Tina, Tasha , Carol , Aiwa.... olive  and... many other friends .........  thanks ^^ 

30/05/02

The above is a comic version of my new car ... same color too             

although it is actually an old car .. but a new car for the family ..

after spending some considerate amount of  money on this car.. now the car runs very well and smooth ...

At least this is a car that can make 0 to 100 in 8 sec .. although not a performance car to any mean but this is

a fun car to throw around the corner.... and not bad for a small  NA   non turbo car ... speedwise  

01/06/02

無力感 是我這幾天的心聲 .....  嗯 ... 沒寫日記    ...  有些原因  ...所以 不想寫 .. 也不能寫 ...

我覺得 ..要是不能寫心裡 想說的話   那又何必寫 ....? 這樣一來 豈不是 背叛了我寫日記的原意  

我認為 在不同人的眼中 我們 彼此扮演不同的角色 ... 有時成熟 .. 有時幼稚 ...

有些人  是 我們  吃定的對象 ....而 有些人   我們 就是 沒法 與之抗衡,  .....

天底下有那麼多人 .. 每個人的性格 都有所不同 ... 與其尋找一個和自己 性格相同的人做朋友

倒不如 試著去接受  每個人 不同的特點 .... 

每個人都希望被尊重 但是在這份期待的背後 .. 是否也有想過 自己也該尊重別人 ....

09/07/02

Today... My Mom's Dad....Grandpa passed away ... it was a sad day .... for the family...

Mom cried to death and Dad busy helping out ....  Me and Jimmy in NZ missing my grandpa..

Grand is a nice person .. always good to us  ... although we are not straight blood relatives.. but we are close..

Guess it would never be the same if I ever go back to grandpa house again .. No....

Why there is a difference between Dad's Dad and Mom's Dad ... They are all the same to me ..

oh well ... Wish I could have been there when Grand passed away ... I wish I could .....

We are not allowed to go back for him because some of other more important grandsons are not going back to his funeral

so if they don't go .. we can't go ...  What the heck .. I don't get it ? Afraid we shared their money ?   Sick Fxxxing asshole...

Gee...  Now the drama "Grab Grand's Money"  is on the way ... 

Everyone is in deep pain ..  The pain called " Sharing the money" .. ><

Wonder what Grand would think ............

if he realized how my beloved uncles and aunties trying to kill each other over his hard earned money now .. 

Finally I feel bad for my grandma ... who lost a life time companion ... mn...

let's see how my uncles and aunties treat my grandma after they got their money...

Before I even think about it... this whole thing already making me sick  ..... very very sick .. 

16/07/02

好像 很久沒有一種被感動的感覺了 ... 像似 看電影的感動 ..  看小說的感動 .... 看連續劇的感動 ...

看了一部電影 .. 心裡 卻 好似 少了點 什麼 ..  原本該令人感動的結局  我卻變成免疫 ....

想念    一種讓我感到 內心澎湃...  或者該說  被震撼的感覺 .. ..  ..

最近 忙碌的生活  讓我沒時間  一個人靜一靜  沉澱自己 ...只是 思考 ...

話說回來  .. 長時間的沉澱    又會令人感到悲傷  .... 無趣 ....

我所思念的感動  就好像  一道  難忘的美食 ... 只知 曾經嚐過滋味 卻不知 哪裡還有機會再次品嚐 ..   

但願 ... 未來  .. 也可以能 再有一次  銘心刻骨  的感動 ......

18/07/02

說真的 今天在看我前天寫的日記 ... 真的覺得 我很假說 ...

雪特 ... 怎麼可能      ... 真是太噁心了 ... 唉 ... 算了   算了

有時   人  也是需要   發洩一下  暗藏  自己 內心  三八  的 一面 ...

望  ... 大夥  多多包含 .....  還有 Olive 買了一隻手機給我

我們 兩個 用同一隻機子 ..就算了  .. 居然還同一個顏色 ... 真是夠了...

原來 .. 三八的人 .. 都是會相聚在一起的 ... 嘿嘿嘿 ... 愛華 .. 我也跟你很好說 ... 

07/08/02

總覺得   最近幾個月  活的  很  沒 朝氣 .....  一切 好像都是 死氣 沉沉 的 ...

被人無理由的  牽制著 ... 說實在 ... 過的  真不算快樂 ... 我的生命好像 

就要變成 他人似的..  對於我想做 的 事情   我 卻 沒能 掌握.... 行動 .... 

剛開始  還可以接受 ... 還可以 說是 一種 甜蜜 的 負擔 .. 但是時間 久了 ..

慢慢 轉變 成 一種 虐待 ...    精神上的 折磨 ...  自然而然的  我也開始 累了 .....

對於這樣單方向的低頭 .. 唉 ...  ....................................................................

何嘗不希望 可以在這裡 發洩一番 .. 為所欲為的抱怨一場 ...

但是  不行  ... 連這裡 也變成一個 言論 的 禁地 .....   ......

難道說 ... 以後我的世界 將成為一言堂 ?  難道說 我的人權  要被這樣 踐踏 ?

有人說 退一步 海闊天空   但是 讓步 讓步的 最後  就是被人欺負 ...

對一個 不甚成熟的人   讓步   最後只是寵壞了他 .... 搞累了自己 ....

我 要改變  .. 我 需要 改變....   讓 自己 走出這個 緊箍  ... 讓自己變的 更好...

我的第一步 就是 改變 我  一受到欺壓  就 想吃的  壞毛病 ....  唉 ...  是這樣了 ..

7th/Oct/02

An End is not an End.  It is the start of something New.  

If we shall end ... then I will be looking forward to the new start ...

Two significantly different people could have a good partnership 

if and only if they work towards the same goal. 

I know people fights but it doesn't make sense, if we have to go to war each time we argue,

especially, especially over such small dispute.  

People say Love can over-power everything in this world.  True , but condition apply.

I don't understand how people could use this world 'Love' to such extend that 

they think been selfish is a form of expressing Love...   

Just don't get it.  Why blame people when you can work out the problem together.

For god sake this person could be someone you going to spend the rest of the life with,

why not work together instead of picking on things sorely due to self- characters.

Anyway I don't mean to whine every time I write my diary, it just so happend. You know.