From Destruction To Deliverance
It all started as a small, innocent distraction. A glance, a smile, a word, a wink, then a comment, a short discussion, a longer one, more secluded and quieter talks, and finally even longer and more intimate heart-felt talks and discussions that could have gone on forever if only I had my way.
Little did I know that all of this was leading to a more serious relationship or consequences; the division of so many things I held so dear in the past... Like my devotion to my spouse, my commitment to my marriage vows, my loving obligations to my children and grandchildren, and the most important of all was the relationship I had with God. Turning my thoughts as much as I could away from the things that mattered most of all to me, I continued on with my relationship with my new friend as I called her, until my wife find out...
The destruction of so many things that I would later regret meant more to me then life itself. What I found in a special friend almost destroyed the love my wife had held so dear in her heart for me all these years; along with the love of my children, grandchildren and the family I had been a part of over the years, and I had to ask myself, Was it worth it? Was it worth loosing my self-respect over? My quilt and sorrow ate their way into my spirit and I felt nothing but a deep sense of grief all over.
The despair gripped all my senses. Dear God, What have I done to my family? How could I have let this happen? How could I have been so stupid and blind? How could I have ever jeopardized my own family and my friends family? I never intended for anyone to get hurt period! A friendship that started slowly brought destruction into so many lives, and now the quilt I carry is unbearable.
God had warned me as He reminded me of my family at home and scriptures that I knew was brought back to my remembrance, but nothing stopped me from walking down the path of destruction that I was on, even though I knew I was doing wrong.
Falling into the hand of the living God when youre in the wrong is more devastating then anything else in this world. I found my spirit cried all the time. I prayed and ask for forgiveness many times, but I couldnt feel forgived... Only depressed. Then sitting in the car over-looking the ocean a miracle took place... It was as if Jesus came down from heaven and calmed the rough sea, the rays of His forgiveness and His love shined brightly through the low clouds and seemed to engulf my very being giving me a new chance to prove my love to Him first, then my wife, children, grandchildren and family.
We do serve a mighty, forgiving and loving God dear friends... And I will spend the rest of my life making amends for my wrongs and learning how to be the best that I can be in the eyes of my God.
Author Unknown
If any of you find yourself in this predicament please read Proverbs Chapter 5, 6 and 7, then pray and ask Jesus to come back into/or into your heart.