Mother,
did it need to be so high?
What
we have here are the lyrics of a song by Pink Floyd, a British band of the
70's.They were written by Roger Waters in 1979 for the album The Wall ,
which was also made into a very succesful and controversial film of the
same name three years later. One can say it is autobiographic as it is loosely
based on the lives of two of Pink Floyd's members . It combines elements
of both lives into the fictional character of Pink. Pink's childhood
is very similar to that of Roger Waters, the main writer of the Wall. Waters,
who lost his father in World War II, drew on his many emotions of abandonment
and loneliness for this album. Pink's adult life, on the other hand, is
based on that of the original lead singer Syd Barret. After suffering a
mental breakdown due to drugs, Barret was replaced soon after by David Gilmour.
Waters mentions in one of his many interviews that The Wall
is a story of a generation, the generation of war-babies but one can also
see it as the story of anybody who gets left by someone. It is a story of
loneliness,separation and of isolation from the world . The wall represents
the breach in communication, the various obstacles that pile up in our lives
and make us retreat into our universe.
The song above sounds like a conversation between
Pink and his mother.Actually, during the film, we see it happen in Pink's
imagination. He's on a tour in the States, feels lonely and tries to contact
his wife on the phone without result. The song is a flashback to his childhood
and young adulthood interspersed with flashes of his present situation.
In
the first stanza, Pink asks his mother for opinion, her advice over important
matters: "Mother, do you think….; Mother, should I ?".
The fact that he calls her "mother" and not "mum"
makes us think that he must respect her and consider her as a mentor, orienter.
We have the impression he is still a little boy. We notice that most of
his fears and doubts are over the war ( "drop the bomb", "firing lines"
), rooted probably in his father's death. He then wonders if "they",
(meaning society, his peers, the world) will like what he has
to say ("like my song") or try to break him down (break my balls).
I assume that the building of a wall he refers to is a protection which
he can use to isolate himself from adversity, things that hurt him. When
he mentions "running for a president" I would tend to think this expresses
his dreams and hopes for the future just like young kids who want
to become firemen or policemen when they grow old. He then wonders whether
he should trust the government and if "they" will take him down .
At the end of this stanza, three different lyrics were sung. In the album
version, Pink asks "Is it just a waste of time?" with "it" probably referring
to life. In the movie Pink sings "Am I really dying?" and we are shown that
as a child, Pink became seriously ill, almost to the point of dying.
The third lyric is from one of the group's live concerts in which
Pink sings "What a crazy time" referring to the events going on, World
War II, and his life in general.
In the second
stanza we have the mother answering like a mother usually does when her
child is in trouble: she comforts him: hush (be quiet)….don't cry (don't
worry). Mama is referred to in the 3rd person (she) The fact that
the word "Mama" is used gives us a feeling of tenderness and affection.
When we read the second verse, we expect her to say that she is going to
solve his problems, fix everything. However, we are startled to find out
that she wants his nightmares to come true and that she will put all her
fears into him. It is as if by making him fragile and insecure she will
force him to stay with her. She can then control him, have him "under her
wing". I would say she is overprotects her child, but then , to a
certain extent, she has a good reason to be like this. She lost her
husband in war, Pink was once very ill so she doesn't want to lose her baby.
To cover up her own fragility and weaknesses, she becomes overconcerned
and maternal, making him dependent on her, dominating him, making him unable
to choose, determine his destiny: "she won't let you fly but she might let
you sing". Notice the use of "might"…it's as if she were blackmailing him
into being obedient: only if you are nice will I give you a candy. And finally
here, we get the answer to the question Pink asked his mother earlier...The
answer is "Of course Mama's gonna help build a wall." She helps build the
wall by encouraging him to seek shelter in her arms,by keeping him cosy
and warm, trying to keep him far away from the harsh reality.
Also, she helps build it unknowingly because she is one of the bricks
in Pink's life.
In his second
stanza, Pink seems to be older than in the first one. Here, he is either
dating or possibly married. His questions concern the girl he is with;
he asks his mother whether his girlfriend(wife?) is good enough for him,
whether she is dangerous to him, whether she will dominate him, or will
she break his heart. In the film we see a scene where his wife betrays
him while he is away on the tour.
In her second verse, Mother answers Pink's concerns towards the girl. Once again,
we see how watchful and wary (psychotic) she is. By checking his
girlfriends, following him wherever he goes ("Mama will always find out
where you've been") she is helping him to build the wall. Her
next line shows that no matter what, Pink will always be baby blue to her; in
her eyes he will always remain a child, needing the attention
, care and protection. When she says "healthy and clean" we are reminded of
food and nappies that a small child needs. "You'll always be baby to me."
Pink's last line
"Mother did it need to be so high?"may refer to the wall, which was almost
finished when he left home. So
he may be saying:'Mother, I know I needed a wall, but did it have to be so high
that I can't go out if I need to?"