**Thursday April 2, 1998* *

...*sigh*...I wish I knew where to start today...the last two days have been hell...I am such an extremeist...everything becomes such a huge deal to me...my parents want to put my dog to sleep...he's a healthy 5 year old puppy and he only misbehaves because he's left alone 9 hours a day and when my parents are home the pay him no attention...I know it seems so silly that I would be so utterly devistated about an animal ...animals are my life, I care more for any animal than I do for people...I have three cats and they are my one and only joy...they make me laugh and I feel more love for them than I could for a child of my own...I would give my life to preserve the life of an animal.. anyway seeing as I am an extremeist and animal activist..I plan to take him from my parents home...by doing so I would most likely give up my family...but I feel whole heartedly that it is morally wrong to put a perfectly healthy dog to sleep because he doesnt fit into your lifstyle...I've made my choice...now I have to act on it...I mighy add that by making this choice I will have to find an apt of my own... all though Brian has already told me he wants me to move out...this finalizes it...but in the end I will know I made the right choice...right?