*Tuesday April 7, 1998*

All is well here I suppose...Brian and I have been getting along so much better now that I'm trying to move out...the apartment hunting isnt going well though...I looked at a beautiful place today that I will never in a million years get...and I think it's really sad that people look at my age as the deciding factor...I'm 19 (almost, 11 more days) years old, I've lived out of my parents home for two years....I know what it takes...I can pay rent and bills and be a good tenant...why does my age matter damnit?...when is it that I become an adult?...the government says I'm old enough to vote, drink, drive and smoke....why cant I have the apartment I want?...*pout*...but it's only the 7th, I'll find something eventually...I've met a wonderful girl...I think about her all the time....I talked about her a little bit in my last entry....but I dont think I expressed how great she really is *grin*...I love you Shanna *grin*, I love your smile, words, mind, body, soul and company...you make me SO happy...

I'd like to thank all of the people that have been so patient with me lately...I know it's taken me a long time to get back to your e-mails and I havent been around very much lately to chat...but when I get my shit together things will get back to normal...I love you all and again thank you :)