*sigh*...well, I dont have much to say today...it's been an uneventful yet eventful last couple days...Shanna I'm guessing wants nothing to do with me...she has e-mailed me back or called...I dunno what to do...what can I do?...I know it's my fault that things have gone the way they are...but I want her to know...cause I know she's reading this ...that I cant help or change who I am...I've been hurt too many times, I dont trust many people anymore...can you blame me?... I want to learn how to love and trust you fully...but I have alot of emotional baggage that I cant dealing with...I need your time and support ..if you care for me...if not atleast let me know...dont ignore me.... please!