*Friday March 27, 1998 (1:59am)*

I havent been keeping up with this...damnit I either dont follow threw with something or I become obsessed...I havent been to the Y since Monday either...Brian and I are broke big time...we have no money at all for the next two weeks...I should get used to having no money I suppose...you arent supposed to have any money when you live on your own...I'm just so used to having everything I want and need...*sigh*...I'm really stressed out....I talked to Matt tonight...he wasnt thrilled about talking with me but I sucked it up....I was mature, honest and I didnt bitch...I asked him to come out for coffee with me...mistake I think...I guess I just dont think it's right to throw away three months because his "friends" dont like me...all because I made a choice that was best for me...I hate people that judge others....do they have any idea what it's like to be me?....goddamn!!