There have been times in my life,
that I thought I wouldn't make it.
The crimes from the past come back,
to haunt me day after day.
They made my heart cry out in pain,
and tore my world apart
All my life I had been looking,
for someone to love me.
I had found people who would,
take away a childs innocence.
I had found people who were cold,
and only had words of pain.
I had found people who would,
use my body and then toss it out.
I had tried everything to make,
the pain and sorrow dissapear.
I had tried drugs to fod my,
mind from the hurt.
I had tried alcohol to numb,
my heart from the sorrow.
I had been wallowing in self pitty
for so long,I only saw black.
I had been searching for love
in all the wrong places.
I lifted my head,not to the sky,
but to the heavens.
and I asked why was this
happening to me?
When I felt i just could
not go on anymore.
That's when I discovered that
he loves and accepts me.
He aska no questions,noor does
he want any answers.
For he is love,kindness,and peace,
he is the light!
Katherine Vanni,
December 24th,1992
You sowed the seed long ago,
and hoped it would grow
You nourished it with kindness,
and watered it with love.
You watched it grow from a seed,
to a beutiful rose.
Katherine Vanni(Date Unknown)
How can I express how I feel about you?
You are my life.
Whenever I am down and need a boost,
you are there.
When things are great and I need to share,
you are there.
Katherine Vanni(Date Unknown)
~~~~~~~~MY SOUL~~~~~~~~
Here comes the pain again,here comes the tears again,
who gave you permission to touch my body and soul?
What right do you have to take away my innocences?
Not a day goes by that I don't rember what you did!
Sometimes I can fight them and resume my normal life
And sometimes they come rushing back and I break down.
I don't understand why you did what you felt you had to,
But you did and left me with one hard learned lession,
That the road to heaven can be a very,rocky,road
Katherine Vanni,
February 20th,1992
~~~~~~~~Father~~~~~~~~
Why did you shut me out of your life?¿
Why did you always shout?¿You never took
Why did you never hug me?¿Or tuck me in at night?¿
I need a father to look up to,but only saw
a stranger.
You were so hostile and angry,
I was so feightend of you
Whatever I did you never noticed,
now my soul has secrets.
Now that I am older and wiser.
I see you for what you are and
I am not sure if I like what I see.
I don't love you or hate you.
I have grown numb
Katherine Vanni,
December 30th,1992
~~~~~~~~Sometimes~~~~~~~~
I look through my mind I see your face.
It has faded with time,but I would know it anywhere.
Those chestnut eyes,
full of such pain and lonelyness.
We thought our love could stand the terst of time.
Though we came from seperate worlds,miles apart.
We felt the heavens had shined down on us.
But over time it died like the last autumn leaf.
Did we let fear and ignorance blind us?
Or were we just pretending ancestry didn't matter?
Sometimes i wonder what it would have been like.
If things had worked out
and our love was true.
Sometimes I wonder.
Katherine Vanni,
December 25th,1992
The Wind That Shakes The Barley
I sat within the valley green
I sat me with my true love.
My sad heart strove the two between
The old love and the new love.
The old for her the new
That made me think on Ireland dearly.
While soft the wind blew down the glade
And shoke the golden barley.
T'was hard the woeful words to frame
To break the ties that bound us.
But harder still to bear the shame
of foreign chains around us.
And so I said the mountain glen
I'll meet at morning early.
And I'll join the bold united men
While soft winds shook the barley.
T'was sad I kissed away her tears
My fond arm around her flinging.
When a foe, mans shot burst on our ears
From out the wild woods ringing.
A bullet pierced my true loves side
In life's young spring so early.
And on my breast in blood she died
While soft winds shook the barley.
But blood for blood without remorse
I've ta'en at oulart hollow.
I've lain my true love's clay like corpse
Where I full soon must follow.
Around her grave I've wandered drear
Noon,night, and morning early.
With breaking heart when e'er I hear
The wind that shakes the barley.
Written by, Lisa Gerrard & Brendan Perry
Sung by "Dead Can Dance"
More to come
LINKS
Katherine's art page
Lisner Gallery
My Guestbook sign and read it.
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