InSiDe My HeAd

This is pretty much my opinion on general topics. A lot of things have changed in the 3 or so years since I last updated this website. If you're offended by anything here, tough shit.

My thoughts on:

Love: How do you define love? I love my parents, i love my friends, i love my cat and dog. I love my boyfriend (now my husband) very much. Love is something different to everyone. Love is a big bag of peanut butter M&Ms. Love is a warm cat draped across your legs. Love is being able to cuddle with someone that loves me for who i am and doesn't criticize me or attempt to psychoanalyze me every minute of the day. Love is someone that puts up with my mood swings and migraines. Love doesn't care what you look like. Love doesn't care what you believe in. Love just *is* and that's what's so wonderful about it.

Sex: I waited until I was married. I do not regret it in the least, in fact, I can't imagine having sex with someone other than my husband. We share something special now, and I suppose that if you didn't wait, you wouldn't be able to understand that. And unfortunately, if you don't wait, you won't have a chance to share that something special. So if you're like, a virgin but thinking about doing it -- don't. If you aren't a virgin but you aren't married -- there's still time to change your ways and save yourself.

Marriage: Holy crap, Rob decided that I wasn't so bad after all and proposed to me on April Fools Day, 2002. Online, on the message board i frequent, no less. The proposal was anticipated... we had been talking about getting married for the past couple of months and it was just a matter of making it official. We were married July 14th, 2002. Honeymooned in Colorado Springs. Hey, we'd been dating for something like two and a half years... we didn't need a long engagement.

God: Me and God are tight. Jesus, he's cool too.

Religion: As much as people cringe when I say it, I'm a fundamentalist Christian. Basically, if it isn't in the bible, it's bullshit. Which means that most catholic dogma is right out. This doesn't mean i run around telling people they're going to hell for *fill in the blank*, this doesn't mean i'm like, some sort of radical right-winger, but this does mean that I take the bible very seriously and have devoted a lot of time to interpreting what it says properly. And the key thing here is that Jesus said, "Love your neighbor." Not, "Love your neighbor, provided he agrees with everything you say." I'm not here to preach about people going to hell for committing their sins -- i'm here to speak personally about Jesus and salvation that's available to everyone, regardless of what they've done.

Chocolate: I am a chocolate addict. I'm incredibly easy when it comes to chocolate. Some people smoke, some people drink. I eat chocolate. Some things never change.

Music: I love rock. I love alternative rock especially. I was raised on Zepplin. I don't like Zepplin too much anymore, mostly just Stairway, but the influence is there. I have an odd fetish for 80s music. Don't ask me why. I just... like it more than i should. I also have a downright obsession about The Smashing Pumpkins and Radiohead. I'm the type of person that will buy every single cd by an artist that i can get my hands on. Within reason. I hate excessively popular music. I love good music. And i listen to a lot. Not much new stuff (since most new stuff sucks balls), but every once in a while i hear something new and good. Rob's cd collection is starting to rub off on to me also, though i will never love pearl jam or lifehouse. Tool though, tool is growing on me.

High School: Fuck 'em all. I can't wait to see how my classmates fared in the 'real world,' or rather, the world where mommy and daddy weren't there to threaten the teachers and everyone else to make sure their little shit succeeded.

Death: I'm not scared of death, and i'd rather not die right now, but if it's my time, it's my time. The minute you're born, your days are numbered. There isn't a whole lot you can do about it. I used to be extremely suicidal, but i've moved on. I like living a bit too much. I'd rather have a shitty day than no day at all. I have too much to do.

Children: I have always sworn i will never, ever have children, and if i do, i promise they won't be the little heathens people are raising today. I really hate kids though. I hate going to stores and having to dodge them all the time, or listening to the little shits cry. I don't want any of my own. Fortunately, rob doesn't want kids either.

Pets: I'm okay with animals, as long as they aren't crapping in my yard. I much prefer cats to dogs, they're much smaller and cleaner. And, cats don't bark and jump up on you and scratch your legs up (okay, so they do scratch you up, but usually only when provoked). But i won't tolerate animal abuse of any kind. Abusing an animal because you think it's cool or fun. I'd love to have pet ferrets someday. They're such neat looking animals.

Alcohol: People that drive drunk and kill people should die. We don't need that. I have nothing against drinking, but people have a responsibility to society.

Men: They're still mostly pigs. Where i work, it's like, 95% guys. So i get to meet a lot of arseholes and a lot of cool guys. But they're still mostly pigs.

Abortion: I'm not going to tell anyone what they can and can't do with their body. I'm not saying abortion is the right decision, but i'm not going to tell someone they can't get one. If they regret their decision 10 or 20 or 2 years later, then it's their own damn problem. And living with what they did is a suitable punishment. If i got pregnant now, i'd probably have an abortion. I'm going to do as much as I can to prevent myself from getting pregnant, but if the unthinkable did happen, i simply because i cannot handle having a child right now. And, i won't deny anyone the right to make the same choice i would make.


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