June 1999

Chaos has always been a dream of mine. Being heard and having positive feedback. So far the feedback has been overwhelming and unexpected. For years I would barely touch my guitar or think of wirting music. Then I got this feeling that I wanted to accomplish something. I wrote a few songs and played them out with my friends Ian and Owen. Ian and I started to jam a lot and wrote some pretty nifty stuff, well to us it was. For some reason I just started enjoying music a lot more than I used to. Riffs started to be written and lyrics started to spew forth. Eventually songs arose and confidence crept in. I played more frequently and wrote more tunes. Jam tapes and 4 track recordings lay around but nothing came of any of it. Then I met my ex and I just kinda dropped music. I still tinkered, but that was all it was, I stoppped jamming with people and something in me left. I don't know how to explain it, but my music ability upped and left as well as my desire. Well, times change, emotions flow, and desire can return. After the relationship came crashing to a hault, I spent a month feeling sorry for myself and being a basket case. Then I learned about Mp3.com and decided to post some of my older work from before I hung up the guitar. The response was amazing and desire thundered back in. I have been playing quite a bit and written a lot of songs in the last few months. The music is almost all there, and as of late, the lyrics have become solid. It took some time to sort out my feelings and have recently figured out who I am and how I want to express my feelings. Gone are the days I wrote about nothing but slaughtering and meaninless garble. While the music will remain true and heavy, the lyrics have taken a turn and are more about how I feel inside rather than what I see. I still have a few songs voicing opinions of subjects that ruffle me and of how I see certain things. World wide disease in particular has got back differing opinions, but everyone is entitled to critisize my views if that is how they feel. A few songs will have the brutal side of life still. I wouldn't want to disapoint yas. :) So in the coming months, keep your eyes and especially your ears open for my biggest venture into music to date. CHAOS - Surviving Soul. I will have this album availabe at Mp3.com on DAM (Digital Audio Music) CD's and for regular CD's or cassette through me. Thanks again for all the feedback and support.

July 1999

Well, a little bit has changed in the last little while. Chaos will be kind of put on hold for awhile. I have recently joined the band NIHILITY and will be concentrating on working on new songs and existing songs for that band. Chaos will always be around and when the time is right, I will complete the project.