Recovery
S.Cameron ~99~

How many times do I have to try
How many times will they all lie
What do I do to deserve this pain
Close my heart so it won't happen again

That's not the answer to this cyble
Why blame myself for trying to give
All of myself to make her happy
She closed the door, how can I live

A mind caught up in the false pretense
Lies and misery given to me
Manipulation that changed who I am
For her mistakes I pay

Getting deep inside my mind
Pulling strings for my demise
False love which I thought true
Leave me wounded, scarred deep

A mind caught up in the false pretense
Lies and misery given to me
Manipulation that changed who I am
For her mistakes I pay

The mind games brought hurt
We both were not meant to be
But when I spoke this truth you ignored
Now look at our misery

This is not worth it, why feel pain
Just let this terror end
You wanted love and I gave you all
While your lies were destroying me

A mind caught up in the false pretense
Lies and misery given to me
Manipulation that changed who I am
For her mistakes I pay

Getting deep inside my mind
Pulling strings for my demise
False love which I thought true
Leave me wounded, scarred deep

A mind caught up in the false pretense
Lies and misery given to me
Manipulation that changed who I am
For her mistakes I pay

After all the chances I gave you
Now you want to close the door
Did I act like you? Whining and begging?
No, I understood what was right

I've known for a while this was not real
You were never my soul mate
She's out there looking for me
Somene who can re-open my heart

My mind now dreams of a future to come
Love and happiness will be shown to me
The cold icy shadow lifted off of my soul
A dream come true, my fantasy

Getting deep inside my heart
Pain no longer exists
I'll find real love soon
It'll heal my wounds

She's out there looking I'll keep her safe
Two souls will become one
Only time will tell and I'll wait
My future I'll hold safe in my heart

No longer in shackles I can move
Her cloud of shadows far behind
Picking up the pieces of my life
I've begun to make my recovery