Songs

Because of my love of music and the power that it can have as a "mood enhancer" I've decided to put this page up to emphasize some of my favorite songs. This page may be changing frequently. I'm going to put clips of lyrics to songs that describe the way I feel at this moment in time. Emotions, feelings, and thoughts are hard to describe and sometimes I think songs say it best.

Check for lines in YELLOW for how I feel at the time of this update.

Last updated July 24, 2000

SAVAGE GARDEN

You wanted it so much, and now that it’s over you don’t know what you want.-- "Universe"

Don’t be too forceful, you’ll ruin your chances. Well don’t you know that time is a broken glass that splinters against the wall? Don’t you know that powerful thinking can be a force you don’t want to relinquish? Well don’t you know that, they say that hanging on will justify the wait?-- "Promises"

We stumble in a tangled web, decaying friendships almost dead. And hide behind a mask of lies. Begin to doubt my state of mind. But I won’t go down on what I said, I won’t retract convictions read. I may perplex but I’m not blind. You could resurrect a thousand words to deceive me more and more. A thousand words will give the reasons why I don’t need you anymore.-- "A Thousand Words"

Is love really the tragedy the way you might describe? Or would a thousand lovers still leave you cold inside? All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls. Stolen pearl devotions we keep locked away from all the world. Love will be the death... the death of you.-- "Tears of Pearls"

If there’s a way that you could be everything you want to be, would you complain that it came to easily? You want to give ecstasy delivered with certainty. But you’re afraid that the pleasure won’t be needed. Contemplate jealousy intermixed with urgency. A million things take a d*mned good shot at you and me.-- "Violet"

Beauty so unavoidable, everywhere you turn it’s there. I sit and wonder what am I doing here?? But on the telephone line I am anyone. I am anything I want to be. I never felt so lonely, never felt so out of place, I never wanted something more than this. I could be a caped crusader, or space invader and you would never know the difference.... or would you?-- "Santa Monica"

A new beginning. A reason for living. A deeper meaning. I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to lay like this forever until the sky falls down on me.-- "Truly Madly Deeply"

I never thought I’d change my opinion again. But you moved me in a way that I’ve never known. So break me shake me hate me take me over. When the madness stops then you will be alone. Well you confuse me in a way that I’ve never known. You just keep me contemplating that your soul is slowly fading. God, don’t you know I live with a ton of regret. Cause I used to move you in a way that you’ve never known... But you hurt me in a way that I’ve never known.-- "Break Me Shake Me"

She’s taking her time making up the reasons to justify all the hurt inside. Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes. Everyone’s got a theory about the bitter one. She can’t remember a time when she felt needed. ‘Love is like a barren place and reaching out for human faith is like a journey I just don’t have a map for.’ Send a signal that she’s hanging all her hopes and dreams on the stars.... what a pleasant dream. Got a ticket for a world where we belong... So would you be my baby?-- "To The Moon And Back"

I'm the kind of person who endorses a deep commitment. Getting comfy getting perfect is what I live for.-- "I Want You"

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument. I believe that junk food tastes so good because it’s bad for you. I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem. I believe that you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye. I believe you can’t control or choose your sexuality. I believe that forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness. I believe in love surviving death into eternity.-- "Affirmation"

But bitterness has silenced these emotions. Now we don’t live, we exist. We just run through our lives, so alone. That’s why you’ve gotta hold me. I might need you to hold me tonight. I might need you to say it’s alright.-- "Hold Me"

I think I’ve found my best friend. I know that it might sound a little crazy but I believe. I am complete now that I found you.-- "I Knew I Loved You"

Walk on broken glass, make my way through fire. These are things that I would do for love.-- "The Best Thing"

When you feel all alone and a loyal friend is hard to find. Let me be the one you call. When you feel all alone and the world has turned it’s back on you, give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart.-- "Crash and Burn"

I’ve been having difficulties keeping to myself. Feelings and emotions better left up on the shelf. Sometimes this life can get you down. It’s so confusing, so many rules to follow. But I don’t feel it because I just run away in my mind.-- "The Animal Song"

Am I all alone in the universe? There’s no love on these streets. I’ve given mine away to a world that didn’t want it anyway.-- "Lover After Me"

I wonder if you know the pain, to want the one thing you haven't got. It seems I'm not on your mind and I'm just wasting my time.-- "Mine (And You Could Be)"

For just this one time, one time, let this fantasy become real. Because I am not afraid to let you see this side of me. I want to take your invitation. This separation it's all around. I need this side of me.-- "This Side Of Me"

NATALIE IMBRUGLIA

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel. I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor. Illusion never changed into something real. I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn . You're a little late, I'm already torn.-- "Torn"

You say ‘don’t be blue’. Is that the best you can do? I’ve lost my patience now.-- "Leave Me Alone"

I know I get cold. Cause I can’t leave things well alone. Understand I’m accident prone. Everynight the moon is mine.-- "Wishing I Was There"

I’m running fast. Can’t hide the past. What’s up with that?-- "Smoke"

I’m not one who can’t say they’re sorry. Sleeping in the small world head in the sand.-- "Don’t You Think?"

Everybody’s been in my face. Tellin’ me I gotta make a change. All I ever hear day and night is ‘you better hurry up and get a life’. I need some direction. All I can say is: intuition tells me how to live my day. You make it hard for me. You really think that I can’t see?-- "Intuition"

Somehow I lost myself in a tunnel long and black. Somewhere at the end I pretend there’s a way of turning back. Maybe I’m not ready yet?-- "One More Addiction"

THIRD EYE BLIND

The angry boy, a bit too insane. Icing over a secret pain. You know you don’t belong. I know something’s wrong. Well everyone’s got a reason to say: put the past away. Maybe today we can put the past away. And your friends have left. You’ve been dismissed. I never thought it would come to this.-- "Jumper"

I want to get out of this. I wonder, is there anything I’m going to miss. How’s it going to be when you don’t know me? When there’s no one there to talk about. How’s it going to be? Cause I don’t care.-- "How’s It Going To Be"

I want something else, to get me through this semi-charmed kinda life.-- "Semi-Charmed Life"

Anything for you. Turn my bones to sand. Just to see you. I’ll give you anything. Just to see you.-- "Anything"

You say that I’ve changed. Well maybe I did. But even if I changed... what’s wrong with it? And our friends are gone. And all the time moves on. And all I know it’s wrong. If there’s a reason, it’s lost on me. Maybe we’ll be friends, I guess we’ll see.-- "Never Let You Go"

I want someone to know me. Maybe tell me who I am. As I face down my demons and cry out to a God. A God I've never seen. World darkens around me and I want you to love me. Like you did before you knew me. And I never thought there’d ever be any help for somebody like me.-- "Darkness"

TONIC

People’s voices make hollow sounds. Just be quiet. They’ll go away. Open up your eyes. Don’t let your mind tell the story here.-- "Open Up Your Eyes"

I’m not saying I’m one for violence, but it keeps me hanging on. "Casual Affair"

I don't know when I got bitter, but love is surely better when it's gone. You wanted more, more than I could give. More than I could handle. And a life that I can't live. You wanted more, more than I could bare. More than I could offer. For a love that isn't there.-- "You Wanted More"

JEWEL

Well in case you haven’t noticed. In case you failed to see. This is my heart bleeding before you. This is me down on my knees. Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.-- "Foolish Games"

Why’s it gotta be so complicated? Why you gotta tell me if I’m hated? I have this theory that if we’re told were bad then that’s the only idea we’ll ever have. So please be careful with me cause I’m sensitive. And I’d like to stay that way. -- "I'm Sensitive"

SELENA

Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you. And I wish on a star that somewhere you are thinking of me too. If you looked in my eyes, would you see what's inside, would you even care?-- "Dreaming Of You"

JIMMIES’ CHICKEN SHACK

Won't make the bed up straight, I always stay out late. I never talk to you, be who you want me to. My music's way too loud, my friends are all so proud. Say I'm just waistin' hope. These are not all of the, infinitesimal things you can find wrong with me. Once would you tell me please... What do I do right?-- "Do Right"

MANOWAR

I fight the world. There are times my heart hangs low. Born to walk against the wind. No matter where I stand I'm alone. I'm not afraid to die! Stand and fight! Live by your heart! Always one more try! I'm not afraid to die!-- "Heart Of Steel"

SPLENDER

There's alot of things I understand. And there's alot of things that I don't want to know. It's alright, I'm ok. I think God can explain.-- "I Think God Can Explain"

THE REMBRANTS

So no one told you life was going to be this way, your job's a joke, your broke, your love life is away. It's like your always stuck in second gear, well it has been your day, your week, your month or even your year.-- "I’ll Be There For You" (the theme to "Friends")

EVE 6

Find nothing but faith in nothing. Wanna put my tender heart in a blender. Watch it spin 'round to a beautiful oblivion. Rendezvous then I'm through with you.-- "Inside Out"

MEN AT WORK

I said to the man, are you trying to tempt me? Because I come from the land of plenty. And he say, do you come from the land down under? Where women glow and men thunder. Can't ya hear, can't ya hear the thunder? You better run, you better take cover!-- "(The Land) Down Under"

MEREDITH BROOKS

I hate the world today. You're so go to me, I know but I can't change. I tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I'm an angel underneath. Innocent and sweet. Yesterday I cried, must have been really to see the softer side. I can understand how you'd be so confused. I don't envy you. I'm a little bit of everything, all rolled into one. I'm a sinner, I'm a saint. I do not feel ashamed. I'm your H*ll, I'm your dream. I'm nothing in-between. So take me as I am. This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man. I think it's cool you do what you do. And don't try to save me. When you hurt, when you suffer, I'm your angel undercover. I've been numb, I'm revived You can't say I'm not alive.-- "Bitch"

ALL SAINTS

Conversations hesitations in my mind. You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find. I'm not crazy. I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong? No. I'm just waiting. Never ever have I ever felt so low. When you gonna take me out of this black hole? Never ever had my conscience to fight. The way I'm feeling yet it just don't feel right.-- "Never Ever"

CELINE DION

When you want it the most, there's no easy way out. When you're ready to go, and your heart's left in doubt. Don't give up on your faith, Love comes to us who believe it. And that's the way it is. When you question me, for a simple answer. I don't know what to say, no.-- "That’s The Way It Is"

ATHENIUM

Well I complain when nothing's even wrong, And you're ashamed, cause you're not quite that strong. That's when I said I'll need, More than you can offer me. I hope my absence makes you well. Cause what I didn't know. Is I was killing you. I said a lot of things, And I didn't mean to. But I am older now, And I am sorry too. So I can wait awhile. If it brings me back to you. Well, I am shy. I never speak a word.-- "What I Didn’t Know"

NEW RADICALS

This world is gonna pull through. Don't give up. You've got a reason to live. Can't forget you only get what you give.-- "You Get What You Give"

CITIZEN KING

I’ve seen better days. I’ve been the star of many plays.-- "Better Days"

TOMMY BOYCE & BOBBY HART

I guess she couldn’t understand it, when I said I wanna be your friend. Because a friend would never doubt you. Or ever put you up tight. And now I wonder what she’s doing tonight. We were close but we should have been closer. And it’s making me feel so sad. But I tell myself I didn’t loose her. Cause you can’t loose a friend you never had.-- "I Wonder What She’s Doing Tonight"

FUEL

Can I be your friend? We’ll forget the past or maybe I’m not able. Cause I have found all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away again. It’s too far away for me hold.-- "Shimmer"

If I could find one thing that was mine, I’d leave this behind. But I can’t find my way to get far away and bury these days.-- "Untitled"

I got a new thing, it’s so inspired. It’s not the real thing, but it’s for me. Because the real thing I don’t desire. So it’s the new thing I choose for me. Denial comfort me.-- "New Thing"

I fear I’ve wasted all my sun. I fear I’ve wasted all my time. Everything is faded. Smiles are fabricated now. Held my eyes closed for too long. Just before I go don’t you offer any sweet advice because where were all your shoulders when I needed them so long ago-- "It’s Come To This"

And I’m flipping through these pages for a name to take my place. Close my eyes and wish that I could find a space to hideaway.-- "Hideaway"

GARBAGE

I’m only happy when it rains. I’m only happy when it’s complicated. I only smile in the dark.-- "I’m Only Happy When It Rains"

When I grow up I’ll be stable. When I grow up I’ll turn the tables. Trying hard to live among you.-- "When I Grow Up"

I used to adore you. Do you have an opinion? A mind of your own? I thought you were special... I thought you should know.-- "Special"

GODSMACK

I'm doing the best that I can. I'm doing the best I ever did. Now go away.-- "Whatever"

MATCHBOX 20

Straight up, what did you hope to learn about here? If I were someone else, would this all fall apart? Strange, where were you, when we started this gig? I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me. Please don't change, please don't break.
The only thing that seems to work at all is you.-- "Real World"

Reach down your hand in your pocket. Pull out some hope for me. It's been a long day, always ain't that right.-- "Long Day"

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough. And I don't know if I've ever been really loved. By hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's gonna give. And I'm a little bit angry, well. And you don't know me, I can't change. I won't do anything at all.-- "Push"

It's best if we all keep this quiet instead. And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doing me like they do. But I'm sorry now, and I don't know how. To get it back to good.-- "Back 2 Good"

If you want you can get to know me well. We get along so we shouldn't argue. And I don't know, said I don't know. All these feelings, cloud up my reasoning. I know, but I still. Believe in ignorance as my best defense.-- "Argue"

And we always say, it would be good to go away, someday. But if there's nothing there to make things change. If it's the same for you I'll just hang.-- "Hang"

Can you help me? I’m bent! I’m so scared that I’ll never get put back together. Could you sympathize with my needs? I know you think I need alot. I started out clean but I’m jaded. Keep bending me on until I’m completely broken in. It shouldn’t be so complicated. Just hold me and then.... well just hold me again!-- "Bent"

LIT

It’s no surprise to me, I am my own worst enemy. Cause everynow and then I kick the living sh*t outta me.-- "My Own Worst Enemy"

STABBING WESTWARD

I can not save you. I can’t even save myself. So just save yourself.-- "Save Yourself"

I won’t become the thing I hate. I won’t become the thing I hate. I won’t become the thing I hate... I won’t become you.-- "The Thing I Hate"

I’ll see you on your way down.-- "On Your Way Down"

TLC

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes. Make you feel unpretty too. I was told I was beautiful, but what does that mean to you? Look into the mirror who’s inside there? Same ole me again today. If you can look inside you. Find out who am I too. Be in the position to make me feel so unpretty. Make you feel unpretty too.-- "Unpretty"

THE PONY TAILS

Why? Oh Why? Was it by fate? To be born too late? I see you walk with another. I wish it would be me. But I know it never can be. For I was born too late for you to care. Now my heart just cries because your heart just wouldn’t wait. Why was I born too late?-- "Born Too Late"

SANTANA

Your my reason for reason. And if you said ‘this life ain’t good enough’, I’d give my world to lift you up. I could change my life to better suit your mood. And it’s just like the ocean under the moon. It’s the same as the emotion that I feel for you. Give me your heart, make it real, or let’s forget about it.-- "Smooth"

BRITNEY SPEARS

My loneliness is killing me. I must confess I still believe.-- "...Baby One More Time"

Every time you come too close I move away. I wanna believe in everything that you say. Cause it sounds so good. But if you really want me, move slow. There’s things about me you just have to know. I don’t want to be so shy. Every time I’m alone I wonder why. But all I really want is to hold you tight. Be with you day and night.-- "Sometimes"

‘NSYNC

I know this can’t be right. I loved you endlessly, but you weren’t there for me. So now it’s time to leave and make it alone. I know that I can’t take no more, it ain’t no lie. You may hate me but it ain’t no lie. I just wanna tell you that I had enough.-- "Bye Bye Bye"

But the only thing you dream of money can’t buy for you. Why do you run and hide? Say what you feel inside. You gotta listen to your heart and not your mind.-- "For The Girl Who Has Everything"

You’re in my dreams at night. Whatever I do you’re always on my mind.-- "You Got It"

I just wanna tell you how I feel. How can I stop this burning desire? I would give anything to be with you.-- "I Need Love"

I would give anything I own, give up my life, my heart, my home. I would give everything I own, just to have you back again. You never said too much but still you showed the way and I knew from watching you. Is there someone you know, you’re loving them so, but taking them for granted? You may lose them one day, someone takes them away, and they don’t hear the words you long to say.-- "Everything I Own"

Where was my head? Where was my heart? Now I cry alone in the dark. I lie awake, I drive myself crazy. Drive myself crazy thinking of you. Now I’m left with all this pain. I’ve only got myself to blame.-- "I Drive Myself Crazy"

JIMMY RUFFIN

As I walk this land of broken dreams I have visions of many things. But happiness is just and illusion filled with sadness and confusion. I can’t stand this pain much longer. I walk in shadows searching for light. Cold and alone no comfort in sight. Hoping a praying for someone who cares. But someone’s love has a growing need. All that’s left is an unhappy ending.-- "What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted?"

OFFSPRING

When we were young the future was so bright. The old neighborhood was so alive. Now the neighborhood's cracked and torn. How can one little street swallow so many lives? Still it's hard, hard to see. Fragile lives, shattered dreams. The cruelest dream, reality.-- "The Kids Aren’t Alright"

VERTICAL HORIZON

Now you’re here and you don’t know why. He’s everything you want. He’s every thing you need. He is everything inside of you that you wish you could be. He says all the right things at exactly the right time. But he means nothing to you and you don’t know why. There’s always something more you wish he’d say.-- "Everything You Want"

KID ROCK

I’ve been sitting here trying to find myself. They say that every man bleeds just like me. People don’t know about the things I say and do. Somehow I know there’s more to life than this. You get what you put in and people get what they deserve.-- "Only God Knows Why"

THE BEATLES

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away. But it seems they are here to say. Now I need a place to hideaway. Something’s wrong, cause now I long for yesterday.-- "Yesterday"

When I was younger so much younger than today. I never needed anybody’s help in anyway. But now those days are gone and I’m not so self assured. Help me if you can I’m feelin down. And I do appreciate you being round. Help me get my feet back on the ground.-- "Help"

U2

On a bed of nails she makes me wait and I wait, without you. I can’t live with or without you.-- "With or Without You"

AEROSMITH

I let the right ones out and kept the wrong ones in. Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins. There were times in my life when I was going insane. Tryin to walk through the pain. It’s amazing that in the blink of an eye that you finally see the light.-- "Amazing"

SMASHING PUMPKINS

Cool kids never have the time. On a live wire right up off the street you and I should meet.-- "1979"

My reflection, dirty mirror. There’s no connection to myself.-- "Zero"

And what do I get, for my pain? Betrayed desires. Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved. And what you want? I want to change. And I still believe I that I cannot be saved.-- "Bullet With Butterfly Wings"

NINE INCH NAILS

Well, you’ve got me working so hard lately. Working my hands until they bleed. If I was twice the man I could be, I’d still be half of what you need.-- "Ringfinger"

Kinda like a cloud I was way up in the sky and I was feeling some feelings you wouldn’t believe. I decided I was never coming down. Just then a tiny little dot caught my eye, it was just about too small to see. But I watched it way too long and that dot was pulling me down. I was up above it, now I’m down in it. I used to be so big and strong. I used to know my right from wrong. I used to never be afraid. I used to be somebody.-- "Down In It"

BUSH

What do you say, do you do? When it all come s down. I don’t want to come back down from this cloud. Taken me all this time to find out what I need.-- "Comedown"

THE WALLFLOWERS

The only difference that I see is that you are exactly the same as you used to be.-- "The Difference"

The same black line that was drawn on you was drawn on me. And it’s drawn me in the sixth avenue heartache.-- "6th Avenue Heartache"

I want but I can’t be there... My angels of prayer.-- "Angel On My Bike"

But I hear voices. And I see colors. But I wish I felt nothing at all. Then it might be easy for me like it is for you.-- "I Wish I Felt Nothing"

Hey! Come on talk a little. Laughing is forever. There’s got to be something better than in the middle.-- "One Headlight"

VITAMIN C

I keep thinking times will never change, keep on thinking things will always be the same. And if ya got something that you need to say, you better say it right now because you won’t have another day. These memories are playing like a film with out sound. And we would get so excited and we’d get so scared. Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair. As we go on, we remember, all the times we had together. And as our lives change from whatever, we will still be friends forever. I keep on thinking it’s a time to fly. Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? Will the past be a shadow that follows us round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town?-- "Graduation (Friends Forever)"

CHRISTINA AGUILERA

I know I’m truly blessed for everything you’ve given me. Blessed for all the tenderness you’ve showed. I’ll do my best with every breath that’s in me to make sure you never go. There are times that test your faith till you think you might surrender.-- "Blessed"

MACY GRAY

I believe that fate has brought us here. We should be together, babe. But we’re not. I may seem alright and smile when you leave. But my smile is just a front.-- "I Try"

JONATHAN EDWARDS

When he tells me I better get in line, I can’t hear what he’s sayin. Well, how much does it cost? I’ll buy it. The time is all we’ve lost, I’ll try it! And he can’t even run his own life I’ll be d*mned if he’ll run mine! Some man’s gone, he’s tried to run my life. You don’t know what he’s askin. Workin starts to make me wonder where fruits of what I do are going. This ole world, she’s gonna turn around. Brand new bells will be ringin.-- "Sunshine (Go Away Today)"

MARTHA REEVES & THE VANDELLAS

For so long... I’ve been afraid to love. But right now I feel the need for love. I’ve tried to shield my heart, from love’s tender touch. Cause to lose in love would hurt so much. But as I softly walk; in my solitude I search my heart and found there’s need for you. And for the first time I feel alone in life.-- "Ready For Love"

TOM PETTY

There's someone I used to see, but she don't give a d*mn for me. I woke up inbetween,memory and a dream. And you don't know how it feels. You don't know how it feels. No, you don't know how it feels... to be me. -- "You Don't Know How It Feels"

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They’re creepy and they’re kookie, mysterious and spooky. And all together ookie. When people come to see’em, they really are a scream. Neat. Sweet. Petite.-- "The Addams’ Family Theme Song"