***
I am afraid,
there is no where to turn,
I am surrounded
by your ignorance.
Surrounded by so many,
I still can't get away from
my own loneliness,
my sorrow.
I reach out,
I yell and scream
yet, from the hundreds
that are listening
there is not responce.
***
Laughter,
ugly smirks,
gestures,
gestures of hate,
dirty looks,
quick, meaningless glances,
cold eyes,
hearts filled with sin,
and yet you stand there
and have the nerve
to blame somebody else!!!
"fear"
Blazing fire,
shrill screaming,
short yellps of pain,
bitter cries,
red blood gushing out of
their friend's wounds.
Cold tears of pain,
confussion.
Smoke of gun powder
faded ticking of bombs
that are about to explode.
Faces filled with fear,
running,
breathing hard
running for their lives, me?
Where did I come from?
I run,
I watch my friends drop
like flies,
like they are worthless.
I wake up,
covered in sweat,
tangled in my sheets
and blanket.
I scream,
a scream of pain and fear
felt for the lost ones.
"love"
Hold me tight
and never let go,
Look into my eyes,
let your emotions flow.
My love for you grows
as days go by,
I'm not the same anymore,
I am not shy.
Hold me tight,
whisper in my ear
the words that are impossible for
others to understand or hear.
Tell me I am the only one,
tell me that you care,
let me know you are here for me
'cause for you,
I was always there.
Sweet whispers, sweet kisses,
warm embrace and touch,
Oh angel, oh angel
I love you so much.
"My love"
For the last time I looked
into your eyes
and I saw an unbearable sadness,
I touched your hand and felt
the coldness of hate,
I heard your voice speaking to me
reflecting your heart's pain
and heartbrake,
I saw an empty tear roll down
your cheek.
I was mortified to watch you
suffer
while I walked away from the
pain that you caused me.
I though,
a thought that became my
words in just an instant,
I whisper out
for anybody to hear,
"I'm sorry for causing
you this pain,
im sorry for ever
loving you and
teaching you what
love is all about.
It is a mutual feeling of
passion, lust, trust, and love
and you missed out
on all of them
by walking away."
I was sorry
for ever hurting somebody
with my love.
* * *
A secret hiden inside your soul
wondering alone you carry it
because of your own insecurity.
Let it go,
let someone else carry some
of the weight for you.
Let that person be me,
the one who will take
off the weight off of your heart,
the one who will comfort,
the one who will pray and wish
with you.
Someone who will be there
to cherish your secret inside
their heart hidden from others
just please let that
someone be me.
I will take away your pain
that you are hiding from
the rest of the world
if you take my confusion away
about you and me
and why you walked away.
*** crystal clear just like my soul set free, are your eyes that look back at me. While we are together our hearts intervine, I become yours, as you become mine. I give my soul to you, to set free. I give myself to you, for you to love me. * * * by being optimistic and looking at the bright side. Smiling on que and laughing when you want to cry. Who are you fooling, me or yourself? "Pain" What are you runing from, when you know that you can't hide? who are you runing to, when you know that everything is just a lie? Why are you trying to run away? Why don't you just give up? What is there to live for, if you have no one to love? Why are you so confused, your mind racing through posibilities you have? It is just so simple, it is over everywhere you are at. Nothing will change, what has happened is in the past. You can change the future, but what is the use for that? You are runing from the pain, only to find greater pain everywhere you turn. There is no way out, Don't you ever learn?
***
I have to let go,
but what do I say?
How do I explain what I feel?
The pain, confusion of my heart.
I can't explain something
I can't figure out myself.
All I know is that
what I am doing
is not fair to
you, me, and the one
that my heart is
longing for.
?????
We will overgrow
childish behavior,
but some of us will always
stay immature.
We will forgive people for
hurting us and others,
but never will their actions
be forgoten.
Some of us hurt others
with regrets later in our hearts
others just walk away
with an empty feeling,
not guilt,
but at the same time withough
happiness or satisfaction.
Screaming at our parents
and crying afterwards
always seems to be the answer.
Most of us are too afraid to admit
to their parents that
they are right.
We feel strongly about something,
yet, we dont stand up for our opinions
because we are too insecure
about ourselfs.
look in the mirror,
who do you see?
If you see something or someone
you don't like,
dont expect pther to be atracted
to it,
untill you are.
* * *
Why are you keeping secrets
the truth comes out
someday anyways?
Why are you walking away
when I am on my knees
crawling and beging
you to stay?
Why are you walking away
from something so perfect
me and you once had?
Looking into space
for your next destenation
you predict you will
end up at.
Can't you see?
There is nothing there
waiting for you.
Everything you need is here
and is shared between
2 special people,me and you.
Please, don't keep on walking,
look back
into my eyes,
the eyes that care.
Look back at me
and see a person so dear to you,
someone who is always there.
I need you,
just as much as you need me.