"You absolutely positive you want me to talk to him?" I asked unsure of myself. "Yes, I really, really want you to, do it tomorrow though, when I'm gone." She said. Everything was reversing. I was now happy for them, and she was not happy, and before it was the other way around....I didn't know about everyone else, but in my mind, everything was back to normal. Zac came with me and mom, and the younger ones to the mall. He taught me how to play Laser Tag, which is totally cool. He is very intelligent, more intelligent then I thought, I think I could talk to him more. I think mom also had a talk with Avery, because she now talks to me civilly. She even grabbed my hand when she saw a toy she liked. I was in total awe, I was having the time of my life. I took my little sisters into one of the clothing stores, and mom allowed me to get them a few things with her credit card, which I thought was totally cool, and was amazingly fun. Mackenzie wanted me to ride the merry-go-round with him, and I had to give in to his little Zaccy face. We had a blast on that. Everything was turning out to be a blast. Now there was only a few more people I needed to have a heart to heart talk to with. I still haven't said much to Isaac, I always find him staring at me strangely, and then looking away. I knew he must remember me, even more then I remember him. And tomorrow is the day I get to have a grand tour with my three brothers, Tay,Zac,and Ike, were taking me on a tour of Tulsa just us three, and then later that night, we'd meet our parents and the younger ones at Rex's Boneless Chicken for dinner. We had everything planned out, and I was not complaining. The one thing I didn't understand was Tori...she changes her mind so much, well I guess I shouldn't talk, first she hates something, then she's totally in love with it, and vise versa, but I still loved her like a sister like I always will.
Tori
I hoped the outcome of Ray's conversation with Taylor would be good. I didn't really understand why it was like this. I mean, this was what I wanted, right? I hope Ray isn't uncomfortable about it. I didn't know what else to do. As I was walking upstairs to go to sleep, Tay stopped me. "Tori? Um, you were okay with what happened earlier, right?," he asked, blushing. "Yeah, I was. Were you?," I asked. "Yes," he replied. He hesitated before answering. I know he did. That freaked me out. I continued to climb the stairs. As soon as I got there, I changed and fell asleep.
~~~~~~~~~*The next day*
When I woke up the next day, everyone was already gone. What happened next was something I'm not proud of, but I can't change it now. I stumbled over Taylor's journal. Normally, I wouldn't have read it, but I was curious as to what he wrote about me. So, I turned to last night's entry:
Dear Journal,
I kissed Tori last night. I though that would be good thing, and it was. Don't get me wrong, she's a good kisser. It's just that she seemed unhappy or confused about it. Like she hadn't meant for it to happen. But, when I asked her later, she was okay with it. Then she asked me if I was okay with it. I was so surprised, it took me a second to answer. She must've thought something was wrong. One thing is for sure, I'm definitely going to have to talk to Rach about this. Tori tells her everything. I'm confused about something else. The way I feel. I know it's more than a friend, but just how much? And how does she feel about me? If only I knew. Well, I gotta get some sleep. I'm taking Rachel around tomorrow. Tori's going to go see her parents tomorrow. I hope everything turns out alright. And I mean, everything. Including my situation with Tori.
~Tay
I sat in shock for a second. How was I going to tell him how I felt? I knew I had to tell him, but, how? It came t me. He could find out by reading my journal! By accident. I'll leave it open to last night's entry:
ear Diary,
I kissed him. I kissed Tay. I felt somewhat confused at first. I mean, it had felt so right in NJ, but here it didn't feel the same. Rach says it's because we've been friends so long, that moving the relationship to a higher level could be difficult and weird. But, if it's meant to happen, then it'll happen. I'm inclined to believe her. I mean, I know how I feel about him. l love him. I really, truly do. I don't know why really, I just do. And, last night, before I came upstairs, he asked me if it was okay what he had done. I told him that it was, then asked him the same question in return. He hesitated. I know I saw him hesitate. But, why? It's so confusing.
~Tori~
As I read over the entry, I realized that this was the perfect way to tell him. I'd leave it halfway open by his bed, so he'll come upon it. At least, I hope that's what happens.
Rachel
"Come on sleeping beauty! Time to wake up!!" Zac said jumping on the trundle bed. The whole room was a bed, you couldn't walk except for the table in the corner. I opened my eyes to find something in my mouth. "Yuck! Tay get your toe out of my mouth!" I yelled pushing his foot away from my face. "Does it taste good?" Zac said falling down next to me. "Yeah sure it does...Zac, what time is it, isn't it a little early?" I asked snuggling back into the covers. "No, I think it's um...yeah, 8:30." He said looking at his watch. "You are such a booger, it is way to early!" I said pushing him down. "No it's not, Tori is already gone, I think, please wake up." He said begging. "Fine, I'll wake up." I said getting up from my position on the bed. My hair was as always flat. Why couldn't I have somebody to it. "I get bathroom first!" I yelled running into the bathroom. "No!" Zac said as I slammed the door in his face. "Sorry bro, if you want to come in here with..." I said trailing off. I was only joking knowing that Zac would be repelled by that idea. "No, that's ok, I'll just wait." He said. I heard his back hit the door, as he slid down waiting. I laughed to myself about how goofy he was. As I was taking off my pajama's I threw them in a corner. It hit something hard. "What the heck." I said outloud. "You aren't drowning in there, are you Rachy?" Zac called from behind the door. "No Zaccy, if I was drowning I'd let you know." I said "Just checking!" He called back. I picked up my pajamas and I saw what the clothes hit, it was a journal. Oh, goody, someone was smart enough to leave their journal in the bathroom of all places. I wrapped myself in a towel, and started reading, woops forgot about Zac. "Zac, go play PlayStation or something, it's gonna be awhile." I said through the door. "Why? What's the problem?" Zac whined. "Um, girl troubles, yup thats it." I said, I didn't know what to say to an 11 year old. "Ew, I think I'll go do that." He said. I heard some rustling and then there was silence. Ah, silence, it's been a couple of days since I've experienced that word. I looked at the front cover, it sure wasn't Tay's, I've already seen him writing in his, oh great, it must be Tori's, I knew she wrote in one. Temptation took over. "Sorry Tori." I whispered under my breath as I read the entry that was opened. Oh, I get it, Duh! She wanted Tay to see this, what a perfect place, I really have to remind her next time not to leave it in the bathroom, cause people like me could see it. I turned on the shower, and wondered what the day would bring.
Tori
I went downtown to the resturant where I was supposed to meet them. My hands were shaking as I walked inside. I saw them immediately. My mother didn't look as much like I did as my father did. "Vicky! Hi!!," Mom said, geting up. "Hi! Um, could you call me Tori? That's what my friends call me," I said. "Sure," my father said. We sat down to lunch. After a while, I couldn't imagine why I had been so nervous. I felt at home with them. Like we had always been together. We made plans to talk about me moving in with them. After lunch, they had to go back to work, but they said they enjoyed seeing me. I couldn't wait to live with them. I went shopping for a little while. It was 4:00 pm too soon. That's when I had planned to be back at the Hansons. When I walked in, Taylor was coming down the steps. My journal was in his hand. "Um, hello," I squeaked out. "Hi, " he muttered. "Is something wrong?," I asked. "Um, we need to talk about this," he said, gesturng at my journal. "You read it?," I asked. "Yeah. Sorry, but I saw my name, and....," he trailed off. "So, what about it?," I asked. "Well, I didn't exactly know that was how you felt," he said. "Well, it is. Is there anything wrong?," I asked. This wasn't the reaction I was expecting. "Yeah. I mean, no. I mean, I don't know," he said. Tears were welling up in my eyes. This wasn't working out the way I wanted at all. I pushed past him, grabbed my journal, and ran to the room. The tears spilled over.