DISCLAIMER : I don't own any of them . I am just mearly writting a funfilled story using the characters . Do we understand ? So don't sue , just read ! :^)
AUTHOR'S NOTE : Don't get me wrong , this is *FAR* from how I want the show to go ! I am just having a little fun with what Joss as provided me with , okay ? I *DO* not , under any circumstances want the show to end up like this ! Clear Everyone ?! Thanx ! :^)
RATING :A little cursing , some kissing , violence
[This is Buffy The Vampire Slayer , now C'mon ! You exspected no violence or what ?! :^)]
SPOILERS : Angelus is stepping up his torment on Buffy , who is still not adjusted to his new form, only this time she *isn't* gonna take it .....or is she ? Have fun ! :^)
SUMMARY : This would take place after the episode 'Innocence' .
This is a story of Living ,Loving ,Losing ,Hurting ,Denying ,Learning ,and Finally Dieing.
[That's why the title is 'Life' , get it ? *LOL*]
Part 1
She lay there in her bed, uncontrolably sobbing . Her pillow drenched in tears that she had shed all day and night. Constantly talking and complaining to herself,but you really couldn't hear a word she said because it was muffled by the pillows and tears. Although you could hear some of the stuff,and they all reflected on one thing...........
"Why ?!" She kept asking herself over and over again .
"Why ?! Why did you leave me ?! Why didn't you just stay her with me ?! With me ! Where you belong ! Damn it ! Why ?!" She kept yelling at herself,and picked up one of her many pillows and flung it across the room,aiming at nothing,it hit the wall and fell to the floor.
"How am I supposed to get through this without you huh ?! How ?!" Her voice ran out across her room,she was only glad that her mom was out of town .
"God,I need you ! Can't you see that ?! My life is nothing without you !" She yelled out to really no one. She continued to cry even more "What am I supposed to do now ?" She whispered softly to herself falling fast asleep. The past few days she hadn't gotten much sleep. Accually no sleep at all. All she did all day was cry and throw things and talk to herself. Giles and the rest of the gang kept worring about her worried at what she was possible to do with all the stuff that has happened. Worried what she might not do,or even more,what she might do........... She was the Slayer . She was possible of *many* things. And as much as she is hurting right now,she is likely to do some of that *many* things she is capible of doing.
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Giles sat in the Library,as usaul drinking a mug of a coffee when Xander and Willow came walking through the doors and made their way over to him. "Any word ?" He asked putting his mug down on the table and looking up at the two as they sat down in two other chairs.
"No , she's probibly still at home crying herself to sleep." Willow answered very sadly looking down at the floor. This hurt her too. Buffy was her best friend , I mean besides Xander. She hated seeing her best friend like this,exspecailly this best friend . I mean , she's the Slayer. Her life is already more troublesum,and dangerous , and painful, and now this had to happen. This. Of all things. Her one true love turning into her one true hate in a matter of minutes. Hasn't she suffered enough ?! She already has to put up with the life of a Slayer,but they had to take away her lover too ?! It just wasn't fair,down right not fair.
"I think one of you,Willow inperticulair,should go check on her,make sure she's not ........ uh,that s-she's okay as far as we know." Giles told the two taking off his glasses and setting them down on the table while putting one hand up to his forehead .
Xander looked at his watch. 9:35 is said. He turned to Willow. "You shouldn't go alone . I'll go with you and ........." He was cut off by Giles
"If she wants........" Then Xander finished
"And if she wants it to be just Willow,fine. But I'm still going , I'll just ...... wait outside ." He finished geting up out if his seat. As did Willow and they walked out of the Library, leaving a still very worried Giles behind.
Jenny stepped in the library's doorway right after the two kids left . She focused her attention on Rupert . As usaul she had coffee cup full of coffee in one hand and books in the other. She opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out. She turned around and left.
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She was now standing at her window looking out into the night . Looking at nothing really. When she seen Willow and Xander walking up the street for her house. "Great ." She mumbled to herself. Then went back over to her bed and fell back on it. She had stopped crying a minute ago and was in a little bit of a better shape. better enough to fool her friends into thinking she was okay now anyway.
Then a couple of minutes later she heard a knock on the door. "Are you alone ?" She asked,she knew it was Willow,but wanted to know if Xander was there too.
"Yes ." She called back softly.
"Fine then ." She called back still on the bed.
Willow opened the door quietly and looked over at Buffy laying ont he bed,head buried in the pillows,so she couldn't tell if she was crying or not.
"Buffy ? Are you okay ?" She asked walking slowly over to her bed and sitting down by her.
Just then Buffy lifted up her head to face her,she had stopped crying and was smiling halfly.
"Yeah Will,I'm,I'm fine ." She answered gettign up and going over to her dresser . Willow just sat on the bed and watched her. She could tell she wasn't fine,it's just one of those things that friends know about each other,when their feeling sad,happy,mad,confused .
"No your not ." Willow protested in a whispery voice looking down at the floor. Buffy turned to her, knowing that she could tell she wasn't. Then Willow looked up at her also .
"okay, I'm not so sue me ." Buffy said turning back around to her dresser looking in it at her own reflection.
Willow got up and headed for the door . Buffy turned around and stopped her before she got it open. "Look Buffy I know you probibly want to be alone right now, and I can see why so I'm just gonna go okay ?" Willow told her trying to open the door.
"No. Will, I need soemone to talk to anyways, just please stay. I'm sorry I was a bit edgy but ........ [sighs] you know why." She finished walking over to the bed and siting down.
Willow's face fell and she walked over to join Buffy on the bed. Then she gave her a hug which Buffy gladly let her, she needed one right now.
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"Okay ." Xander said swaying back and forth on Buffy's front porch. Staring off into the night, with nothing at all to do. Wishing a vampire wouldn't come up on him, I mean he knew that that was why he came, to protect Willow if one does, but he was all alone right now.
He reached in his jacket pocket and retrieved a cross. He clutched it in his hand tight . "Okay Fang-Packing freaks, C'mon now ." He said to really no one. But he had to do something to keep himself company and talking to himself was high on the list .
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Willow and Buffy then broke the hug off. "Are you okay now ?" Willow asked her softly.
She looked up at her. "Yeah....I think." She replied with her not-so sure voice.
"Do you wanna.....talk about it ?" Willow asked looking down at the floor. Buffy looked down too. "Hey...if you don't want to....." She was interupted by Buffy "No. I don't really want to." Willow nodded,totally understanding.
"Okay. If you wanna be alone that's fine because I left poor Xander standing out there on the porch." She said with a smile trying to cheer her up. Buffy looked back up at her and smiled.
End of Part 1
Go to Part 2 - COMING SOON !!!