This Friday night was just like any other Friday night.Willow, Buffy,
and I all sat at a table sipping our drinks.
"So where is Oz?"I asked trying to start a conversation.
"His band had a gig at some club out of town.I really didn't feel
like going."the red haired girl replied taking a sip of her peppermint
tea.
"Oh,"was all I could think to say.Buffy sat silently,she looked sad.I
could she was thinking about *him*. "Buffy,would you like to dance?"
I asked attempting to take her mind off of Angel at least for a
little while.
"Sure,"she replied raising from her seat and straightening her black
top.
As I led her onto the dance floor,the song Witness started playing.
Gently, I wrapped my arm around Buffy's waist as she laced her arms
around my neck.
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Make me a Witness
Take me Out
Out of Darkness
Out of Dark
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We began dancing slowly with the music.I feel her body tremble
suddenly and when I look at her face tears stream down her cheeks.
"Buffy,what's wrong?"I asked even though I already knew.
"I miss Angel so much."she said barely whispering.She nuzzles closer
to me still crying. "Ever since he left I feel so empty, like
something has been taken away."
Seeing her like this,in this much pain,I didn't recognize her as the
Slayer but as a lost and frightened child.
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I won't weigh you down with good intentions.
Won't make fire out of clay;
Run of inventions.
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"Angel is still with you. He always will be with you. He would give
his life for you, I know that for a fact, he had proven it many times.
The love the two of you shared for each other will never die.Never."
I said clutching her tightly, hoping that by doing this it would, some
how, stop her pain or at least help ease it.
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Will we burn in Heaven?
Like we do down here.
Will the change come while we're waiting?
Everyone is waiting
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"I just think that if I would have stopped myself, if I would have
listened to him........."Buffy whispered before she started crying
again.
"Buffy,look at me."I said tilting her face up to mine."I promise you,
that Angel wouldn't change a thing. He loved you and you loved him.
If his last thoughts were of you then he wouldn't change a thing."I
said resting her head back onto my chest."I didn't like Angel a lot
but I had respect for him. I could tell that he loved you with all of
his soul. If he had to give it up to be with you, I can bet he would
do it again."I whispered gently swaying with the music.
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And when we're done soul searching,
And we carry the weigh and die for a cause
Its misery made beautiful right before our eyes.
Mercy be revealed or blind us where we stand
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Buffy looked up at me with love in her eyes. I saw two kinds of love:
Friendly love for me and eternal love for her Angel."Xander Harris,
when did you get do smart?"she asked smiling at me through her tears.
"When I realized that you were his."I replied kissing her on the
forehead."I love you, Buffy. I will protect you always."I said
pulling her closer.
"Thank you, I need to be loved,"was all she said before she buried
her face into my shirt and just continued to dance.
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Will we burn in Heaven?
Like we do down here.
Will the change come while we're waiting?
Everyone is waiting.
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I just hugged her."He is waiting for you.He will always wait."