I was searching for some hope today
By looking into a child’s eyes
It should have warmed my heart
But the feelings were of despise
I had to let my eyes water the ground
When I look into my heart,
My faith could not be found
I cried for what had become of me
The sufferings of my soul
That had rendered life so empty
Indiscretion
Destitution
Aggravation
Contemplation
Silence is my only answer
To the question of why
There are offers of tainted mercy
Aren’t we are all born innocent?

Here I lie at the crossroads
Bewildered and forgotten
Reached out in blindness to anything
Hoping for something to believe in
What are you going to say?
Will you help me find some peace,
Or choose instead to throw me away?
You can’t deny what I see in your eyes
I was a lamb being led to slaughter
Don’t turn the guilt on me with your lies
Manipulation
Humiliation
Condemnation
Depression
Maybe I also have myself to blame
That I can’t trust in anyone now
It’s hard to believe
That I was once born innocent

I was in essence a child and you left me confused
Now in bitterness I realize that I was used
Would it be so hard to show me some sympathy?
I guess it’s easier just to make me history
Don’t even dare tell me what to do
Not everything has to be about you
I’m not lost in the reality
That God’s reasons is truly a wonder to me
If you were to look into my eyes
Would you believe I was actually born innocent?

© 1999 by Ricky G.