5/2/01 As promised, I am going to try to keep this journal more current. I still haven't gotten back to the Y yet, but have been trying to watch what I eat and how much. I have been getting plenty of exercise at work helping get the kids ready for Special Olympics. The Olympics are next Friday. Some of the kids try so hard, and some of them are only doing it because their parents make them.

I haven't gotten on a scale in quite some time. Last time I weighed 240, again. I will weigh myself tomorrow morning and report in. Guess maybe I should have Randi add me to the chart to keep me honest. Will update more later. Keep the faith ;)

5/9/01 I weighed myself last week and weighed 237. Haven't weighed myself yet this week. Things are moving right along with me dad. He went back to the surgeon on Tuesday and had some necrotic tissue removed. He goes for a CT scan tomorrow and then back to the surgeon next Thursday. My sister will take him to the CT scan and I will go back to the surgeon with him. Hopefully the cancer hasn't spread to his liver and other internal organs.

I have to go see an opthamologist tomorrow about my eye. I have been being treated for pink eye for 2 weeks now. It is better, but still not completely cleared up. Seems like when it rains it pours around here.

They are going to start a walking club here in my hometown next month. We have some pretty parks and other areas to walk along the river. My sister and I are going to join. Will let you know how that turns out. Take care and keep the faith ;)

5/27/01 Well, so much for keeping this thing up to date. I have been pretty down here lately and just getting to work has been a chore.

Took my dad to the surgeon Thursday a week ago and got the results of his CT scan. The cancer has not spread to his internal organs, but has spread further down his chest wall. I got some things at the grocery store for him this morning and took them over. He has three new spots of cancer on his upper arm, the arm where he had radiation therapy, a new spot on his right knee and he also had a lump the size of an egg right under his chin. He was very depressed and seemed much worse than he had when I was over there on Friday. He said he was ready to call Dr. Kevorkian.

How am I supposed to respond to that? I didn't know what to say; so I said nothing. I was very upset when I left there and went to my husband's work to cry on his shoulder. Since then I have had a headache all day.

Tomorrow I will turn 45. I will be spending the day at Hershey Park with my daughter, Jai, and then that evening we will go to an N'Sync concert at the stadium there. Just the was I want to spend my birthday. I sure hope the girls don't scream too much. (What a pipe dream!!!)

My husband gave me a St. Florian medal for my birthday. I asked him for one as he is a firefighter and St. Florian is the patron saint of firefighters. He gave it to me yesterday because he couldn't wait until tomorrow.

So far we have had a very wet Memorial Day weekend. I sure hope it doesn't rain all day tomorrow. Keep the faith ;)