5/29 - Had a pretty crappy day at work. The one kid in the morning was a real little poop. He was rude and ignorant to say the
least. His favorite quote of the day was "Nanny Nanny Boo Boo, Stick Your Head in Doo Doo." From there it just got worse. It is
really bad to hear this little six year old kid call you stupid and say you are a bitch and say a few other choice words. He knows
exactly what he is saying, too. He gets this real demonic grin on his face while he is spouting all this crap. He curses worse
than my husband, and he is a firefighter. They are pretty notorious for their foul language.
Had a real crappy day in the diet department, too. Started out pretty good with honeydew for breakfast. Then had a ham sandwich
and more honeydew for lunch. Also had a rice krispies treat with chocolate chips. Boy was it tasty though. Got back on track
and had baked beans, ham, and baked potato for supper. Drank a little too much water with supper and feel like I am floating. I
actually slosh when I walk. Will probably have an apple for a snack.
I keep getting kicked out of ICQ this evening. Don't know what's going on. Will try to connect again later. Will write again
tomorrow. Keep the faith:)
5/28 - Not much to report today. I made it through okay and my husband made it home around 5:30 this evening. He made pizza for
himself and the kids. I don't eat pizza. Just had a sandwich and an apple. I told him I should be insulted because he fixed
supper for everyone but me and it was my birthday. I really didn't mind because I didn't have to bother with the meal and didn't
have dishes to clean up. Didn't go walk at the track. Walked through the woods with my husband, kids and dogs. Hopefully I won't
end up with poison. Only time will tell. Had a pretty good day diet-wise. Will write again tomorrow.
5/27 - Well, things went better than expected today. The student who started coming longer did pretty good. He was feeling his
oats and showed it some; but we didn't have to restrain him or anything. He just got a little mouthy. That is pretty normal for
most of the students in our class. He was just more mouthy than normal and refused to follow directions.
I was not too good today. One of the students in our class had his birthday on Sunday and mine is tomorrow. The teacher brought
in chocolate cake with Oreo cookies on it. I had a piece, but I can say that it was a small piece. She sent the left over cake
home with me and I made my kids eat it. At least I stopped at one small piece. There would have been a time when I would have
eaten that and all the left over cake too.
You should see the beautiful emerald ring my husband got me for my birthday. He gave it to me yesterday while he was home because
he works a 24 hour shift today and may have to work a 24 hour overtime shift tomorrow. That means he won't have a two day break
this week and won't get to come home until 8:00 Thursday morning. Such is the life of a firefighter.
I have to cut this short because I am meeting Denise for our evening walk. Hope to get in four miles tonite. I will walk the last
mile alone if Denise won't walk it with me. Keep the faith:)
5/26 - Had a really good day today. Ate within my goals. Didn't go for a walk; but cleaned the house and did six loads of laundry.
By the time I ran up and down stairs putting all that away I figure I got my exercise.
Tried to watch the Indy 500 again today and again was rained out. Oh well, I only had it on because my husband and oldest son like
it. I could really care less. Now everyone will miss it because it is on tomorrow while we are all at school and work.
My dad came over again tonight. He really misses mom and the evenings are the hardest for him. I have a feeling he will be over
here a lot this summer. He always come while I am fixing supper but after he has already eaten. I can't figure that part out. Why
doesn't he just come over and eat with us. I always have enough that one extra person wouldn't be any problem.
I worked in my garden today and have a feeling I must have gotten into poison of some kind. Am starting to itch all over my arms and
face. What a mess that will be. I get poison really bad and used to take allergy shots for it. I kept getting poison anyway and
finally stopped taking the shots since they didn't work. Why go through the agony of those shots because they were really painful and
I had to get one a week for six weeks. My whole arm would be sore for a week; then I would get the next shot and start all over.
Well, guess that's all for now. Will write again tomorrow and let you know how work went. One of the kids in our class who was only
coming part of a day will now be coming the full day. Hope everything works out all right. Wish us luck.
5/25 - I have finally decided just to do my own thing with this dieting regime. I seem to lose more weight when I
just try to keep my fat grams below 30 and my total calories below 1600. According to Richard Simmons I should eat
1800 calories a day; but when I do I feel like a stuffed pig. I can't wait until school is out so I can drink all
my water. I won't have to worry about being stuck in the room then. Only 11 more days for the kids and 12 more for
us. My kids are counting down the days, too.
Kind of a dreary day today. It rained most of the day and I just felt completely lazy. Did get my exercise done on
the treadmill, but would much rather walk outside. The weather is supposed to be the same tomorrow. Guess it is the
treadmill again whether I like it or not. So much for going out on the boat, although some die-hard fishermen were
out today in the pouring rain. Thank God we are not die-hard fisherman. Keep the Faith:)
5/24 - 220 - Finally, the 10 pound mark. And yes, if you checked in yesterday my weight did say 202. Just wishful
thinking I guess. Went for a walk last night and then chatted with a few people in the chat room. Kept getting
interrupted by kids; and half of them weren't even mine.
I had to go get my driver's license renewed this morning. What an experience. Some woman with a bad check charge
showing on her license tried to pay for her new one with a check. She got all wacked out when the MVA wouldn't
accept her check. They had to end up calling the police. She soon saw reason when they threatened to haul her out
of there in handcuffs. That is the last time I wait until the last minute to renew my license.
Well, nothing new is happening so I guess I will close for now.
5/23- 222 - Yeah, the scales finally moved. That makes me 8 pounds. Maybe I will be joining the 10 pound milestone
soon. Had a fairly easy week at work. None of the kids went off. Except for a couple being major pluckazoids every-
thing was fine.
I finally figured out why I have been down in the dumps the last few days. My birthday is on the 28th and for the first
time in the 16 years I have been married and out of the house my mom will not be calling me to wish me a happy birthday.
I figure if I can make it through Wednesday, maybe things will get on a more even keel for me. I sure hope so. It seems
like my boat has been rocking ever since September. Maybe I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Just the fact that I lost some more weight is of some help. I have been walking 3 to 4 miles every evening. Now I just
have to work on the water. That will be easier once school is over. Only 11 days for the kids and 12 days for instructional
aides and teachers. Then there is 4 weeks of summer school; but that is only 3 hours a day for 4 weeks.
We went to our daughter's spring concert down at the middle school last night. The chorus needs to sing louder but the band
was really good. They played Wipe Out and the kid on the drums was fantastic. Jaime play the sax. I may be prejudice, but
I think she is pretty good. She gets frustrated because she wants to play jazz and they never play any jazz songs at their
concerts. I just tell her to hang in there and maybe when she gets in high school they will play jazz songs.
Well, guess that's all for now. We just plan on having a quiet weekend at home. Yobo has to work a 24 hour shift on Sunday.
We may go out on the boat on Saturday or Monday if its warm enough.
5/21 - I am finally feeling better. I have been going to work even though I haven't felt up to par. Know that is not a
very smart thing to do; but I can't stand being home alone when I don't feel well. Don't get me wrong; I don't want to be
bothered, I just don't want to be alone in the house.
My dad came over tonight. He called and asked if we were going to be around. Didn't really feel like having company but
didn't feel like I could tell him not to come over. I know he is really lonely in the house since my mom died in September.
The main trouble with him coming over is that he eats around 4:00 and then came right over my house. I like to relax a
little when I get home from work and don't start supper until 5:00. That is exactly the time Dad arrived and then was
upset with me because I couldn't sit down and talk right away. I had to fix supper because the kids were hungry and it's
not fair to them to make them wait. I knew he would be here at least three hours and I was right. He finally left at 8:00.
We had field day at school on Monday and were outside almost all day. The kids really enjoyed themselves even if they did
keep asking when they could sit down and rest. The kids we deal with don't do much in the way of exercise. They mostly
sit around after they get home and watch TV. Their parents use it as free babysitting.
I have been looking for people in the chat room; but whenever I go into Yahoo Chat and then the General Chat Room and try to
find The Diet Room, it is never there. The only thing I can figure is that it seems most people on the journal list are on
the west coast and don't come on the chat line until after I have already gone up for the night. Or maybe they chat during
the day. I just feel like I could use more help. I really appreciate all the e-mail I have gotten and really feel guilty
that I haven't answered every one of them. It is usually all I can do to get near the computer to type my journal entry.
With a husband and three kids (two of whom are teenagers) I seem to always come last. Oh well, such is the life of a mother.
Sorry I am in such a crappy mood tonight. My wrist hurts like crazy and they tell me it isn't carpal tunnel. I went today
and had a regular x-ray. Go back to the doctor's next Thursday and get the results of that. Meanwhile, the pain is driving
my crazy. It feels like someone has lit a match in my wrist and I can't blow it out. Guess I better got for now; all this
typing only makes my wrist feel better. Sure am feeling sorry for myself tonight. Good luck everyone and keep the faith.
5/17 - What a bummer of a day. Woke up feeling fine and about half-way through the morning started feeling really bad.
Have been running a low-grade fever all day. I think I have a nice spring cold coming on. I hope that is all it is.
With the kids I work around in school there is no telling what kind of germs I have come in contact with. Oh well, guess
I have to take the good with the bad. Didn't do any exercise and eat hardly anything today because was feeling so low.
I only ate because my husband insisted that I had to to help combat the germs. I know he is right; but I just didn't feel
like eating. Maybe things will be better tomorrow. Not much to say; so will just say good bye.
Have had a pretty good week at work. Took Tuesday off and went on a field trip with my youngest son. We went to St. Michaels. It was a real nice trip. St. Michaels is right on the water and is full of history. We got to go on a tour of a lighthouse and learn about how they used to hunt ducks in the 50's. Then the kids got to try nippering for oysters and to raise the sail on a skipjack. Then we went out on an excursion boat and heard a blurb about the history of St. Michaels. I was real tired and fell alseep on the way back home. You know you are tired when you fall asleep in a school bus.
Things have been quiet at work this week. Actually some quite funny things have been happening. One kid came to school with the whole crotch ripped out of his pants and his underpants weren't in too good shape either. When he sat like a pretzel on the carpet (that's Indian style for all of us older folks) you could see everything he owned. Had to take him down to the nurse's office for another pair of pants. We got quite a good laugh over that. The poor kid didn't even have a clue.
Haven't weighed myself in a while. The doctor's scale said 223 yesterday. That's seven pounds. Will I ever reach the 10 pound mark. Haven't really been drinking my water; but have been walking. It depends on whether I walk alone or not how far I walk. Always walk farther when I am alone. Denise always poops out after three miles. Sometimes I walk 5 miles if I feel extra good. Have walked about 40 miles since deciding to walk to Florida to see my brother, Alan. That puts me about 7 miles below Baltimore and on the way to Washington, DC.
5/12 - Well, I survived yesterday. I laughed and cried off and on all day. It was very hard to go put flowers on my mother's grave on mother's day. Went and saw my dad. He seemed to be holding up pretty well. He had already been over to the grave before my family got there. My sister and her family put flowers on mom's grave also. Was talking to Judy this evening and she said she held up pretty good yesterday, too.
Saw a girlfriend whom I haven't seen in about ten years yesterday. She has a little boy who is two. Real cute little kid. We got to talking about the first time she had ever seen an x-rated movie. She went with my sister, brothers and I. Then I saw her brother and his 6-week old son. Then went over to my dad's neighbor and saw her week old great grandson. He looked a little jaundiced to me; but I was good and kept my mouth shut. New mothers hate advice from women with two or three kids. I know because I got tired of hearing it when my kids were little.
Well, not much else to write. Will write again tomorrow I hope. My husband and I are going on a field trip with our youngest son tomorrow. We won't get back til late. Hope the weather is good.
Got Richard Simmons Get Down the Pounds stuff yesterday. Went to use it this morning and the VCR isn't working. Have to get my husband to look at it tomorrow when he gets home.
Tomorrow is Mother's Day. Have been pretty depressed all week. That hasn't helped matters any. I don't know if I can handle going over my mother-in-law's tomorrow. She wasn't very sympathetic when my mother died and doesn't think I should be upset about it still; after all, she died 8 months ago. She just doesn't seem to care about anything. It's not like she still has her mother around. She died 2 years ago in October. She just thinks I am a cry baby. Will try to write tomorrow and let you know how things went. Take care and keep the faith:)
5/5 - Didn't realize I hadn't written at all this weekend. Sorry about that. Had a pretty good weekend. Went down to the fun fair at the school and worked two hours on Saturday. Then just came home and took it easy.
Just got back from a 4-mile walk. Went all by myself and listened to my tape player. This is getting to be a pretty regular thing because Denise hasn't shown up the last few times. She must be wimping out on me. Oh well, I enjoy the peace and quiet. Not much to say, so guess I will go. Will try to remember to write again tomorrow.
5/2 - Had a pretty easy day at work today. Didn't get to go to the volunteer breakfast because it didn't start until 8:30 and that is when my day starts. Some of the kids in our class eat breakfast at school and we have to stay in the cafeteria with them while they eat. I heard they had a pretty good spread. All kinds of bagels and cream cheeses and jams and jellies and fruit. Good thing I had eaten about 1/3 of a bagel at home. Ate that because have to take the medication for my wrist on a full stomach so it doesn't make me sick.
Will have to keep this entry short because am meeting Denise at the track for a walk. James and the kids and Jaime's friend all went out on the boat. I have a back ache; so I stayed home. Did pretty good in the eating department today. Besides the bagel at breakfast; had a salad, half a bagel left over from the breakfast at school, and fat-free yogurt for lunch; an apple when I got home and chicken, rice and corn for supper. Found a fat-free spread that tastes like butter. Is really good. Used that on the corn.
Will write again tomorrow if not too tired. Have to work down the school at the Fun Fair. Am only supposed to be there an hour; but everyone tells me it always ends up being closer to four. Take care and keep the faith:)
5/1 - 226 I attribute this to the fact that it is my favorite time of the month. Just thrills me to death. I have also been eating like a pig. I get a real craving for carbs at this time of the month. Have really been loading up. Tried to make them low-fat, but the extra calories still added up.
We had a humdinger of a thunderstorm earlier and it looks like it might storm again. It poured down rain and hailed. The dogs were going crazy. One is scared to death of the thunder and the other one barks every time it lightenings. They were driving me nuts.
Had another bad day at work. The morning was fine but things kinda fell apart this afternoon. Oh well, guess the whole day could have been bad. Tomorrow will be better.
Tomorrow they are having a parent volunteer breakfast at the school. I was invited because on days I don't sub I volunteer. Plus I count all the Valu Food and Klein's (two supermarkets) receipts. We get a percentage of the total receipts. One store's goes to the media center; the other usually goes to buy phys ed equipment.
Guess that's all for today. Will check in again tomorrow.