11/1 - Another new month. Didn't weigh myself this morning; just forgot in the rush. I have been kinda out of things lately because of working and school. My term paper on inclusion is due on Thursday. I will be real busy this next week; so don't give up hope on me, just wish me luck. Will let you know how it turns out. I have gotten all As on my papers except for one B. Not too shabby for someone who graduated high school 23 years ago. I will fix this page up as soon as I get a chance. Will try to weigh myself tomorrow and post the results. I will admit I haven't been drinking all my water and a couple of night my eating has gotten out of hand. I am just hoping I maintained and any loss will be a bonus. I think it is due to the fact that my mother's birthday would have been tomorrow. I woke up yesterday morning at 4:00 after a dream about my mother and I was crying my eyes out. Spent the next half hour crying and wishing my husband was either home or at least on the board at work so I could call and talk to him. However, neither was the case so I had to deal with it by myself. At least I didn't go downstairs to the kitchen and pig out like I would have in the past. I can control myself sometimes; just can't seem to keep it together all the time. Sorry this is so long and down, that is just the way I feel right now. The crappy weather doesn't seem to be helping today. It has rained all day and is supposed to continue thru Monday. It was sunny and nice all week long while I was working; come the weekend it rains. Has been that way for the last two weeks. Now that I am long-term subbing I miss my occassional day off. Oh well, this too shall pass. Keep the faith:)
11-7 - 212 - Sorry it has been so long since I have written in my journal. My term paper for English Comp is done and handed in. Should know how I did on it next Thursday. Now I must get my term paper for my Education class finished. That one is due in December, around the 13 I believe. I also have to read a book and do a report on it in addition to getting all my observations done and writing them up. I will be quite busy; but will try to keep this page up a little bit more. Have lost another 4 pounds. That brings me down to 212. Still along way to go; but as they say, slow and steady wins the race and this is turning out to be a marathon. I hope to speed things up a little bit and be down to 200 by Christmas. Keep the faith.
11-9 - I don't really have much to say. Have been really down and not been eating the way I should. Did eat some baby carrots today instead of candy; so maybe things are looking up. I also steamed some cauliflower to take to lunch tomorrow. It really tastes good with Molly McButter on it. I also plan on fixing some very low-fat chicken and rice mixture to take in my lunch. I have been trying to come up with different things as I get tired of turkey sandwiches every day. Will probably put some baby carrots in there also. Grapefruit is coming back into season and I love them. Am getting a little tired of apples, and even the frozen grapes are getting old. Sorry to be so down. Will try to pick it up tomorrow. Keep the faith:)
11-10 - Things are going a little better today. Had a pretty good day at work and a good evening at class. Haven't weighed myself but feel like I have gained weight. Of course, it is hard to tell at this time of the month. Will weight next Monday and post then. Gotta go cause it's getting late and I have things to do before I can turn in. Keep the faith:)
11-14 - Had a real crappy day yesterday. I am long-term subbing in a special ed kindergarten class. There are only 7 kids in the class and they are a pretty neat group. Yesterday I found out they were switching me to another class for the day and when I said I would rather not go into that class they said I had to go there anywhere. I was pretty upset because this is my fifth year subbing at this particular school and I have never refused to go into a class at any time and the one time I said I didn't want to go I was made to anyway. This class is a special ed class also and I long-term subbed in it two years ago for 5 months with a different set of kids. The year I subbed in the room there were 5 kids in the class. Three were in wheelchairs and four of them had to be diapered and one had a colostomy bag which had to be burped and changed when mom didn't feel like doing it. Three had to be hand fed and one was tube fed. There are 7 kids in the class now. Four are in wheelchairs, four need to be hand fed and one is tube fed and five wear diapers. The room they are in is way to small for all the stuff that is in there. In addition to the wheelchairs there are standers for three of the kids in wheelchairs and a gait trainer for the other. There is a changing table, three student desks, another table, the teacher's desk and the instructional assistant's desk. Then there is all kinds of other stuff in the room. In addition to all of that the kids scream and cry or moan all day. I wouldn't have minded so much except for two people who have been subbing less time than me said they didn't want to go into the room and nothing was said to them. I have always done just about anything they asked and I just feel like it wasn't appreciated at all yesterday. In addition, when I went into my other room to pick up my coffee cup they teacher wanted to talk to me about a change in plans. They didn't even bother to tell her that they had moved me and another sub was coming into the room for the day. I felt more like a baby sitter than a teacher yesterday.
Sorry I ran on so long and I am sure it doesn't make any sense. On the diet front, I have started WW123. The school nurse somehow got copies for everyone at the school who was interested in the program. I do believe I did hear someone talking about converting things that were homemade to show how many points they were worth. We didn't get that part of the program if it can be done. Oh well, at least we got ocpies of what they do have listed. Today I was 2 points below my maximum amount allowed. I ate plenty of carrots and cauliflower. I had fixed crab cakes to take in to lunch; but my youngest son ate them last night for his supper while I was at class. Oh well, the veggies were very healthy for me. Keep the faith:)
11/16 - This weekend has been crazy. Went up to the college library yesterday to do research for my education class. It was pouring down rain. Today we went to tag our Christmas tree and there were snow flurries. Our youngest has been having a terrible time with his asthma and has had to use his nebbie all weekend. I should have stayed home with him and let my hubbie and other kids go tag the tree; but didn't have the heart to make him stay home. I know the cold and wind didn't help his asthma any; but this is the first live tree we have had in four years. His old pediatrician said he had an allergy to pine trees because he had a severe asthma attack and ended up in the hospital around Christmas when he was in first grade. Dummy me I didn't even realize that we didn't have the tree up when this was decided, but since he always had an asthma attack when we were working under the pine tree in the yard I figured it must be true. His new doctor has him sent for allergie tests this summer and he isn't allergic to any trees, it was the dust under the pine tree that was setting off his asthma. I guess I just trusted his other doctor to know what was right and come to find out he didn't know squat. I am so glad I took all my kids away from that doctor. There were four doctors in the office and you never saw the same one twice. I got tired of always getting different stories about his asthma every time he had trouble. He has to go to the doctor tomorrow because of his asthma. I believe he needs some prednisone to give his system a jump start and help him get over this rough spot. I hope that is all they do and he doesn't wind up in the hospital again. Hopefully things will settle down and I will get back from the doctor's office in time tomorrow to get to my education class tomorrow night. I don't know if she will excuse my absence because my son was sick. Keep the faith:)
11/22 - I'm taking time off from my studying to update my journal. I just needed a break. My son did need the prednisone. He was also put on amoxicillin because he was starting with bronchitis. The doctor made him stay home from school on Tuesday. He is doing much better now. I ended up just going to my education class long enough to pick up my last test and get the one for this week. So far I have all A's in that class. I also have an A average in my Freshman Comp class. Well, I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive and trying to hang in there. This has been a most stressful week and I went over on my points for WW a couple of times; but only by one or two on two different days. Hopefully it won't affect me to bad. Will update again later when I get a chance. Keep the faith:)
11/27 - Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Had a pretty good day. We went over to my sister's for dinner. It still seems funny to get the family together and not see Ma there. Guess that is something I will never get used to. I have changed jobs at school. The Media Specialist went out on maternity leave and I start in her job Monday. The neighbor down the road is taking over the long-term sub job I was in. I enjoy the media center; but I will miss the kids I was working with. At least they all learned their PIN numbers for lunch while I was in the room. I will see them once a week for media classes and will try to slip down to the room once or twice a week just for a quick visit. The main thing that has me in a panic is doing lesson plans and grading papers for every student in the school. Oh well, I guess I will survive all right. Keep the faith:)
11/28 - The traditional first day of Christmas shopping. I was not crazy enough to go out and face those crowds. I am very claustrophobic and the very thought of all those people takes my breath away. I have been working on my term paper for my education class all day. Am almost done. It is due on 8 Dec. That will be the next to last class. I can't believe this semester is almost over. I have registered for my spring classes and am going to buy the books for them on Thursday. One of them costs $90 and we have to get a workbook to go with it. I also need two books for my other class. I wish I could afford to take more than two classes at a time. It is probably for the best as working full time and going to school 2 nights a week this semester has really kicked my butt. Don't think I could really handle three nights. So far I have an A average in both classes. Hopefully I can keep it up. Keep the faith:)
11/29 - Hope no one has heart failure. This makes 3 days in a row I have journalled. Yesterday was a dreary day. It was cloudy and rainy all day. My son will never get over the trouble with his asthma as long as this weather keeps up. He is miserable, poor thing. Today the sun is out and I will probably spend part of the day out raking leaves. We have a woods right behind our house and I believe all the leaves from every single tree fall into our yard. We are walking in leaves nearly knee deep, and we have already raked twice. I love the woods, but the leaves I could do without right about now. Oh well, at least I will be getting exercise. Gotta go and get to work now. Maybe I will get a chance to journal more later. Keep the faith:)