October Journal

10-31 - Happy Halloween!!! Things here have been pretty much the same old, same old. Still having trouble with my back. Dad is holding his own. I don't know where that man gets his strength. He is just like the energizer bunny. He doesn't let things keep him down. HIs emphysema has been acting up (among other things) but he still gets up every morning and takes his dog for a walk. He was over the other night. I wish he wouldn't drive, but the doctor says it is all right and I hate to be the heavy; but it sure does make me nervous. He drive down I-95 about 55 miles an hour and complains about everyone passing him. I think he is lucky they don't just push him down the highway. The speed limit is 65 and most people (myself included I am sorry to admit) travel between 70 and 80 mph. I have rejoined the mailing list. I just missed you all too much. Guess I will just have to make time for it, along with starting to exercise again. Hopefully my back can stand up to it. Yes, I am still having trouble with that sucker. It has been about 6 or 7 weeks, but seems much longer. It is all I do to get out of get some mornings. Keep the faith ;)

10-24 - Today was Pamela's memorial service. It was very hard. Jai cried her eyes out, poor thing. We were pretty down after that, so I decided to treat us to something special. Our neighbor usually does our hair, but I decided we needed the works. We went out and got our hair cut at a salon where they wash it. That is the first time Jai has had her hair done in a salon. She really enjoyed it. The only drawback is that her haircut makes her look about 16 or 17 instead of 14. I can't believe how much she has grown up over the last year. Nothing much exciting going on here, just the same old, same old. Keep the faith ;)

10-19 - I don't have much to report. I was sick all weekend, but did manage to go to work today. It is finally starting to feel like the fall of the year here. We have had warmer than usual weather lately, but that is supposed to change. It is supposed to drop 20 degrees between today and Wednesday. I still haven't been able to walk because of my back. It has been four weeks now. How much longer can it go on. It feels much better, but walking for any length of time is very difficult. Hopefully that will improve soon. Keep the faith ;)

10-10 - Things are getting back on an even keel. My brother-in-law and sister-in-law are having the baby cremated and won't get her ashes back for two weeks. They will have a memorial service for her on 24 Oct. This was a high risk pregnancy because Sharon was overweight, smoked and was diabetic. My brother's wife is pregnant and she is also overweight and diabetic. Ronnie and Sharon had an autopsy done on Pamela. They won't hear anything for six weeks. If it was due to any of the problems associated with the pregnancy, I will be on pins and needles until Tom and De's baby is born. Of course, De is due on 26 Nov, so I won't have that long to fret. Susan and I are going over to Ronnie and Sharon's and pack up the baby stuff for them. It is going to be a very difficult thing to have to do. I remember how hard it was to get rid of my baby stuff and that was just becuase the kids had grown and didn't need it any more. This will be about 1,000 times worse. I would like to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. Keep the faith ;)

10-8 - My husband and I went down with his sister and other brother to the hospital yesterday and saw Pamela. I found out that all of this took place Monday evening and she had already been in the University over 12 hours before Ronnie called his mother and told her. The doctor told me that the baby was brain dead and that when they approached the parents about turning off the respirator, the father was very opposed to the idea. The doctor felt that Ronnie was waiting for all of the family to get to the hospital. His parents (my in-laws) never did go to the hospital. We had been home for about an hour when my mil called and said that the baby had passed away. I know she is at peace with God. I just hope Ronnie, Sharon, and their daughter Angela (she is nine) can find the strength from God to cope with this tragedy. I am so glad that we went down and gave Ronnie and Sharon our support. They are going to do an autopsy to figure out exactly what happened to cause the child to bleed into her brain. Please continue to keep this family in your prayers as they will need it. Keep the faith ;)

10-6 - Had a phone call from my mother-in-law this morning. My husband's brother's 12 day old baby was taken to the hospital. She is the University of Maryland. I'm not sure exactly what is wrong; but it doesn't look good. I'm not sure if the bled into her brain or had a build up of fluid. I do know that they have said that she will in all likelihood be a vegetable if she does live. I have been upset all day. They don't know much more now than they did this morning. My mother-in-law has been keeping me updated, although there has been no real update. She is home. I don't understand that woman. If it was my granddaughter, my butt would be at that hospital right along with the parents. Her excuse is that she doesn't want to break down in front of her son. I think it more important that she be there for moral support than to worry about breaking down. I will keep you all posted on what happens. Please pray for Pamela Liane and her family. Keep the faith ;)

10-3 - Things have been a little hectic. Between work, college and the other things going on in my live, it seems that I have no time for myself. To top matters off, I am still having trouble with my back. It is getting better, but still not all the way. On the brighter side, I have mananged to loose 2 pounds this week. I know that is just because I have been running around so much. You all take care and I hope to be back soon. Keep the faith ;)