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“What’s wrong?” Zac’s trusting eyes made me feel both safe but ashamed that I had hidden the truth all day. He placed his warm hand over mine which was cold and anxious.
I slowly exhaled before letting any words leave my lips, “Something happened last night,” I started, each word becoming more and more difficult to say. Zac’s face became confused as he waited patiently for me to continue. I stared down at our empty plate. “I don’t think it’s going to happen again, I don’t want it to happen again, I didn’t even know it happened until it did, and--” I looked up to Zac to see an even more perplexed look, “I don’t know why it happened or why he did it. I just, I thought, I’ve been thinking all day, and I, I can’t.. I can’t just keep it inside, I have to tell you. I didn’t want to ruin things. Well there’s no reason for it to ruin anything, it was nothing.” Zac’s hand slowly caressed mine as I tried to explain things.
“So what happened Sam?” Zac asked as if he was holding his breath, waiting for me to answer so he could release it. I glanced to him sheepishly and his hand stopped it’s caressing motion.
“Taylor came in my bed last night.”
Zac pulled his hand away from mine. That’s when I wished I’d never said a thing. I felt ashamed, he couldn’t even touch me anymore!
“What does that mean?” Zac’s question was a mix of anger and curiosity which made me nervous all over again.
“I was sleeping. I thought it was you! He kissed me, it was just kissing!” Tears began filling up my eyes and slowly rolling down my cheeks, Zac ignored them.
“Did you kiss him back?” He questioned.
“Not when I knew that it wasn’t you! I was so scared, I didn’t even know what to think, I don’t know why he was like that or why he was doing anything in the first place. I jus-”
Zac interrupted me, “So you kissed him back?” He said flatly and knowingly of the answer. His eyes searched mine and I couldn’t speak. He shook his head and stared out towards the window.
“Zac-” my voice was weak. He glanced at me, then crossed his arms and looked back out the window, “Zac!” I said stronger, demanding his attention, and when he refused to look at me I burst into full blown tears. The waitress walked past quickly dropping the check on the table and heading back towards the kitchen. Zac ignored it and still glared out the window.
I wrapped my arms around my head and rested it on the table and tried to stifle my tears. That was impossible and I began to shake. “I’m sorry Zac! I didn’t want to! I don’t know what happened!” Zac grabbed the check and went to the register to take care of it. I wondered if he would just leave me there. Minutes went by and I couldn’t bring myself to look up and see if he was back or if he’d left me there alone. How could I blame him if he did leave me? I deserved it all, and I hadn’t even told him the worst of it, that kissing Taylor felt good. I would never tell him that though, it wasn’t right to tell him that. That was too cruel. I heard a squeak in the floorboard and knew then that Zac hadn’t left me, he was standing and watching me. Soon enough I felt his hand brush through my hair and I turned to him, his big brown eyes acknowledging mine once again.
“I love you Zac,” I said before weeping more and longing for him to hold me.
“Shhh,” Zac pulled my head into his chest and patted my back, “Don’t cry Sam, shhh,” he rested his face on the top of my head and kissed it.
I wrapped my arms around his back so tightly as if I were to let go he would be lost forever. His arms felt so good around me. I could never imagine not being able to have him hold me. Zac was the only one I wanted, he was part of me and I was part of him. My breathing slowed down to it’s normal rate again and my tears subsided.
Zac held my cheek and searched my puffy pink face, I felt embarrassed that I’d cried so much and allowed myself to look such a wreck. He said nothing.
“I’m sorry I ruined your weekend,” I started, “Oh, I got your shirt wet, I didn’t mean to. I must look a wreck, I’m so horrible-”
“You’re beautiful Sam,” Zac assured me, “and I love you.” Zac put me at ease and I couldn’t help but give him a huge smile. I couldn’t understand how I could ever be so lucky as to have someone like him in my life.
“That’s what I like to see,” he told me, “let’s get out of here, I think we need to talk to Taylor anyway.” With that we were off. Zac walked very quickly back to our car. It scared me, who knew how bad things were going to get once we got back.
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