12/6/97 OK- THIS IS NOT THE BEST TIME TO GO ON A DIET,IN FACT IF ONE WOULD TAKE A POPULAR OPINION POLL , I AM SURE THEY WOULD FIND THAT MOST SANE PEOPLE WOULD WAIT UNTIL THE HOLIDAYS ARE OVER TO EMBARK ON A "NEW IMPROVED LIFESTYLE" WELL, I NEVER CLAIMED TO BE SANE. I AM OUTTA CONTROL...AND I CANNOT WAIT A MOMENT LONGER TO START...I AM A BINGE EATER,IT IS NOT UNCOMMON FOR ME TO GO 20 HOURS WITHOUT EATING,NOT FEELING THE LEAST BIT OF HUNGER{in fact i do not think i have felt a hunger pang since 1972} THEN CONSUME 4000 CALORIES IN 30 MINUTES......I HAVE NO IDEA WHEN THIS STARTED,I HAVE BEEN DOING IT AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER.
12/7/97 WEIGH IN-252.5 LOVELY..AT 5'5 I ACTUALLY EQUAL THE WEIGHT OF TWO PEOPLE OF MY HEIGHT. I HAVE A FEW WEEKS SUPPLY OF SLIMFAST AND A BUNCH OF OTHER DIET STUFF...I KNOW SLIMFAST IS NOT A LONG TERM ANSWER,I AM JUST HOPING IT WILL GIVE ME THE QUICK START I NEED TO STAY MOTIVATED THE FIRST FEW WEEKS.
12/8/97 MY FRIEND SAID SHE ADDS A BANANNA TO HER SLIMFAST IN THE BLENDER TO "MAKE IT MORE FILLING" I WONDERED FOR A MOMENT IF A QUART OF BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM WOULD "MAKE IT MORE FILLING" {my friend has 5 nasty pounds to loose,poor dear....i just cannot relate }
12/9/97 I AM DOING GOOD SO FAR , A GOOD SIGN,MOST OF MY ATTEMPTS FAIL THE DAY THEY BEGIN I AM DETERMINED!
12/10/97 I AM IN A VERY CRANKY MOOD...DOING GOOD JUST NEED TO KEEP GOING.2 SHAKES AND A SENSIBLE DINNER {500 CALORIES FOR DINNER} AND A COUPLE OF SNACKS.I HAVE BEEN STAYING WELL UNDER 1200 CALORIES A DAY.WEE- HA!
12/11/97 I AM THINKING OF HAVING A T-SHIRT PRINTED THAT EXCLAIMS: DO NOT SPEAK TO ME...DO NOT EVEN LOOK @ ME THE WRONG WAY..I AM ON A DIET,AND I AM PISSED!
12/12/97 IF I EAT ONE MORE PIECE OF FISH I THINK I WILL SPROUT GILLS AND BE ABLE TO BREATH UNDER WATER.STILL DOING GOOD.I NEED TO IMPLEMENT A FORMAL EXCERCISE PROGRAM.I AM AFRAID TO GO TO THE GYM.IT SUCKS TO BE THE FATTEST AND MOST OUT OF BREATH PERSON AT THE GYM.
12/13/97 I JOINED A MAILING LIST FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE OVER 100# TO LOOSE....I NEVER KNEW THERE WERE SO MANY OF US.IT HELPS TO KNOW I AM NOT THE ONLY PERSON THAT IS IN THIS SITUATION.
12/14/97 WELL,I LOST 5 POUNDS THIS WEEK,I KNOW THAT THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN EVERY WEEK .FEELING GOOD.
12/15/97 THE MALL IS A DANGEROUS PLACE...THE FOOD COURT MORE SPECIFICALLY,I REALIZED TODAY THAT EATING WAS A MAJOR "ACTIVITY" IF WE WENT TO SHOP,WE ATE WHILE WE WERE THERE.NONE FOR ME THANKS. I AM A WOMEN ON A MISSION. 12/16/97 HAS THIS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU? STOP @ BURGER KING DRIVE THRU,ORDER A DIET COKE,BEING INTENTIONAL WHEN YOU SAY"I'D LIKE A DIET COKE AND THAT WILL BE ALL PLEASE" AND THE KID ON THE MICROPHONE ASK'S " WOULD YOU LIKE FRIES OR A BURGER WITH THAT?" I KNOW THE KID WAS JUST DOING HIS JOB....BUT I WAS TEMPTED TO DRIVE UP TO THE WINDOW REACH IN AND CHOKE HIS SKINNY LITTLE NECK...WHILE REPEATING THAT "I JUST WANT A F#%$^%$ DIET COKE!!!! I WILL MAKE IT A POINT TO CARRY MY OWN BEVERAGE IN THE FUTURE.
12/17/97 DOWN TWO MORE POUNDS,A DROP IN THE BUCKET,BUT STILL PROGRESS.
12/18/97 I AM SMOKING A LOT MORE NOW THAT I AM ON THIS DIET,I ONLY HAVE THE COURAGE TO DEAL WITH ONE ADDICTION @ A TIME.
12/22/97 I HOPE I MAKE IT THRU THE CHRISTMAS PARTIES WITHOUT A BINGE.I AM DELIGHTED THAT MY WILLPOWER HAS CONTINUED.
12/25/97 DID THE IN-LAW THING LAST NIGHT,I DID GREAT,LUCKILY THERE WERE NOT THAT MANY SWEETS AT THE PARTY,MY GREATEST TEMPTATION.TODAY I WILL TRAVEL TO MY HOME TOWN OF BALTIMORE TO VISIT MY BROTHER,HIS WIFE AND CHILDREN AND MY PARENTS,I DO NOT ANTICIPATE ANY PROBLEMS.I AM THE ONLY PERSON IN MY FAMILY WITH A WEIGHT PROBLEM.THE ONLY OTHER FAMILY MEMBER THAT WAS VERY OVERWEIGHT WAS MY GREAT-GRANDMOTHER.SHE WAS MY FAVORITE PERSON IN THE WORLD.SHE PASSED AWAY SHORTLY AFTER MY SON WAS BORN.I STILL MISS HER TERRIBLY.ESPECIALLY AROUND THE HOLIDAYS.MERRY CHRISTMAS.
12/26/97 MADE THE TRIP BACK HOME WITH TWO EXTRA PASSENGERS,MY NIECE AND NEPHEW{7&10} THEY FOUGHT THE WHOLE TRIP .....I NEED A SEDATIVE NOW!!!! DID OK ON THE DIET.
12/31/97 QUIET NEW YEAR @ HOME WITH MY HUSBAND AND SON.