I can hear them calling me. However, it is too late. All my life I have made mistakes after mistakes. Not this time. He will not see me go through this. I can not bear the thought of him holding me as darkness fall upon me one last time.

All this fighting, all this search to free my brother. All for nothing. All this studying and this practicing to defeat her. All for nothing. All my love, all my hopes for a future with him. All for nothing.

She came to me this morning, saying it was time. I agreed. I thought I was ready. I was not. And once again I made a mistake, this one to be my last. I remember him telling me "NO!" I remember the despair in his eyes as we vanished into thin air. I have caused him yet to worry about me again. But not this time. When he will find me, there will be nothing left for him to worry about. All he will have to do is take me back to the sea, as I once asked him to. He has promised me he would do it, should this day ever come. And this day has come. All for nothing.

The earth is cold under me, I can feel it's strength. I know I could feed from it. But I won't. The time has come for me to stop my foolish quest for happiness. I have been looking for it all over the seven seas. All for nothing. It was standing at my side all along. My happinnes was him. And now I know that I shall not have it.

For I have seen the future last night. All for nothing. I have seen myself fall into the fury of the sea. I have seen him risk his life to try to save me. And I have seen HER. She will take my place at his side while I hide cowardly. From another dimension, I will watch her get close to him. I will see him turn bitter and dark. And as I watch, helpless, I will pray for him to find me soon. All for nothing. For that day will never come. For he will never get the chance to find me. I have seen this too.

The air around me is getting heavier. And the sky is getting darker and darker, although it is the middle of the day...

I will not allow this to happen. I will not let his eyes turn evil more and more each day. I will not let him turn into a blood thirsty man. And I will not watch that devil come and claim his soul. He has so much to acccomplish in this life, in a different way than the one the future holds for him. She might be able to turn him around from these crual days, but I doubt it. For his hearth will slowly die. From that day to come when I will go overboard until the day when he will loose all hope of ever finding me. I have seen it. She will try her best and her feelings will be true. He might even try to love her. All for nothing. For in his hearth I shall ever be. A ghost from the past, haunting him and torturing him for all eternity. I will not let this be.

I can hear their footsteps now. I can recognize his voice. The desire to call him, to see him one last time is strong but I will fight it.

He has the right to find happiness, regardless of my own sadness. I have loved him, I will always love him. All for nothing. If I let the future unfold as I have seen it, he will never be happy. But if I can change it, then maybe he has a chance. I know this may sounds foolish. How can causing him the greatest pain will ever make him happy? By loosing me to the sea, he will also loose any chance he might have of leaving the past, leaving me behind. But if I go this way, he might stand a chance. For you cannot take revenge from the sea. But from an evil creature you can. By avenging me, he will free the world from her presence. And he will free his heart. That is why I followed her this morning, to try and change the future. His future. If this happens, then maybe this last mistake of mine won't be a mistake after all.

I have stop breathing. I didn't even realize it. And now I can see myself and I can see him. He is kneeling at my side, crying. Cry my love, cry. For your wound will heal faster this way. I can see the future again. It is a brighter one, without her. Perhaps this was not all for nothing after all.......