The Moon slumbers silently in the dark midnight sky. The wind
rustles the trees, making all the leaves hit each other, sounds 
of wild applause. Applause to the Moon as she lets her 
light fall upon the cold earth, creating a silver glow on 
every object or creature that ventures out of shadow. 

The Dawson's Creek episode the other night, 11/5/98, seemed to
fall directly on our full moon as well. And I really do hate
sounding like a TV show, but this seems to hold some bizarre
irony to it. The week chaos exploded around here in my town. 
(I don't know if it was the same for you or not.) Everyone 
seemed to have something going wrong for them. And I was 
certainly no exception. I create this page as a memorial for 
the week and a monument for the most wonderful celestial being 
in the sky.  

This page is an add on to my other coffeehouses. 
I created this page in utter turmoil of my mind needing 
some sort of closure. I doubt you would understand what 
I mean by that. But, this helps me out a little, and that’s 
all that really matters to me. 
And my reason for having Sailor Moon up all over? Well, 
Serena reminds me of me. Whiney, clumsy, tiny girl who has
to learn how to be brave sometime in her life and usually
learns everything the hard way. I can look at Serena and 
say, "That's me!" She is how I am on the inside and on the 
outside. (And her birthday is right after mine!) It seemed
only right to have her on my thoughts page.
My thoughts aren’t ever important to anyone, but I like to 
share them. Hope you enjoy and I somehow leave an impression 
on you in someway. And I would like to leave you all with this 
final quote that keeps me musing most nights. 


“And if equal affection can not be reached, let the more loving 
one be me.”~unknown
Blessed Be!  *)Cera(*


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She sits in the moonlight
All alone in her world
Bleeding from the inside
Shivering from the cold
She reflects on the past
She learns things don’t last
As she cries into her hands

Memories of the aching
Memoirs of a longing
Remembers the conquest
Remembering she was blessed

Now her soul is aching
The wind echoing her crying
Her heart is what is bleeding
Her mind makes sounds of dying
The turmoil it runs wild
She is confused and unhappy
She never even expected ending

Her heart is in pieces
Too many to keep replacing
Tears fall as numerous as her thoughts
Thoughts that were right, but very wrong

She knows she has to hold her own
Very brave and very strong as she goes
But, her soul is always trembling
Waiting for her to stop falling
Feelings ran deeper then she thought
Who is there to embrace her now?
©November 1998 by Cera




My Savior

The clouds cluster in the sky
A blanket of white over the night
The moon shines through a hole
Beams down her shining hope

The world is soft and quiet
Wind rustles all the trees
Sleeping children and quiet people
All thoughts of different things
She comforts and she watches enduringly
Studying all their silent dreams

A pain it tears my heart to pieces
Torture knocks down my dreams
Anger rips my soul apart
Crying seems to make it heed

Diana’s light quiets my fears 
Soothing my spirit and breathing
The moonbeams fall upon my face
Changing all the hopeless tears again
From salt water to silver starlite wishes
Trying to make things better for me quicker

My darling childhood hero
Ever since I was three
Always my secret guardian
Has always kept eyes on me

There she watches over me
From her silvery home above
And I trust in her love for me
For she’s always guided me home
© November 1998 by Cera






Ripples in the water
Wind rustles the scene
Reflections in the surface
Mirror clouds and trees
Leaves fall from up high
Like rain from the sky
Soft autumn colors collide
With the ducks swimming by
My thoughts are at rest
My eyes are at ease
One Quiet Moment
Seconds of perfect peace
©October 1998 by Cera





I’ve noticed those eyes curious
I’ve noticed those eyes glance
I’ve noticed those eyes read
I’ve noticed those eyes stare

I’ve observed those eyes think
I’ve observed those eyes upset
I’ve observed those eyes wonder
I’ve observed those eyes mad

I’ve seen those eyes sparkle
I’ve seen those eyes dance
I’ve seen those eyes smile
I’ve seen those eyes laugh

I’ve watched those eyes grow weary
I’ve watched those eyes get bored
I’ve watched those eyes go blank
I’ve watched those eyes close
If your eyes are the window to your soul,
There is so much more I want to know.
©October 1998 by Cera




Feeling sad and feeling lonely
Yearning more for you to hold me
To feel embrace that is so tight
Saving me from my moments in life

I see you there, you seem so close
I reach for you, but you back up
I watch you as you step away 
Wondering why you’re like this most days

I don’t want this to be unreal
I want to really see inside of you
A Specialness inside you glows
So Bright it draws me oh so close

Mixed emotions and jumbled thoughts
Always worrying someday we’ll part
And on that day, when we do
My heart will always be attached to you
©September 1998  by Cera




“An unpleasant freeze in my mind
Spoken word I’ve said on million times
Who are you to tell me that’ll always be this way
I close my eyes and I turn around and I leave it all behind

So, free for the moment
Lots of air between the earth and the sky
So, free for the moment
That’s because I want to be lost, so don’t try to find me

Always try to breeze through my life
Repetitious things I done one million times
Who are you to tell me that I’ll always be this way
I close my eyes and I turn around and leave it all behind

What could I do?
It’s not such a terrible thing
What would you do?
It’s not such a terrible thing

So, free for the moment
That’s the air between the earth and the sky
So, free for the moment
That’s because I want to be lost, so don’t try to find me”
	~The Matinis  “Free”