Thoughts From The Pasture

August 29th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"We all have a dark side; it's bullshit to say that we don't. At some point we're going to have to face that."
~ Sarah McLachlan
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August 28th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"In theatre, the director is God - but unfortunately, the actors are athiests"
~ Zarko Petan, Penguin Dictionary of Twentith Century Quotations ****************************************
August 27th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"A lady came up to me on the street and pointed at my suede jacket. 'You know a cow was murdered for that jacket,' she sneered. I replied in a psychotic tone, 'I didn't know there were any witnesses. Now I'll have to kill you too.'"
~ unknown
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August 26th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"Anytime four New Yorkers get into a cab together without arguing a bank robbery has just taken place."
~ unknown
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August 24th, 1999
Quote of the Day

Tonya913: if the sets a rockin' don't come a knockin'
~the one and only Tonya Facey.
From IM, May 19th, 1999, 11:36pm
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August 22nd, 1999
Today's update is in honour of the incredible, amazing, talented Sarah McLachlan who I had the pleasure of seeing yesterday at Lilith Fair (and I've had this song stuck in my head for a few days now).
Song of the Day
Ice Cream
music and lyrics by Sarah McLachlan

your love is better than ice cream.
better than anything else that i've tried
and your love is better than ice cream
everyone here knows how to fight
and it's a long way down
it's a long way down
it's a long way down to the place where we started from.
your love is better than chocolate
better than anything else that i've tried
and oh love is better than chocolate
everyone here knows how to cry
and it's a long way down
it's a long way down
it's a long way down to the place where we started from.
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August 18th, 1999
blah.
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August 14th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"Last night as I lay in bed looking at the stars, I thought to myself, Where the hell is the ceiling?"
~ unknown
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August 10th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"Patience is over-rated"
~ unkown
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August 8th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"God never closes one door without opening another...but standing in the hallway can be a bitch"
~ unknown
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August 6th, 1999
I could comment further on Lauren's forray into the illegal drug world, but I have no energy and it pisses me off too much. I am going to comment on this one thing, and I swear, it will be the last time:
like if i my 'friends' think what i am doing is so fucking dumb, why are people sitting there ridiculing instead of trying to convince me not to do drugs, or to atleast do it less. or something. like never once has tonya said to me, lauren, seriously, dont do it, its bad for you.
That is the biggest bunch of shit I have ever heard. Lauren, I know I have told you this is bad for you and you'll hurt yourself if you don't stop. I (we all) have told you how bad it is for you! How can you say that? If I haven't said it clearily enough for you, I'll repeat it now: Lauren, just stop doing it. It's not healthy for you. It's bad for you. You really will get hurt or hurt youself one day. Just stop.
Song of the Day
On My Own
from Les Miserables by Alain Boublil and Claude-Michel Schonberg and Herbert Kretzmer

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home, without a friend,
Without a face to say hello to.
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he's here
. Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head.
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

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August 5th, 1999 (again)
Quote of the Day

"I don't think we ever referred to our castmembers by their initials. well, except for the one we're all jealous of. CB. She gets invited to the greatest parties."
From Lorilee's journal, May 24th, 1999
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August 5th, 1999
First off, Happy Birthday Mom!
Second, I've updated the pictures page on here, so go take a look. There's a few really great ones.
New topic:
During the past few weeks, I've REALLY wanted to lash out in here and tell some people what I really think. I have been very well-behaved and restraint.
I read something tonight that completely floored me and pissed me off to no end. All that restraint is going out the window tonight.
Before you fly completely off the handle and tell me I'm tragetting a specific person, let me make myself clear: I DO NOT CARE. If this person wasn't so goddsam stupid in the first place, I wouldn't be targetting them. (note- I've added a disclaimer).
The following comes from Lauren's journal entry, August 3rd, 1999:
until tomorrow, i just want you to know that the more you make fun of me or pick on me for doing drugs, the more it encourages me. its attention, people.
Okay, hands up if you agree that that is the STUPIDEST comment you have heard in the past 6 months? (Lisa watches as numerous hands come up).
Lauren, I used to respect your intelligence and your decisions. I knew you were quite intelligent and respoinsible. My respect level is now in the negative numbers.
Tonya felt the word "looser" was too strong. Tonight, I'm calling it like it is. L-O-O-S-E-R.
I find it quite scary that Lauren is THAT insecure. You're doing pot (note: illegal substance) for attention? Attention from who? Your "friends?" I have news: if you feel you need attention from your friends, then dear, they aren't really friends. If friends are feeling lonely or needing attention, they call each other up and decide to go to a movie or for dinner or just to hang out. They don't do drugs.
That leads to something else- who the fuck are you trying to impress? soandsofromwork? Why do you need to impress them? So they will 'like' you better? Puh-lease. If they don't like you the way you are (staying inside the boundaries of the law and not fucking yourself up, yet still being a generally cool person to know and hang with) these people are simply not worth your time.
Now, you're concerned about this little drug habit and worried it's getting out of hand yet you don't want to stop. Okay, now that was just a FUCKING STUPID comment. If you are concerned, you stop. If you are afraid you can't stop, you get help. Real help. From a doctor or your parents. Wanting to and able to are two completely different things.
Now I don't care if you feel I'm being unfair by writing this. But I'm warning you - if you send me a dick-ass e-mail defending why you do drugs, expect it to be posted on here tomorrow.
Frankly, I don't care if you continue to do drugs. I honestly don't care if anyone does drugs. What I hate is when they try and convince me that what they are doing is okay. Or they rationalize what they are doing with dick-ass reasons like "I'm a teenager and I have to experiment and it's fun!" Yah, go tell your parents. I have so little respect for you Lauren. Close to none. I just hope your other real friends will realize how utterly stupid you are being. I hate stupidity. I hate people who conform just because they feel the need to "fit in" better.
Ug. I'm so pissed off now I'm just going to stop. Tonya, we still on for hunting down the dumbasses of the world? Lemme know!
On another note completely, I had an excellent day - cousins from Edmonton arrived, and I'm off work for the rest of the week! WOOHOO! This means I may not get a chance to update but I will try!
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July 30th, 1999
Happy Birthday to me!
Thanks again everyone for your e-cards, phone calls and posts!

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July 29th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"and EW about the manhandling
you get manhandled by Sas
and i get Karen Holness feeling me up!"
~ Tonya Facey, on IM, reminiscing:)

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July 25th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"Age will never change the sorrow felt when the ice cream falls off the cone"
~ annon.

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(later on July 24th... oy vey, I just re-read this entry... pardon the millions of spelling errors! I'm not fixing them now... maybe tomorrow. Once again, I appologize!)
July 24th, 1999
AHH! An update! Are you as shocked as I am?
My trip was fabulous:) Lots of fun and laughs and crack. I'll give you the highlights:
- the Broadway Previews channel in NYC... 24 hours a day, 7 days a week
- Amy's View with Dame Judi Dench and Samantha Bond on Saturday night. It was FABULOUS. You want to take acting class? Watch Dame Judi for two and a half hours. The play itself was great, and the whole cast was perfect.
- meeting people we knew in line for SRO's Sunday morning
- singing various musicals for the whole trip
- the 3hr treck around Greenich Village and Soho, lead by our "Fearless Leader" (aka my mom:))
- my sarong
- Forbidden Broadway - crack in a theatre:) SO funny. 75 minutes of pure entertainment and enjoyment. Go get the CD. You'll pee laughing. the take-off of THe Lion King is priceless.
- RUNNING for the lotto Sun. night (we didn't win)
- RENT Sunday night- Megs, YOU ROCK! I think Tonya and I talked the whole show... go Yaz as Mimi, she rocked.
- Barbie on stage :) (aka Carly Thomas)
- talking to Chad way too much
- Empire State Building and the South Street Seaport on Monday... yay for being tourists!
- the *true* New York cab ride on the way to the Seaport... TONYA!! YOU PICKED THE CAB! rotflmao
- "I'm Bernadette Peters, eternally cute!"
- Epidemic exhibt at the Museam of Natural History and walking in Central Park
- RUNNING LIKE NEVER BEFORE for the lotto on Monday night (didn't win)
- figuring out if Krysten was going to be on or not
- RENT Monday night- Krysten as Mimi... rocked like no one else:) MY MIMI! She was absolutely wonderful and added much-needed energy to that cast. I still don't like Jim or Lumpy. Or most of the cast for that matter... Carly went on as Maureen for the second act and she and Kenna (who really rocks) blew the roof off with a kick-ass "Take Me Or Leave Me"
- talking to Chad again, and getting some Krysten love
- McDonald's waaaaaay too often
- uneventful car ride to Boston that took longer than anyone thought it would
- the long but fun trolley tour of Boston on the first night
- the lovely dinner at the Italian restuarant and Anita having two glass of red wine... that's one glass too many! Exceptionally giddy:)
- visiting Trish, Maggie and Dom after Tuesday night's show
- "Hi! Hi! HI!!!!!!"
- Children's Museam in Boston. It's all about hands-on activities
- this incredible chocolate store that sold every kind of chocolate combination ever, including chocolate dipped oranges and bananas
- FINALLY figuring out all the words to "On My Own" from Les Miserables
- the very cool Quincy Market
- psycho Boston line and us getting there at 4:45am and not getting tickets for Thursday night
- Harvard Square with Press
- meeting Lynda and her being very cool
- my mom and Anita's interesting time on the Cape Cod beach :)
- getting to line at 8:45pm on Thursday night for the Friday night show
- fun in line with Lynda, Andy, Jeff, the alien, Glen, Christina, Sarah, Tonya, Press and everyone else I'm forgetting
- sing-a-long in line
- card games... many, many card games
- SMACK!! (rotflamo)
- "HEY BIG SPENDER!"
- GO GO GADGET GLEN! ROTFLMAO ROTFLMAO ROTFLMAO ROTFLMAO.
- amusing dinner Friday night
- RENT Friday night in Boston - so much better than New York (with the exception of a few individual performers) The cast was actually having fun up there and giving off energy! It was a wonderful thing to see:) Matt Caplan's Mark is fabulous, and Maggie and Trish amused me to no end.
- getting in line for Saturday night's show right after Friday night's show
- being very hot outside
- FINALLY meeting Jennpease and having with her in line :)
- the rocking continental breakfast at our hotel every morning
- RENT Saturday night- much fun again:) Maggie's crazy-ass mooing was enjoyable:) Not Trish was on for Trish... missed Smushy.
- Maggie being crazy Saturday night (oh wait, she's always like that!)
- Jelly Bellies at Duty-Free :)
- LONG car ride home, which did include more card games

And that was my trip, in a nutshell! :)
I think this is officially the longest journal entry in the history of my site. All you journal freaks should be very proud:)

Quote of the Day

"I'd like to take this opportunity just to tell the press to kiss my skinny white ass"
~ Calista Flockhart, on the media's concern that she has an eating disorder

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July 14th, 1999
Okay, shut up all of you - I cracked. I'm in a Cyber Cafe in downtown Boston.:)
New York was so much fun! I want to go back. Boston is so amazing... I want to stay!
Okay, time is of the essence and I have to check my e-mail... I'll talk to you all on Sunday.
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July 10th, 1999
So long, farewell...
See you all on Sunday! Have a fabulous week!
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July 8th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"New York really messes up your prespective, doesn't it? Even in the little things. Like the other night I was watching The Diary of Anne Frank. Now I used to have a normal reaction to that movie - I felt bad for that poor family trapped in their tiny little attic. Now I'm looking at it going, 'This is a great apartment. That skylight, that bookcaseyou go through - it's fabulous!'"
~ Frank Maya
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July 6th, 1999
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDSAY!
Off note: It's offical. I *HATE* my hair. You'll all see later... ug. I think I'm just going to wear it in a ponytail for the next 4 months until it grows out! blah blah blah.
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July 4th, 1999
Happy 4th of July to all you Americans!
Random note: I got my hair cut today. THERE'S NOTHING LEFT! IT'S ALL GONE! It's BARELY past my shoulders and it's layered in the front. I hate it, but everyone else says it looks great. I think they're lying
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July 3rd, 1999
Okay, I'd just like to point out that I HAVE tried to update my site the past three days, but stupid dick-ass Tripod wouldn't let me in! grrr.
Recent stuff lately has made me consider turning this journal into a real journal, but every time I think about it, I quickly banish the idea from my head.
I like to write, I really do. And shockingly enough, I write very well. But every time I sit down to write a journal entry, I come out sounding like I have the writing skills of a 4th grader and I never know what to write! If I actually wrote my true feelings in here, I'd piss waaaay too many people off, if they ever read it. I dunno. I think each day I'll add in a little paragraph along with the Quote of the Day and see if the paragraphs get longer and longer. :)
Quote of the Day

"Madonna and I are close friends. But we're very different. She sleeps with her trainer; I ignore mine."
~ Rosie O'Donnell
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June 30th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"Why do dead people get to ride in such nice cars? That can really piss you off if you're on the bus."
~ Marsha Warfield
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June 29th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"I don't like movies. I like plays. That way, I can stand up and tell them it stinks."
~ Linda Herskovic
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June 27th, 1999
GOODBYE DANI-SAM!!!!! I'll miss you! (and I swear I'll write you this time! :))
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June 25th, 1999
For the past 8 months, I've been working as a Marketing Intern at The Canadian Stage Company.
Today was my last day working there and I'm quite sad. I didn't think it would be this bad to leave, but I realized today as I walked up to my office that I love working at CSC and being there. :( It's going to be very strange not going there almost afternoon. :( Sad.
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June 24th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"I found something a lot more scary than cocaine. Nintendo- kiddy cocaine."
~ Robin Williams
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June 23rd, 1999
Quote of the Day

"If you add only a little to a little and do this often, soon that little will become great."
~ Hesiod, Works and Days
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June 22nd, 1999
Hi, my name is Lisa and I just failed gr. 12 French Immersion math today.
How was your day?
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June 21st, 1999
I had my OAC French Immersion grammar exam today. It was easy, I started laughing during the exam:)
Tomorrow, I have my gr. 12 French Immersion math exam. I am positive I'm going to fail. I need a 50% or higher on the exam to pass the COURSE. Can everybody please pray to the math gods for me tomorrow at 2:00pm?
Thanks.
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June 20th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"People have one thing in common: they are all different"
~ Robert Zend
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June 19th, 1999
Quote of the Day

"I think; therefore I am single."
~ Lizz Winstead
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June 17th, 1999
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY LAUREN!
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June 16th, 1999
Quote of the Day

John Kander: "At that time, I had yet to have a hit show. But every so often, Zero would throw his great beefy arm around my shoulder and say, "Kander, I want you to do me a favor. When you get up in the morning, I want you to look at yourself in the mirror and say, 'My name is John Kander, and I'm a talented man, and fuck 'em all."
~It Happened On Broadway: An Oral History of the Great White Way
by Myrna Katz Frommer and Harvey Frommer.