The Road we Travel on is never the one of least resistance

When something horrible happens in life they say it makes you stronger. I don’t think what happened at Columbine has made me any stronger. I just think it has made me more aware of life in general and that things no matter how pretty underneath are not always perfect. For a long time i thought i went to the perfect school led the perfect like and had the perfect boyfriend. Perfection isn’t achievable in real life. A year later I still cry and hurt and ask why. But i can't wish it away and think that everything will turn out fine. It is up to the individual to live their lives the best they can. Since April 20, 1999, many things have happened. Threats have been made, two people have taken their own lives, school has started, I got an A on an English report, I went to prom, my grandfather died, my mother had surgery, I have broken up with my boyfriend got back together with my boyfriend and so on. Life is how you lead it and how you look at it. You cant wish pain and circumstance away. But you can make yourself who you want to be by how you react to that. I cant change April 20 or wish it away. But i can learn from it. After all Rafiki said it best " The past can hurt, but the way i see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it, so what are you going to do?"
A thank you 

I would like to thank the people who have given me 
so much and asked for so little in return.
Sean ~ Who knows where tomorrow will lead us but
I will always love you.
Renee ~ It took losing Rachel for us to meet.  But I wouldnt change a thing about our friendship.  You are an amazing young woman and i love you.
Al ~ I don’t know what road we will take but keep 
a full tank of gas.
Dev ~ what can I say but thanks for the education and 
the introduction into life.
Mom ~ you didn’t make a mistake taking me with you
Dad ~ I understand now.
Brad ~ We have way too much in common now.
Sean M.E. (tootsie roll) ~ you need to catch up with 
your brother and little sister.
Violet and Michelle ~ thank you for the girlie nights and 
worrying about what shoes i was wearing.
Dean ~ don’t drink to much, i need to keep the best cousin i have.
Wendy ~ Where to I begin. You are precious and truly on of 
heavens angels.
Cat ~ thank you for not taking my excuses 
Katie ~ thank you for your sweet voice and even sweeter words.
Daniel R ~ you are my baby and i love you
Thorp ~ Stay out of trouble and don’t blow stuff up
Nick ~ Stay away from trouble.
Moose Rachel Grandpa and Grandma ~ thank you for being the angels
on my shoulders and the wind at my back
I love you all and thank you for your support love caring smiles hugs laughs and tears.