The last - wild - selfish act
Desperation’s glee
I put a bullet to my head
  (big bullet, bigger hole)
And shoved my mind away...
  what will happen to those I leave behind?
  what will they say? what do?
Push all that Away!
No ‘what ifs’... no thoughts of after...
just this 
  one - wild - selfish act
The final step from the cliff...
  will they wonder why?
Why?
  I don’t even know...
Tired.
I want to sleep
awake to a new start
(remember the mistakes of this life, ME, 
so we don’t have to face this 
one - last - wild - selfish act
      again.)

9/7/98
Maria Kay
Shadow