i am petty and small
mean spirited
selfish
vain
but i have nothing...
so how can i be these things?
but i am
i want to be a vampire so that i 
can rip out the throats of my tormentores
and devour their spirits
to viciously tear away their lives and
cast them into darkness
the drakness where i am
the pit of despair that even death can not same me from
shred them
spill their blood on the walls
write my pain in their sweet flesh
is this what i am?
or just what i will become?
petty
petty and small
thats all i am
but..
what if my dreams were reality?
and my nightmares truth?
then what would i be?

8-3-98

All who enter here... die with me.