Some of my poems
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These are reflections on how I feel at certain times. Take that into consideration when you read these.
[For Mfon] [Gone] [Reach] [Don't Cry] [Gotta Make It] [Ellen]
[Lost Souls] [Fall] [Alone] [I can't save you]
For Mfon
In life, people come and people go
I never thought so soon would you go down that road
I'm so tired and I can't sleep
I fell into the the river of pain, it's much to deep
I have so much to say, but I can't speak a word
I scream out loud and I can't be heard
I will always remember you smiling, never sad
Through all the good times, through all the bad
My eyes are red and burn from the tears
How could you live your life in only 16 years?
And I miss you. It hurts like an open wound
Why did you have to go Mfon, why did you have to go so soon?
I wrote this poem after a friend of mine killed herself. I had known her since I was in second grade and her death really tore me apart on the inside. And I miss her everyday. I'll see you when I get up there Mfon.
Gone
You were always there for me
You were there through all of my misery
You never turned around to leave
you stayed and helped me to grieve
You were there, you helped me part
with the terrible pain that swallowed up my heart
You were the light in my dark tunnel
You helped to steer me away from trouble
Even though it seemed to follow me around
That never stopped you, never got you down
You there to help me up when I'd fall
You were there through it all
You know that I just can't let your memory go
For my heart is filled with sorrow
But I'm gonna have to say good bye
I'll see you at life's next ride
But for now it's just "so long"
I still love you even though you're gone
The game of life is faster than the blink of an eye
The story of love is hello and good bye
Until we meet again
Farewell my friend
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Reach
I know how bad things are and how hard it can get
but we can get through it, go far, not quit.
I'm here. I love you and I won't let you fall down and in
the the terrible breaching void within.
Just gimme you hand honey... just reach... let me be your shelter from the rain
Baby I can take away your pain, if you trust me.
Come with me, take my hand, trust me, you'll see
I love you and that's the way it's always gonna be...
I wrote this for Ellen. She and I are like brother and sister. I just want her to know how much I care. When she's hurting, I'm gonna be there. Remember that Ellen. Me and you have to watch out for eachother. So hold ya head and smile!
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Don't Cry
Don't cry, Keep ya head up high
Don't cry, Don't want to see those tears in your eyes
Don't cry, Gotta see you smile
Don't cry, even if it's gonna take you a while
Don't cry, don't want to see you shed those tears
Don't cry, We've seen too many over the years
Don't cry, The rain will stop someday
Don't cry, along with it, so will the pain
Don't cry, someday, we'll see the deep blue sky
Don't cry, then there will be no more tears in your eyes
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Gotta make it
Life gets hard just try not to crack,
when it seems like the whole world is coming down on your back
Don't let this cruel world get you jaded and suspicous
Trust the people that care, don't be vicious
I watch mom twist the cap off the bottle
See her take a sip and swallow.
I keep thinkin, "I gotta be strong, gotta see tomorrow"
I sit back and stare at these walls in silence
Think about my life, full of this rage and violence
Try to paint a perfect vision
of this life I'm livin'
Can't stand all the pain she's givin'
Sometimes it feels like I just want to give up and drop
I hear her screamin' all night, wishin' she'd stop
But I can handle it, I'm not gonna cry
"Why should I care?"
It's like I'm holding on to lost love
it's no longer there
It died a long time ago when she picked up the bottle
She loves her booze, to drink she'd even beg and borrow
Watchin' her just drink, drown and get old too fast
Used to think this was a phase, always hoped it would pass
It was just dream, was stupid holding onto that lost hope
Can't avoid reality, I just keep seeing her choke
On her alcohol, her booze, how she sustains
She doesn't know what she's doing, doesn't know about the pain
the pain that she causes my heart
I just wish she would stop, wish she didn't even start...
I wrote this about my mom who is a dead end, stone cold drunk. I want to let everybody out there who has a mom that cares to NEVER take it for granted. You don't know how lucky you are.
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Ellen
Ellen, I love you my little baby sis
You know I gotta come out, be honest, and tell you this
I know it's hard, and life gets rough
Don't let it beat you down, hold ya head up
I've seen you smile and seen you sad
Keep hangin on, life isn't gonna be all bad
For all those dark days, bright days we'll see
I know you think it's not true, just trust me
You may not believe what I'm tellin' you now
You don't have to. I'll show you somehow
Don't believe me? I know its hard these days
Trust me, your worth it, this is just a bad phase
So come on and join me and we'll take this ride
We'll stay on till we get out of the clouds, and make it to the flipside
Ellen, I love you sis. I wrote this cause of the hard times you are going through. Just know that you aren't gonna do it alone. I'm holding your hand all the way. Love you Ellen, don't forget that.
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Lost Souls
Got people walking around: lost souls in time
Waiting for the rain to stop, looking for the sunshine
We all have hopes and dreams. For me they never came
People might finally understand that we all feel pain
Come look deep into my eyes and tell me what you see?
Can you see the all the burning pain and misery?
It seems no one can ever try to understand me
Why can't they see that everyone with me is family?
Don't know why to others it seems to be a mystery
I have seen lost souls come and go to the grave
How many more have to die till they can be saved?
How many have to fall through the cracks of circumstance?
Watch these little kids running round in a violent trance
They just self-destruct cause they have no self control
Just more kids dying cause they are lost souls
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Fall
Every night I fall from up high
Come crashing down from the sky
It isn't drugs or something like that
It just comes from one tiny simple fact
I'm worthless, tell me what's my life worth?
Nothing. I have to except when the truth hurts
They should have killed me as a baby
I'm stuck here instead, goin crazy
When night comes my ledge disapears
Was way up high, now I'm down here
On the hard cold floor and I'm all alone
Don't have any where to go, don't have a home
It's just one long, dark endless night
And I fall, instead of taking flight
I wrote this cause it's the way I feel. I don't feel like I'm worth a damn thing. I feel okay in the day time, but when night comes reality kicks me in the mouth and gives me a reality check. I don't do drugs yet I come down hard. Like I was high. It hurts.
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Alone
