love
it is a very complicated thing and yet very simple at the same time
it can feel great like you are walking on air and your heart is about to burst
but there are also times when it hurts like nothing else
i am fresh from a phone call that has left me feeling this way
sometimes i wish i could stop loving someone if it hurts too much
but i can't
i understand too and the understanding hurts
how is it possible for me to be on both sides like this
understanding why something had to happen and yet angry confused betrayed 
horrified and sad beyond belief
still loving the person when you ought to hate them
still talking to them and thinking about them
still caring what happens in their life no matter if they care what happens in yours
hoping and praying that something will happen
and it will turn out to be a good thing that you never stopped loving them
no promises though