most of all life's been a trying time most of all life's been a fight to survive most of all most of all most of all most of all trialed by circumstances most of all constant battles constant strain most of all most of all most of all life made me a loner I prefer my own way that's what it's been like that's what I've done most of all most of all most of all

carried

when I look at my life and at what my life's become I know it couldn't have been different the pain that I've been through the lonely days I've faced and known the desperation and the dark I've asked my God why He's abandoned my now I know He's been there all the time through the hardest parts He's carried me and I must forgive myself the mistakes I have done everything I said or didn't say every act I did and those I played every single turn and every trial some losses I've made still hurt they seem hard to accept I miss some people I'll never forget I've asked my God why He's abandoned me now I know He's been there all the time through the hardest parts He's carried me and I must forgive myself the mistakes I have done when I look at my life and at what my life's become I know it couldn't have been different so many dreams have been shattered but maybe illusions they were nothing else and I'm better off as it is I've asked my God why He's abandoned me now I know He's been there all the time through the hardest parts...I've asked my God why He's abandoned me now I know He's been there all the time through the hardest parts He's carried my and I must forgive myself the mistakes I have done

i'll do fine

don't worry about me mother I know how much you've cried I know you've hurt from the pain I've had I've caused you lots of trouble lots of trouble did I have but I'll do well I'll do fine/no reason to be hard on you you did the best you could no love can measure up with yours since intentions always are good and I've come to understand I'll do well I'll do fine/I'll always be your daughter you're my only mum no need to fight the way we fought there's really nothing you can do you gave me birth you gave me life and I'll do well I'll do fine/I'll be well I'll be fine

you suprise me

I thought you gave nothing but a damn then you call me up telling me how wonderful I am I thought you couldn't care less about me then you call to declare life is empty me not being there you surprise me baby I could never imagine there was this side to you you really surprise me baby go beyond my fantasies that's what you actually do I thought you'd be glad after I took off only grateful by the fact I took the step and left I thought you'd walk right on without sorrow nor regrets I was completely unaware of the impact I'd made you surprise me baby I really thought I knew all there was to know about you you really surprise me baby make me so unsure not that certain anymore you surprise me baby I really thought I knew all there was to know about you you really surprise me baby go beyond my fantasies that's what you actually do

take me some time

It's gonna take me some time to get me where I am it's gonna take me some time to get me where I am been running around running around I still do trying to get elsewhere trying to get out of this time and this place but it always keeps up with me got a hold and caught me see it's gonna take me some time and more time it's gonna take some time some more time to get me where I am panic is familiar I do that a lot it's hard to stay in place when it gets more than hot it's gonna take me some time to get me where I am it's gonna take me some time to get me where I am so tired of running running around but I still do I do want to settle down but haven't found a place to call home not within nor outside of me no place to calm down see it's gonna take some time and more time it's gonna take some time and more time it's gonna take some time and more time to get me where I am

hold me

hold me just hold me please don't ask me where I come from or why I cry these tears just hold me hold me please let me rest in the silence of your embrace give me a moment don't make me explain all I need all I ask for hold me just hold me please don't ask me where I come from or why I cry these tears just hold me hold me please let me rest in the silence of your embrace all I need all I ask for hold me hold me please let me rest in the silence of your embrace give me a moment don't make me explain all I need all I ask for hold me just hold me please don't ask me where I come from or why I cry these tears just hold me hold me please

once upon a time

once upon a time broke and broken cut every tie left all I ever knew once upon a time took off like a bird tried to fly though I didn't know how once upon a time now that was once once upon a time life closed in came to an end started over again once upon a time now that is long ago a lifetime later on the other shore once upon a time now that was once upon a time once upon a time now that was once upon a time

fine is the line

fine is the line between pleasure and pain fine is the line holding on letting go fine is the line between sense or nonsense fine is the line being alive or surviving sometimes I can't stand it sometimes I can I was a fool to love you I'm a fool not to anymore trying to forget what's done and what's said trying to forget there's a lot to regret a stupid thing to do such a stupid thing to do nothing will make this memory of you fade away fine is the line between pleasure and pain fine is the line holding on letting go I was a fool to love you I'm a fool not to anymore

didn't treat me right

didn't treat me right sugar not like a man should child didn't make it worth staying over made me leave you this way played by the rules not by your heart acted so cool I was a fool didn't know the game what a shame - what was I to do? played by the rules not by your heart acted so cool - wasn't I a fool? you declared your pride was honesty then you told me half-truths and lies you preferred living alone you said than bringing somebody home you didn't like didn't treat me right sugar not like a man should child didn't make it worth staying over made me leave you this way