unrealized

'open your eyes,' she said
'and turn that music down
i'm sitting here dying with you
and you don't even know i'm around'

she crawled under the covers and smiled
'don't you know i've been dreaming of you?'
she laid her head on the pillow and wept
'lately it's all you'll let me do'

i didn't want a romance
i thought love was a game
but then she crept under my skin
and everything suddenly changed

'open your arms,' she said
'and turn off the tv
i never wanted that much from you
only for you to hold me'

she laughed into the blanket and sighed
'i don't believe i'm saying these things'
she put on her shoes and whispered
'it's only myself i'm fooling
and you're not even listening'

i didn't want a romance
i wasn't looking for true love
i just wanted to play a little
but then it stopped being fun

'open your heart,' she said
'and put your guitar away
you never seem to want me here
yet you always ask me to stay'

she walked to the door and frowned
'i should have known from the start'
she walked out of my life saying
'please just stop fucking with my heart'

i never wanted a romance
i just wanted to play
i never thought i would miss her
until she went away

dakota

november 9th, 1999