Did I ever know you?
        You said you knew me,
        I thought I knew you, 
        But what a mistake I made!
        And when you said you cared,
        And when you said you knew how I felt,
        And when you said you loved me
        I believed you like the fool I was.
        And when you did wrong
        I found right in it;
        And when you made me feel bad
        I thought I deserved it;
        And when you threatened
        I found it just.
        And now when it comes to the
        of truth, you let your
        true colors shine, through all the
        filth and lies.
        Isnt it great I know what you are now?
        Thank God I know now and not to late....





        Guilt
         Guilt is the feeling I feel
         When I realize what I fool I was
         Why was I so blind?
         How could I let that happen?
         to a person who called me a friend
         And now I am guilty for your pain, 
         And for your grief
         Because I didnt realize it
         And now all I can do is stand in disbelief
         for all the pain and truoble
         I have caused a great friend.






           On top
         Hasent this happened to all of us?
         We think we are doing so great
         And then something happens
         We think nothing could go wrong
         except for THAT
         And guess what....
         THAT happens
         Just when we thought our troubles were over
         Just when you said:"Dont pinch me and wake me up from this dream"
         It always happens, sooner or later
         And our world comes crashing
         And when its not one thing its another
         But you learn to live with it
         saying maybe tomorow will be my day
         and you find a way to comfort yourself
         but you always keep thinking
         what will happen next?
         when will my day come?

Forced in a corner with no escape
trapped by the walls around me
And everything that surrounds me
seems to pressure me to make a desicion
My mind wonders in an unconcious state
where neither seems right, but forced to chose one
I slump down, tears of confusion role down my face
wishing to escape this competative cold world
where no one takes the time to care for each other
and everything turns into monotony
This is not what I want to do
This is not what I long and dream for
But very alone do I slump down the cold ground
wishing to escape this,
OUR world...... 

My childhood memories are my happiness
My friends bring me smiles and laughter
My family is my life and soul
But I am leaving you behind
Yet you hate me for that
You resent me for this
This is my worst fear come true
I fear my memories, friends, family
will hate me for doing this
I am not running away from you, I am not abandoning you
I am trying to live my own life
You will never understand just how much you mean to me
You guys dont know I cant live without you
You guys are my esence, you are my inspiration
I would not endure life knowing you arent there 
There would be no reason
Just remember I will always be with you
Remember our laughter, our smiles, our memories
Our moments of insaness and our seriuosness
Remember all we did together and all we talked
You will always be in my heart.