i tossed and i turned. never in my life had i felt this bad. i couldn't take it anymore. i felt like ripping of my covers like a bat out of hell and just runaway. runaway from everything that was stopping me. but i couldn't. my parents, my friends, my life...it was all too much to lose. plus, i couldn't even think of the hell i would have to go through if my parents found out. oh, well, it doesn't matter. i couldn't actually runaway. i wouldn't. except i don't know about meso, my best friend. we talked about it, but never took it seriously, so we'd never go through with it. we were both too chicken. *laughs* actually quite funny, i must say. too many funny things...

~~~*~~~

"Sweden! Wake up!" I rolled over on my side to see Meso staring down at me. "Mom, made breakfast so come on!"

"Okay, okay...I am coming!" i rolled out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I stared at myself and laughed at my dream. Too funny.

"Hey girls, how'd ya sleep?" Meso's mom asked in her southern drawl.

"Okay." I answered even though I tossed and turned all night due to my dream.

"Well, good. What are you girls doing today?" she asked.

"I don't know, mom, we haven't figured it out yet."

~~~*~~~

he walked through the door like mist in the rain forest. smooth and caressful. everything i needed.

"Taylor?" I asked.

"Yeah, Swede?" I loved it when he called me Swede.

"How'd you get here?"

"I flew. Zac and I wanted to see you and Meso, so we couldn't wait any longer."

"Oh..." I smiled and he bent and kissed me soft on the lips. i loved his soft kisses. tender. he moved down my neck and muffled into it.

"God, I missed you so much! Your smell, your touch..." Taylor took a deep breath and i felt it on my neck.

"I missed you too, Taylor."

~~~*~~~

"Zac, I am so glad you came!!!" Meso exclaimed hugging her boyfriend tightly.

"I am too...I missed you too much! Taylor and I decided we couldn't take it anymore so we had to come!"

Meso smiled and hugged him even tighter.

~~~*~~~

The next week rolled by and Meso and I decided to go with Taylor and Zac to Pittsburg on the count of them having a show there.

"Hey, Ike, missed ya, bud!" i said slapping him a high five.

"Missed ya too, Sweden."

"Found ya chick yet?" Meso asked smiling.

"Nah, been on a few dates, but no one that really makes me want them..."

"Ah..." we nodded our heads and left it at that.

~~~*~~~

Meso and I went in our room and went to bed. As i lie on the soft bed. I felt relieved. Relieved that i hadn't lost something dear to me. i knew i had it forever. my angel. i felt they were among me watching over me as i slept and through my dreams. my dream. still i never forgot it, and yet i still laugh. although i knew i only had one true angel that i knew would be with me for life.