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Why Gillian is staying put
I first interviewed the almost famous Gillian Anderson shortly after she had
completed the second season of The X Files. She was in London with her
soon-to-be-ex-husband and their eight-month daughter, Piper, and you almost
needed a flashlight to penetrate the gloom. My enduring image is of her
standing in the doorway of her hotel room saying goodbye, looking young (she
was 26), pale and very tiny. I asked how tall she actually was. "Five foot
three," she said and she looked not a fraction more, although as Agent Scully
she puts on three inches and five years. I'd asked if it would be the end of
the world if The X Files was canceled and she'd replied: "It would be a great
relief, actually." As I left, I wondered if she'd even make it to the end of
her five-year contract.
So the years, and The X Files seasons, pass. When today she opens the door of
her suite at the Four Seasons, Beverly Hills, Anderson looks even more
petite. The camera messes with certain bodies: a New York film critic has
just called Anderson a "big-boned redheaded actress". In the flesh, however,
she has a weightless, old-fashioned beauty. The director Terence Davies, in
fact, cast her as the lead in his new film of Edith Wharton's novel The House
of Mirth after her photograph reminded him of John Singer Sargent's portraits.
Dressed in a stripy lime blouse and cream slacks, she reaches the sofa, kicks
off her shoes and perches on it like a pixie. Despite having worked late last
night on The X Files, with the result that her voice is hoarse from screaming
and her hair slimy from what she has been screaming at ("slug goo", she
apologises, "but actually KY Jelly"), she is animated. Last time we met, her
humour was sardonic. Today it is still sharp, but no longer lethal.
An X Files-sized mystery enfolds her, however. If even four series ago she
was half looking for ways out, why at 32 has she just signed up for a ninth
season, by which time even her co-star David Duchovny will have
dematerialised? It is not as if she is good for nothing else. She is
outstanding in The House of Mirth. Not everyone likes the movie - it was
rejected by both the Cannes and Venice film festivals - but those who do are
true believers. Audiences at the Toronto Film Festival were left sobbing. I
hope she gets an Academy nomination for her portrayal of Lily Bart, a
vivacious society beauty who, husbandless at 29, finds her reputation in free
fall.
"Oh I don't know," she says. "Everything is just very strange right now. We
did not imagine people would be responding this way. To a degree you have to
protect yourself. There is so much potential for disappointment in this
business. And it is very difficult to watch myself. It is easy on the show. I
have gotten used to seeing my bloody mug up there doing the same old thing
and I can just relax. But seeing myself do other stuff is really difficult.
It was extra difficult in this film because it was the hardest I have ever
worked on and the most difficult role."
She grew to like Lily very much. "I love that she can have these desires to
be good and not quite get there, still say nasty things and treat somebody
not quite right. As she finds her way towards doing the right thing, she
makes mistake after mistake."
Lily says she resists the great temptations but the little ones pull her
down. "And that is exactly the truth. It's so unbelievably true."
Perhaps signing for the next season of The X Files is the little temptation
Gillian has succumbed to? "No, that is a big thing," she says solemnly. I
remind her how she once viewed the prospect of even another three years' X
Files. "I know," she sighs.
How tough did those years prove? "It has been really tough," she says. "It
has been f***ing exhausting. I don't think people know, and I am not saying
'poor us'. It is just that the show is basically two or three characters and
it is so f***ing hard. It is non-stop. Even if you say you work a 16-hour
day, there is an hour's drive to get there and an hour's drive to get back,
so it is 18 hours. Your body breaks down. You are having breakfast in the
evening and lunch at three in the morning. It is just absurd.
Now I think about it in retrospect. I got pregnant in the first season of a
show. How absurd is that? And then I got married. I had a baby and a divorce.
Only now am I going, 'Holy f***! What was I thinking of?'
"There were times, especially during the divorce, when I was just in tears
constantly. Constantly. And to make sure it didn't show up in front of the
camera, people were waiting around to redo your face because you were getting
all puffy. People were looking at you as if you were an emotional wreck and,
in a way, there was a period of time when I was."
She had also suffered post-natal depression. "And you know how it manifested
itself? While I was pregnant with Piper I started having panic attacks every
day and they lasted for a year and a half. I would not wish them on my worst
enemy. Your body shuts down. You start shaking uncontrollably. You feel like
you are going to vomit. All your muscles tense and your shoulders go up like
this. Your mind starts to hallucinate and go into the darkest, evilest places
you could possibly imagine."
It would have been easier if she and Duchovny had been friends. "We were both
thrown into a pretty intense situation and I guess at some point you make the
decision whether you are going to have that experience together or not."
And she chose not? "Oh, I don't know if I chose not but ... "Did Duchovny
choose not? "It never quite came to be that way," she says tactfully.
She does not, at least, blame the programme for the collapse of her marriage
to Clyde Klotz, who was one of its assistant art directors. Rather, she now
feels it was "about" having Piper. After the divorce, she had "a bond based
on friendship" (rather than a romance) with a British actor, Adrian Hughes,
who played an X Files alien. He was later unmasked by the press to be a
convicted sex attacker. "It was all very bizarre," is all she says about that.
Between 1997 and 1998 she went out with another actor from the show, Rod
Rowland. "We just had a blast, but he is also a very intense spiritual person
as well," she says. (This would have been a plus: she believes in spirit
guides, angels and ghosts, even wonders if her panic attacks are past life
experiences resurfacing.) She will not say if she is seeing anyone now. "But
I am very happy and I have learned to be happy in solitude."
I tell her what worried me most were the undraped photo-shoots she started
doing for British men's magazines such as FHM. She recalls them hazily as
part of a time when she had little clue what she was doing. "But there was
also a part of me that needed to show another side of myself. I had been
living in this dumpy land." Scully Land? "Scully Land. I'd become this
scared, working, new-parent, dark thing. It was as if I'd put a shroud over
me and my life just in order to survive.
The comparison I would make - although she resists it - is with her difficult
teenage years, when she went through a long rebellion as a punk. When she was
11, her family returned from nine years in Crouch End, London, to live in
Michigan, which she hated. Her father, who made commercials, and her computer
analyst mother had two more children. Gillian took this confluence hard (and
there may have been even more to her unhappiness than that). She went to her
first therapist at 14 and has not stopped. At drama college in Chicago, she
was promiscuous and drank heavily. From something she said last time, I
guessed she may have also suffered an eating disorder and I am even more
convinced of it today because she talks of people such as herself running
away from themselves, "doing this, doing that, whether it is: 'I have to get
a drink, have to eat, have not to eat, keep myself from eating'..."
But what about people who take refuge in endless seasons of cult TV series?
Earlier this year she was adamant she would do no more X Files. "Oh, I was so
f***ing fed up. I just didn't feel like I could go on any more. My daughter
was suffering. She was starting to act out. I couldn't imagine dragging her
through another year of having a mum who was unavailable."
So what changed - apart from Fox falling to its knees and begging? "Well,
first of all it came down to the fact that I was on contract for an eighth
season. David wasn't but I was. Then, talking about the eighth season to
Chris [Carter, the series creator], he started to say to me, 'I think this is
going to be OK. This will be good. We'll be able to work in David and also I
have a great idea for this new character.' He got me excited about the
possibility and, and - I've signed up for a ninth!"
Addictive personality or what? "Oh, we won't get into that. No, no, it is
different and I am having fun doing it. After everything, there is sunshine.
My daughter is a sane and beautiful child and the hours are a bit better. I
have done it long enough that I feel I know what I am doing. I no longer feel
I am in something way over my head."
The new season features Duchovny's character, Mulder, in only 11 out of the
22 episodes. For season nine, the male lead will be a no-nonsense FBI agent
played by Robert Patrick (the cyber-assassin in Terminator 2), leaving
Anderson the undisputed star. After years of fighting the pay disparity
between her and Duchovny, by agreeing to a ninth series she has negotiated a
salary hike that will earn her up to $300,000 an episode.
A critic concluded of Lily Bart that she was really "a nymphomaniac of
material comfort". I risk saying that, perhaps, that is what Anderson, the
once-committed off-Broadway actress, has become.
"You know what? Yes and no. I mean, there are areas where I do well with very
little. Even with all of the privilege I have now, my happiest moments can
still be in a cave somewhere or on an island." She owns up, nevertheless, to
buying art and two homes in Malibu and Vancouver. "But I am not a
materialistic person. If my house burned down, it would not be the end of the
world."
I recall her saying something similar about The X Files. But she can't be so
very money-crazed for she is discussing a stage appearance in London next
year and the names of those notorious high-rollers, the Royal Court, the
Almeida and the Donmar Warehouse come trip-pingly off her tongue.
She is even considering buying a home in London. "London is so good right
now!" And what about Glasgow - for she spent nine weeks there filming The
House of Mirth, where it doubled for turn-of-the-century Manhattan? She makes
a silly face. For a serious woman who can make heavy weather of life, she has
a very sunny side. I'd claim she uses both the tough times and her inner
irreverence in her captivating portrayal of tragic Lily Bart. Anderson's
soberingly scientific theory - which I'm not Mulder enough to discount - is
that it comes down to something called acting.
by Andrew Billen
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