Friend: sup?
Andreeena: rambler
Friend: WHOA...
Friend: for today?
Andreeena: i'm writing one :-)
Friend: but you just did yesterday...
Andreeena: i KNOW
Andreeena: can you believe it
Friend: you are overwhelming
So...sometimes I go awhile without updating. But I'll have you know that last March, I updated almost every day! Same with April. I actually did really well last year and do you know why that is? I worked in a computer lab with mega-fast computers and I could update in about 20 minutes. Now that I have my own computer, it's lovely and all but do you know what? It sucks. It's slow and it kicks me offline a lot so I get annoyed and put off updating for days, weeks...months? I don't think I've ever gone a whole month without updating but I probably got damn close.
I'll tell you what I am sick of. Money. Freaking money runs my life. I couldn't work because I had to go home. If I don't work, I don't get paid. Don't get paid, can't pay the bills. Can't pay the bills, phone gets disconnected. Phone gets disconnected, no more talking to Joci, no more going online. So as you can see, everything important in my life relates back to that disgusting concept of money. But yet, I somehow always seem to have enough money to keep up with the latest cds. Go figure.
It has been hard to tell my friends about Joci. I told Katie right away because, well Katie is a doll and I knew she wouldn't care at all. But some people I was hesitant about telling--Karen and Mary and the gang that I hung out with at BG because last year whenever we talked about homosexuality in general, it was always like...well for an example, on pride week last year, my roommate Linda kept ripping down the fliers. And in turn, everyone would laugh at her. No one knew that when nobody was paying attention, I would go back down the hallway and put the signs back up, holding back tears. Why was the one thing in my life that seemed so right so wrong? I didn't necessarily put the signs back up because I am like the poster girl for gay pride. I actually would never participate in a parade or anything like that, but I guess that this past year, I've gained some respect for people who have such a hard time gaining acceptance from their peers, especially about something they can't even control. So I got off the subject...
The night before I left for California, I told Mary and Karen about Joci. They couldn't have been happier for me and I love them for that. They didn't make me feel like I was wrong or weird--they were just glad I was happy. So I had told a lot of my friends by this point--Katie, Jen, Suever, Bridget, Mary, Karen...but still there were a lot I hadn't told. Some who I might never tell, like Linda or Krista. Forbes and Sarah Stillinger didn't know. This mostly due to the fact that I don't talk to them or see them very much, not because I didn't trust they'd be okay with it. Well Stillinger is a very...Christian girl so I was hesitant about telling her. So Forbes is online the other day from her house in Lexington and we're chatting it up and I decided to tell her. She says she already knows! I inquire how does she know? Well, Sarah Stillinger of course! Ack...so I think Suever opened her big mouth and told Stillinger who told Forbes. Well I am really not all that mad about it--they were going to find out eventually, I just would have liked to be the one to tell them. Especially now because I don't know who else knows! I can't yell at Suever though, isn't that horrible? She's too cute. I will, however, have a "talk" with her. Yes...a "talk."
I talked to Karen the other night...she wanted the URL to this page and I gave it to her, but I made her guess the password. By the end of the guessing session, we were both laughing so hard we were crying. I had been having second thoughts about my password--how people would react to it. But now I realize it probably creates more giggles than I had originally thought. So Karen if you're here--Hi! :-) I can give Karen the url because I don't believe I've ever said anything bad about her. I could not, however, give the url to Mary or Linda. That just would not go over well.
I need something deep to talk about. Anyone have any ideas? Ok, me neither. And since that's the case, I'll end this here.
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