EVERYDAY THOUGHTS #11 ------------------ April 13, 1998 ____ ___ __----__ _/\ _/^ __ ^\_ /~^_/ | )/^ ^-^ _/ _/^ _/^ ^\_ ^\ | ./ /~ /( _/\. _/^_/^--_ ^\_^\-__-~ _/( \ _/ ./ ./^_/| \_ ~\ \_^\_ /^ _( ~-_ _/ \./\ _/^_/ \_ ~\ \ ^\__^\../^_/^ )\ ~~~~ _\/ <__/ ~\__\| ^\.__./^ ~---____--~ ~\ Hey! Thanks to you guys for signing up at the new address! The people (not you guys) who have not signed up are receiving this digest through the old address. There is a slighy possiblity that this list might become completely autimated and I will let you guys know for sure on that one. Several people have expressed an interest in having both a loose mail and digest form. I will warn you guys before this happens but if you guys know you would prefer the digest form, you can change your settings at the OneList site. Thanks angels! Lara larajean@gmx.de ************************************************** In this issue: Guys .................................. Zaria2@aol.com EDA Poetry Collection ............ vansciver@vabch.com just a poem and some other stuff...................... ..............................christie-21@mailcity.com :-) .................................. larajean@gmx.de ************************************************** From: Zaria2 Subject: Guys Date: Sun, 12 Apr 1998 Hi everyone. My name's Jen, I'm 15.... from New Jersey. Ok, that sounded like a support group entry. All the poems that you guys have written are absolutely amazing. Hopefully one day I'll be able to pour my thoughts onto paper like that. Just like the last few people that have posted, I'm having a relationship problem as well... or more a lack of a relationship problem. I thought of telling you guys about this after someone posted how guys equal carnivores. No offense to you guys, girls can be heart breakers too. Whenever I feel like this guy (we'll call him Adam) has been extremely shitty I play Carnivore over and over. Here's the situation in a nut shell- I've liked Adam for awhile (like a few months). He knows that I like him, cause I told him. About a month ago he told my two friends that he liked me a lot. But nothing really happened because we really didn't know each other *that* well. Last Wednesday we were talking online and he asked what was up between us. He went through this whole thing how he didn't want me to feel like he was leading me on, and that I shouldn't feel held back because of him to see other people. This conversation completely crushed me. All this time I thought Adam liked me, who knows what was going through his head. I haven't really talked to him since Wednesday, only for a few minutes on Saturday but about nothing of importance. Well thats my relationship problem of the moment. Feel free to offer advice. = ) Love, *Jen* ************************************************** From: "The Agnostic Angel" Subject: EDA Poetry Collection Date: Sun, 12 Apr 1998 Hey, I enjoy reading as well as writing poems, of all sorts, and I have a new server with unlimited homepage webspace. I wanted to put up some of your poems, and I can already tell from looking at some of the poems posted, that I'd love to have other poems you have to put up there. Anyway, just send me your poetry that you want to be put up. Thanks! I'll post later as to the location etc. ~ the Agnostic Angel {note from Lara... pssst! guys don't forget to send me a poem to put up on the website as a cool little way to let people see what this list is about... thanks! oh and I think this idea (above) is grand!!} ************************************************** From: O BeYbEeE Date: Mon, 13 Apr 1998 Subject: a long poem... hi you guys,... this is such an old poem. A poem i wrote a while back. Its lengthy and very amateur, but i figured i'll start out that way and work into my more recent ones. I wrote this after i found out my boyfriend liked someone else (that carnivore!) its okay though,.. i'm way over it now. oh ya,.. whoever is in charge of this,.. i'm kinda confused bout this whole entire ONELIST deal. can you email meeh more info bout it? thanx bunches =) here goes my poem,.. currently untitled: There's so many words that want to be said, but don't know where to start, but please note that all my words come from deep within my heart. I'm so confused, I'm going wack, I'm not sure of what I feel. My heart is broken into many pieces, taking forever for it to heal. I've learned a lot from my mistakes, so I know what's best for me, and even though I am not blind, my heart still cannot see. I know that if I were with you, I'd just get hurt again, and maybe it is best for us to stay as just close friends. But if it's best, than why am I still hurting deep inside? Why does my broken heart still ache when you're not by my side? You wonder how I can smile, when inside be aching with pain. You wonder how my world outside is sun, but inside it's rain. Don't you see? It's just an act, a show that I put on. For how can I feel good inside, if my happiness is gone? Through my eyes the sky is grey, and seldom ever turns to blue, But when it does, it is because, I'm standing near to you. I know that now I'm not exactly the one, that you think of all the time, I know that you have another girl, that weighs constantly on your mind. What hurts is to see you hold her, and then remember the way we were, cause I realize you never held me, the way that you hold her. Sometimes you try to kiss her, because you desire to, but what bothers me is when we were together, I was the one to kiss you. I don't know, I'm so confused, I feel everything is falling apart. Should I go with what everyone's been saying from the very start? I've always been there for you, when you didn't know what to do, I would be there right by your side, constantly loving you. I gave you all my love, but all you gave to me was pain, But what hurts most is the fact that you, hadn't felt the same. Now sometimes I catch myself saying things that I don't really mean. Sometimes I find me hating myself, for hate is all I've seen. And after all those times you hurt me, I still want to be your friend, and truly we'll stay friends forever, always till the end. Only I wish it could be more, although I can't see how, I would never ruin the happiness, the happiness you have now. I know you have it good, there's not much I can say 'bout me, since you've gone, the sun has too, and dark is now all I see. I would love for us to be, together once again. And even more I'd love for things to be the way it was back then. But since it can't I guess I'll live to take it kind of slow. Then maybe it'll turn out good, I really never know. If you don't feel the same for me, just disregard my say, And we'll just go back to where we were, just like another day. But I guess, I'll just wait, you'll hear no more words from me, 'Cause I know you'll find your own way back if we were truly meant to be. So I'll end this now by saying, this is the last time I'll complain I'll no longer speak about it, no matter what the pain So next time you see me smiling, remember that's just my outer side I may seem to be really happy, but in reality, be dying inside..... Bebe Tal Placido ************************************************** From: "Christie Ambert" Subject: just a poem and some other stuff Date: Mon, 13 Apr 1998 Hey guys, Well I broke up with my boyfriend last monday and I was fine until today when my mother decided to give him a call this morning. She`s getting on my nerves anyway he sent me this online post card and I got a migrane(why do I let this things get to me???) anyway Im better know I wrote a little something Oh and I went to a job interview today I hope I get this job.... Here`s my so called poem it`s called Fastball By christie the flowerchild angel Between love and hate , who wins? I tried to be fair. i wanted to talk about nice things like love,music,poetry . Instead you wanted to arguew. Why is it got to be so complicated? Why can it be simple? I fell in love but our love burned out so fast. I still wanted to be friends but you wouldnt let me And now you send me postcards,saying, that you miss me you`re thinking of me. Well nice to meet ya` Mr. I kill the love of my life nice to meeet ya` mr. I ruined my life nice to meet ya` mr.I messed up nice to meet ya` Mr. burned out love. You wanted to play baseball, you wanted to play a fastball. All you got was a foul you struk out threee times,three fights Sorry you are outta here going going gone have a nice life!!!!!! P.S. So what do you guys thinkof this one?????? My birthday is april the 25th im going to be 21!!!!!!!! Later kids.... Christie The flowerchild Angel ************************************************** From: "Lara" Subject: :-) Date: Mon, 13 Apr 1998 Sorry guys that there has been so much negativity towards the male gender! I know *blush* that I have been guilty of this as well. Just did not want you guys to get fed up and huff off! Feel free to tell us how girls have been disrespectful of your feelings, etc. I know Tim told us about his problem (hugs to Tim). We love to hear you vent -- venting is a wonderful thing *smile* Lara http://members.tripod.com/~laruth ******************************************************* Everyday Thoughts -- http://surf.to/eda_thoughts to post -- send email to eda_thoughts@yahoo.com to unsubscribe, write eda_thoughts@yahoo.com with "remove" as the subject *******************************************************