EVERYDAY THOUGHTS #6 ------------------ April 4, 1998

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In this issue:

poems ......................... kristenluv@hotmail.com
a few short poems by me ....... dda004@beta.LaTech.edu
a weird poem titled: SELFISH  christie-21@mailcity.com
thank you, lara *PLEASE READ* . uranium_eagle@juno.com
"TOGETHER" ...................... wxt950@freenet.mb.ca
Poems and stuff ................... vonfam@rapfire.net
another weird poem .......... christie-21@mailcity.com
some smiles and comments ............. larajean@gmx.de

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From: "* Jewel *" <kristenluv@hotmail.com>
Subject: poems
Date: Sun, 29 Mar 1998

I'm Sorry
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I'm sorry
For my rotten hands have scorned you so
I promised you I wouldn't...
Little did I know
That my conscious mistake
Would soon let you go
I had all of your trust
In the palm of my hand
Then threw it away
And you could not understand
How if I loved you,
How could I do such a thing?
To turn my back on your trust,
To make your heart sting;
I'm sorry, so sorry
That's all there's left to say
I'm sorry, so sorry
Believe me, please stay
I miss you, I love you
Please come back to my heart
I'm sorry, so sorry
Please don't keep us apart...

Craig
-----

Now I see
It was never "me"
Who loved you
It was only my body
Which craved you
How many more were there?
Well you ever be done?
Did you enjoy using my pure heart
All just for fun?
Your such an assh*le
All you want from a girl is sex
Sometimes I want to f*cking kill you
I'm not even your ex
I'm just another mark on your bulletin board
That claims, "Hey, look guyz, again I've scored!"
Well f*ck you!
Don't you see?
All that you did was take advantage of me
You took advantage of my willingness
You took my heart for free
You're suck a f*cking pr*ck
To such an extensive degree!
And such a coward
To ignore my calls
The least you could've done was told me you never cared
But you just don't have the balls
Now there's nothing left to do
And nothing left to say
But, I hope what you did to me
All comes back to you one day...

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From: Damian Daigle <dda004@beta.LaTech.edu>
Subject: a few short poems by me...
Date: Mon, 30 Mar 1998


hello all you wonderful poets out there! i have a couple 
poems that i wrote today that i thought i would share with 
you. i would appreciate some feedback too...if you feel like 
wasting your time. well here they are....

<this is more of an abstract poem>      
an expoding implusion 
filled with tarment and despair
gripping the grips with oil and grease
steadily rising to an brand new low
screams feed the deafening silence
popular estimates of the life we live
wear your ware well to make it yours
flourescent beams shine like snakes
slithers around me like a python on an eating binge
cringing and laughing, crying with joy
escaping my mind to write this brief poem

................................

come walk with me
let me climb up into your thoughts
throw things around and reek havic 
on your fragile concept of the life around you
plung my fingers through those juicy ideals
rip them out and make it my lunch

the last poem is about how when i moved away to college i 
realized very suddenly that life wasn't nearly the way i 
perceived it to be. it felt like someone just reached in my 
head and ripped out all my perceptions of life and stomped 
it in the ground. hence the last line... well thanks for 
listening <or reading...haha>. well good luck to all, and try 
to read more into life...there's a hell of a lot between those 
fine lines! bye!!

--damian

p.s.-- this list rocks! haha sorry just felt like i needed to 
say that...haha...bye bye

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From: "Christie Ambert" <christie-21@mailcity.com>
Subject: a weird poem titled: SELFISH
Date: Mon, 30 Mar 1998


there`s nothing in particular,
about hate, rain and fighting.
i ask for love and you give me hate.
i ask for reasons why and all you do is fight,
today the sky is sad, 
it`s been raining for a while,
the sky is crying for me.

SELFISH
By: Christie The Flowerchild Angel

so give me love, 
take away all your hate.
give me joy,
take away my fears.
give me happiness,
take away my sorrow.
so give me understanding and unconditional love,
but take away all the put downs and all the insults
and all the hate.

give me a bluesunset and a yellow sky....
all i ask for is happiness

-----Christie-------
The Flowerchild Angel

p.s. Tell me what you guys think of this weird poem 

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From: uranium_eagle@juno.com (Issac J Brogdon)
Subject: thank you, lara ***PLEASE READ***
Date: Mon, 30 Mar 1998 15:55:28 -0500

attencion!  attencion!  (anyone know how to REALLY spell 
that) vous attencion sil vous plait.
vous attencion tidimonde!
merci.
bonjour et merci.

******i would just like to take this moment to briefly thank 
our beloved lara for bringing us all together once, united, 
forever.

alo, alo, alo tidimonde!  just sittin' around here listenin to 
a little Pachebel lighten up the lime light before i venture out 
into the world...gaining a few pounds before the next regional 
power lifting meet, you know, the norm guy stuff...

ok, i figure that i should introduce myself...hmmm...i'm a 14 
year old sophomore in highschool.  I'm one of those guys that 
likes to explore all ends of the spectrum...i'm here on this 
list...talking with a bunch of poets...not exactly normal in a 
lil town of testosterone-oriented patriarch males.  ah well, just
 branching out in the world.  well, i'm sure you all know the 
story...i've got a little too much homework, too many people to 
w/b to, and too many weights to lift, miles to run.

******oh yah, i figure that everyone is overloaded with all of 
this new list frenzy e-mail.  all of these damn introductions...
so little time.  eh, who cares about the people, what about he 
poetry and other literary items?  shouldn't someone do a web page 
er somethin?  i'd volunteer...in fact, i am, but if someone else 
wants too...oh well, just a thought.  any suggestions?******
_____
Le surréalisme, c'est moi.
Salvador Dali (1904-1989), Spanish painter
_____
james

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From: Carole Bellamy <wxt950@freenet.mb.ca>
Subject: "TOGETHER"
Date: Tue, 31 Mar 1998

Hello all thinkers in the world,

Only me again with another one of my poems!

TOGETHER
by Shannon Bellamy

The moon and stars were bright above
The waves gently lapped the beach
The cool night air was being warmed
By the newly built fire in our hearts
We lay on the damp, cold sand
Gazing intensly into each others' moonlit souls
The rest of the chaotic world was being shut out
All that mattered was that we were
Together.

Thanks for reading!:-)

Shannon the bleeding hearted angel
xoxxo

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From: vonfam@rapfire.net
Subject: Poems and stuff...
Date: Tue, 31 Mar 1998

Hey Everyone~

I just wanted to write real quick.  I've been sick, so 
forgive me if I start to not make sense anytime during 
this post(i've been really out of it).

Here's some poems i've written during the past few days.  
I've been having a really hard time lately with depression 
and all.  Because of some things in my life, I was really 
low for a while, and though that part of my life is over for 
the most part, I can't seem to get a hold of my life again.  
I try not to let it get me though.  I just hate myself so 
much right now, and I am so sick of the way I am.  And in my 
mind, I feel like everyone else must be sick of me too.  So, 
I have distanced myself from alot of my friends in effort to 
"give them a break."  Oh, I'm sorry i'm going on...but you can 
just scroll down if i'm boring you.  I think I just need to 
talk when I can...

Anyway, here are a few poems....

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A New Beginning

I strip away my dead self,
and come forth anew
A new beginning, a fresh start
a chance to mend
this broken heart

But will I burn in this form?
Or will I triumph
over my darkness?
My first thought haunts of failure,
then a promise of hope

If I do fall,
down into darkness
How will I cope?
Can I handle being so low again?
I don't know,
I'm scared to find out

This one step, one action, one choice
Could make, or break me,
Forever.

Is this really a new beginning?
Or is it simply my final demise...

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It's Over

A glimmer of hope I do create,
 and I see that light in your eyes
But I mearly stomp it out
 I made a mistake
 It won't happen again
   I know you wish it would
 You turn away
I cause you pain, I know
   Would you care me to end it here?
Go ahead,
Cast the first dagger
    There's a long line
Better get moving.
   You stare,
Uncomprehending?
Unbelieving?
   You open your mouth,
 As if to speak,
   Then stop,
You turn away.

I don't want to hurt you,
   But I do not want happiness in
 Your eyes,
  Because of me.

I am no good for you
   Can't you see that?
Nothing but pain and anguish here
Move on, please
Before we destroy each other.

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Depression

It's a silent predator,
   most don't feel it strike.
They just think it's a bad day,
   or month or two.
Before you know it,
  you're too far gone
And you're lost and afraid
   screaming for help,
But it seems nobody hears;
Silence.
You sit in the dark,
   for hours on end
Not doing anything,
   but sitting there,
and wishing yourself dead.
It's tempting you admit
It seems to be your only means
    of escape
You can't go on anymore
   it just hurts too badly.
You know there are those that care,
   but you don't want to be
 a burden
So you keep it bottled up,
   till it pushes you over the edge

You end it all.
   No more tears,
   no more pain,
   just...darkness.
In your last breath, you wonder,
   was it worth it?
But's it's too late,
   you're gone, forever.

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If any of you out there would like to see some of my other 
poems, I have some on my page 
http://www.angelfire.com/ok/naomisplace/poetry.html

Well, sorry this got so long.  Till next time..

Always,
Naomi
~the angel that crys...sometimes...~

please feel free to mail me at ~ naomisplace@angelfire.com

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From: "Christie Ambert" <christie-21@mailcity.com>
Subject: another weird poem
Date: Wed, 01 Apr 1998


Vengance
by Christie-----The Flowerchild Angel
 break my trust and i will give you 
a lifetime of regret.
give me love and i will give you 
forever and a day of joy.
give me hate and my voice will haunt you 
forever.
break my heart and i would take over
your concience.
break my trust and
ill make your death wish come true.
give me unconditional love and i will be yours for eternity.

Christie---------The Flowerchild Angel
P.S. let me know what you eda`s think of my writing...plz be honest
email me.

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Subject: MESSAGE 1000!
From: uranium_eagle@juno.com (Issac J Brogdon)
Date: Wed, 1 Apr 1998

bonjour mes amis.  <THAT IS CONJUGATED CORRECTLY, DEB)

i would like to take this moment, right now, to say that 
I LOVE YOU ALL i've been with you now for 1000 (sent) e-mail 
messages... 1000 messages against my parents will and w/o their 
knowledge and i just wanted to say thank you for all of the 
fun moments, jokes, and loving experiences.

thank you for all the fun times, my friends.

_____
(Why do I run?)  Because if I can run a 4:01 mile, I can damn well run
3:59.
_____
james-1998

Friends

To the query, "What is a friend?" his reply was "A single soul 
dwelling in two bodies."
Aristotle (384-322 B.C.), Greek philosopher. Quoted in: Diogenes
Laertius, Lives of Eminent Philosophers, "Aristotle," bk. 5, sct. 20.

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From: "Lara" <larajean@gmx.de>
Subject: some smiles and comments
Date: Sat, 4 Apr 1998

Hello everyone!

Christine I really liked your poem SELFISH and I also liked 
your poems Naomi. You guys are just so good! :) I just wanted 
to send Naomi some uplifting thoughts that things get better. 
Remember we are always here to listen!

On a slighly different note, I am so excited that we signed 
the lease for my apartment next fall! It is so awesome! YAY! 
It is two stories and I cannot wait! Well better run! :)

Lara
http://members.tripod.com/~laruth
NEWLY REMODELED HOMEPAGE! :)

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             S P E C I A L   N O T I C E ! ! ! 

I am still in the process of adding a section of poetry 
of list members to the list's webpage. Just a reminder 
as to how it works... email me your favorite poem to 
lruth@usa.net - please do not mail it to the list addy. 
Let me know if you have a homepage and I will link to 
that from your poem (if not I will link to your email). 
Thanks! The starts of this should be up sometime today!

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