when my eyes were blackwhen my eyes were black
i can't remember--
could you look at me?
could you look at me?

did it
did it bother you
i would shove a sheet in my throat
die rather than fuck you
choke rather than feel you on me
like a spider
crawling
cumming
did it bother you?
is that why you turned my eyes black?

did it bother you that you had to cuff me to a pole--
that you had to edge your knife
across my breast--
that i had to bleed
before i would suck your dick?
and your freind's?
and his friend's?
and the guy in the corner with all the beer
all the
all the beer--
did it bother you?

i crept out of bed at night
when i couldn't sleep
and i looked at you--
me who had turned into you--
or i'd call you on the phone
just to make sure you were
still
breathing

do you believe me now?

when i had black eyes
too
too swollen to cry
i wonder if you felt ashamed--
could you
could you look at me?
i can't remember--
could you look at me?
could you look at me?

did it
did it bother you
i would shove a sheet in my throat
die rather than fuck you
choke rather than feel you on me
like a spider
crawling
cumming
did it bother you?
is that why you turned my eyes black?

did it bother you that you had to cuff me to a pole--
that you had to edge your knife
across my breast--
that i had to bleed
before i would suck your dick?
and your freind's?
and his friend's?
and the guy in the corner with all the beer
all the
all the beer--
did it bother you?

i crept out of bed at night
when i couldn't sleep
and i looked at you--
me who had turned into you--
or i'd call you on the phone
just to make sure you were
still
breathing

do you believe me now? when i had black eyes
too
too swollen to cry
i wonder if you felt ashamed--
could you
could you look at me?