Yep, you guessed it. Yet another 'Deconstructing'.

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Deconstructing Mulder: Iris
by 
Tamani R. Green

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Goo Goo Dolls

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest thing to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
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    Mulder sat in his apartment thinking about *her*. Scully. That red
haired woman who had bewitched him so. He closed his eyes and he could
picture her face down to the last detail. No doubt about it. It was
*something* he didn't want to name at this particular point in time.
The fact was that it scared him immensely.
    He dwelled upon what could be termed their relationship. If one
could call it that. The truth of the matter was that he wondered if
the squabbling interspersed with occasional bouts of saving each 
other's asses and unresolved sexual tension could be termed a
'relationship'. He rather suspected it couldn't.
    But what they had was undefinable. It went beyond friendship. Hell,
it went beyond what most couples had. The affection was there. 
Undeniably. But it was tempered by fear and something intangible. And
he knew that she felt it, too.
    He would, and has, gone to the ends of the earth for her. She would
do the same for him. She had pulled him back from the brink so many
times that he lost count. And he was grateful to her for it. And now
it was time for something else.
    He knew that he had hurt her feelings that night he defended that
woman to her. And she questioned his loyalty to her. One of the few, 
if not the only time she had done so. And still she trusted him with
evidence that could blow this thing wide open.
    That took guts. And Dana Katherine Scully had nothing if not balls
of pure steel. It was one of the things he admired her for. Her
courage, her heart, her sweetness, the quiet inner strength. The way
she'd defend him to her last drop of blood. And he had the nerve to
question her loyalty to him when she'd proven it time and again.
    All he wanted was to be able to tell her. To let her know which
side his bread was buttered on. He would give it all up in a heartbeat
if it meant saving her life one more time.
    And that's what mattered.