Chapter 35

A few days later,Rebecca stood looking at herself in the full length mirror.

"God i am so fat,"she mumbled. She turned sideways. Really..she wasn't fat,only to her,it seemed that way. Just then,the phone rang.

"Hello?"

"Hey Baby."

"Hi Zac."

"You wanna go to the rollerblading park again?"

"Zac..i busted my ass uncountable times!"

"It's ok though. Please?"

"I really don't feel like it." There was a long moment of silence.

"Zac,am i fat?"

"What?! Are you kidding? Rebecca..you are almost too thin!"

"Really? Cuz i don't think so."

"Trust me Babe..you are THIN!"

"Oh alright. Whatever."

"Hey..you wanna go eat at McDonalds?"

"Uhm.."she hesitated a minute,"No..not really. Let's do something else."

"Oook...how about...hell,i don't know!"

"Well don't get all mad about it!"

"I'm not,"he said laughing,"Why don't you just some over here and we'll figure out something."

"K. Be there in a second Honey."

"Alrighty..bye." They hung up and she went to her closet to find something besides her pajamas. As she put on her short shorts,she stared at her thighs and shook her head. As soon as she walked in the Hanosn house,Zac grabbed her and started kissing her.

"Ok! What was all that for?"

"I don't know!" He looked at her happily.

"Well give me some more." They continued to plant kisses on eachother until Mackie came up and tugged on Zac's sleeve.

"Zaccy..will you take me to the park?" Zac looked at Rebecca.

"Sure,we'll take you Mackie,"Rebecca smiled. Zac went to tell his mom as Rebecca and Mackenzie waited outside.

"You two ready?"Zac asked,scooping up Mackenzie.

"Yep! Let's go!" Mackenzie rode on Zac's back,and Rebecca and Zac held hands.

"We look like a family,"Zac laughed.

"Yeah..we do." Their eyes caught for a moment,as they penetrated on the thought.

"One day,"Zac whispered. At the sight of the swings,Mackie jumped down and ran to them.

"Push me!"he ordered. Zac got behind him and Rebecca sat in the swing next to Mackie. Zac pushed him,then came up behind Rebecca.

"You want me to push you too?"

"I don't care..i don't really feel like swinging."

"What's wrong Sweetie?"

"Nothing."

"Don't lie to me..i know when somethin's wrong...and right now..something is wrong." Rebecca looked up into Zac's brown eyes and gave in.

"Zac..it's alot of stuff. I mean,first of all Dad is still about ready to kill you. And i still can't beleive that my mom was pregnant before she had me. Then there's Aim and Ike..that's totaly unbelievable..i mean..think about it..we're all growing up. Then..there's me.."

"What about you?" He put one hand on her face.

"I'm so fat." He rolled his eyes and sighed at her blunt statement.

"Rebecca.."he started,and sat down to put his head in her lap,"You are sooo beautiful. And you're thin..you really are..maybe not like model-look-anerexic-thin..but you're thin." She sighed.

"Well it's not just that."

"I know. Listen to me..the thing about your dad..i don't care. He can beat the living shit out of me,but i'm not leaving you. I'm not,Rebecca. About your mom being pregnant before..well..i don't know what to say. And about all of us growing up..Rebecca..we are growing up,but we're growing up together." She looked down at him...how does he do that? how does he always make all of these problems just disappear? how?..was all she was thinking.

"I love you Zac."

"I love you Rebecca."

"ZAC!"Mackie outburst.

"What Mackie?"

"I've been yelling all day but you were too busy making out with Rebecca!"

"We weren't making out. Sorry. What's wrong?"

"Push me higher!" As Zac pushed Mackenzie,and made him laugh,Rebecca watched in awe. It was so perfect..Zac with a child..he was so happy. After an hour,they left for ice cream.

"What do you want Rebecca?"Zac asked.

"Uhm..i think i'll pass."

"You sure Baby?"

"Yeah. I'm not very hungry." Zac and Mackenzie got their ice cream and all 3 headed home.

"Mackie..why don't you run on in and tell Mom that we're back. I'll be right there."

"Ok!"

"Rebecca..look..don't do this,"Zac pleaded,holding her hands.

"Do what Zac?"

"Baby..i know that you're concerned with how you look and stuff. But you are beautiful..and you thin! Don't hurt yourself...don't starve yourself. Please Rebecca?" His words stung her. Tears formed in her eyes as she saw the pleading look in his eyes.

"Zac.."

"Listen..if you don't do this for yourself..do it for me. Ok? I know what you're thinking..but you can't starve yourself Babe..especialy when you're already thin."

"I'm sorry." She started to cry,and laid her head on his shoulder,and he pulled her close.

"Sshh..it's ok."

"I don't know what happened..i think it's all this stress and stuff from everything."

"I know..it's ok. Listen..promise me Rebecca that you will eat right..promise me."

"I promise Zac."

"Thank you. If you really wanna lose weight..which i don't see the need..excersize..but don't starve."

"Thank you so much. I love you..i love you."

"I love you too. Now i have to go help with dinner. You wanna stay?"

"No..my dad will already be pissed."

"Oh..if you need anything..call me."

"I will." She kissed him,and walked across the street.

"Guess what?!"Taylor yelled when Zac walked in.

"We're going to Mars!"

"Oh funny Zac..really funny."

"Why thank you!"

"I was lying..anyways..guess what?!"

"What Taylor?"

"We get our own rooms!"

"You're kidding!"

"NO!" The two did a little dance around the living room while their dad watched in amusement.

"Zac..get the attic..i know you've been asking for a while."

"Thank you SO much!" He gave his dad a hug,then the 3 of them danced around the living room.

"Walker Hanson!"Diana laughed.

"Care to dance?"he asked.

"Get in here you 3..supper is ready."

**********************************At Rebecca's**************************

"Rebecca,i'm sorry for the way your dad has been,"her mother apologized as they sat on Rebecca's bed.

"Mom..i don't understand. He always loved Zac..he always told me that he trusted Zac with me.." Her father stood outside of the door listening.

"I know Sweetie..but..he's your dad. And he doesn't want anything to happen to you."

"Mom! Nothing is happening to me..except i'm growing up!"

"I know..but he can't handle it."

"Well he needs to grow up! Look Mom..i love Zac,and he can't take that away! But i hate it..the most important guys in my life are fighting."

"Rebecca..your father is afraid that maybe Zac is taking his place. He's afraid that Zac might become the guy that you run to when something is wrong..instead of him."

"Mom..Zac is the guy that i run too. I'm sorry..but Dad has to accept it. I love him..i always will,and he'll always have a very special place in my heart...but Zac is..i don't know what he is to me..."

"I know what you mean..i know exaclty." Rebecca laid her head on her mom's shoulder and started to cry,but wiped away her tears. The door opened..and her dad walked in.

"Rebecca..i..i..i'm sorry." He walked to his daughter and took her into his arms.

"Dad i love you..i always will. But i love Zac too."

"I know,and i'm sorry. I'm just scared of losing you."

"You aren't exactly losing me..it's just that.."

"You would rather be with him?"

"Usualy...yeah. But that doesn't take away from my love for you Dad..it doesn't. But Zac is.."

"You always get lost there?"

"Yeah,"she said laughing.

"Well..i'll tell you what he is. Rebecca he is your best friend,and he's the absolute best boyfriend you could ever have in all of this world. Now i might not approve of everything that you two do together..but i love you both. And i do still trust him with you. He would do anything to make you happy and protect you." She started crying again as her dad looked into her eyes.

"I love you Daddy." Zac smiled as he watched Rebecca and her dad hugging from the doorway.

"Well..are we all getting along now?"he asked cheerfully.

"C'mere,"her dad said,and grabbed Zac into a hug.