Chapter 67
Sonny’s penthouse

Jason’s conversation with Kallie opened his mind to a lot of things. Would it be possible for Elizabeth and him to be together away from Port Charles? The thought never crossed his mind… the possibility never came into play until Kallie gave it to him. Wanting Elizabeth from afar was something he reluctantly became accustomed to and the hope of something else slowly grew. Debating with himself it took a week before he called Port Charles. Maybe… maybe through Sonny he would be able to get what he so desperately wanted. A sign… a sign that they could be…

Sonny- Hello… [no response] Hello?
Jason- Sonny…
Sonny- Jason…
Jason- Yes…
Sonny- What’s up? Is something wrong?
Jason- No… why do you ask?
Sonny- Well we haven’t spoken in months…
Jason- There’s a reason behind that…
Sonny- [quietly] I know…
Jason- If this is not a good time…
Sonny- You don’t have to worry about Carly…
Jason- Are you sure? I can call back at another time…
Sonny- Carly’s not here…
Jason- [hearing the unspoken words] What happened?
Sonny- Long story… do you need something?
Jason- Yes and no…
Sonny- What do you need?
Jason- [taking a deep breath] I need to know…
Sonny- About Elizabeth…
Jason- [quietly] Yes.
Sonny- There’s not much to tell. I mean…
Jason- Is she happy?
Sonny- I can’t tell you. She’s…
Jason- I know you don’t have much contact with her because of Carly but I had hoped you would watch over her for me.
Sonny- I would be glad to but…
Jason- I know it’s wrong but if you see her at Kelly’s could you give her…
Sonny- I won’t see her…
Jason- Are things between her and Carly that bad? I don’t mean to put you in the middle of that but…
Sonny- Jason listen… Carly does not fit into the equation…
Jason- There is not animosity between you and Elizabeth because I left us there?
Sonny- No.
Jason- Then what is it? You’re not telling me something…
Sonny- I’m trying… you need to listen to everything I say first.
Jason- I understand…
Sonny- When you left even without asking I took it upon myself to look out for Elizabeth just in case…
Jason- Thank you…
Sonny- [continuing] And everything seemed fine but…
Jason- But what… did something happen to Elizabeth? I can be there tomorrow if need be…
Sonny- It would be a waste of time…
Jason- What are you saying? I mean she’s not…
Sonny- [softly] She’s gone…
Jason- [his fear rising] Gone… what do you mean gone. What in the hell happened to her? Did Sorel…
Sonny- [shaking his head] No…no nothing like that. What I meant is that she left Port Charles.
Jason- Left?
Sonny- Yes she’s been gone for some time now.
Jason- Do you have any idea where she went?
Sonny- No…
Jason- How do you know she left I mean she could… she could have just stopped working at Kelly’s…
Sonny- She quit working at Kelly’s a while back.
Jason- And…
Sonny- And I ran into a friend of hers…Gia it think…and she confirmed that she left town.
Jason- Have you tried to find her? I mean…just to make sure she’s ok… or if she needs…
Sonny- [calmly] Jason…
Jason- You never know… she might need something… She might need…
Sonny- Jason… I have not put anyone on her buy if you want me to find her I will.
Jason- I…
Sonny- And I will tell her whatever you want me to tell her.
Jason- If you do all of this… if you do this how will Carly react to it?
Sonny- I told you Carly is gone. She has nothing to do with the decisions I make.
Jason- What do you mean gone? What’s going on with you two?
Sonny- [angrily] She’s gone…
Jason- What happened?
Sonny- She crossed the line.
Jason- I don’t understand… it wasn’t the first time…
Sonny- I know but after destroying Elizabeth’s studio and then having no remorse about it…
Jason- [confused] Elizabeth’s studio… what are you talking about?
Sonny- Apparently in a fit of whatever you want to call it Carly did a number to Elizabeth’s studio. She destroyed everything. Ripped up all the drawings, threw paint around the room…everything.
Jason- She did this after she found out I was gone right?
Sonny- No before… I guess that was her way of getting to Elizabeth… I don’t know…
Jason- How do you know for sure she did it? I mean it could’ve been Lucky or…
Sonny- I walked up while she was taunting Elizabeth with the information.
Jason- Damn it!
Sonny- What is it?
Jason- That’s why I left. Lucky keep threatening to destroy everything… to ruin everything Elizabeth cared about and I just assumed…
Sonny- Why didn’t you check it out before you left?
Jason- I saw the look on her face. She was devastated…she thought she was the reason behind her studio being destroyed and I couldn’t stay there thinking I was the cause.
Sonny- But you weren’t…
Jason- Not that time but…
Sonny- You can’t know for sure that Lucky would have done something to her.
Jason- But he could have...
Sonny- Why didn’t you just handle the situation before it got that far?
Jason- I wanted to but… I couldn’t put that on Elizabeth… she would have blamed herself and I didn’t want that.
Sonny- So you left…
Jason- [quietly] Yeah…
Sonny- She asked about you.
Jason- Who?
Sonny- Elizabeth…
Jason- When? I thought you didn’t know where she was.
Sonny- I don’t…
Jason- Then how? When?
Sonny- I went to Kelly’s one day…the day I found out about Carly… just to check on her and see how she was doing and…
Jason- And?
Sonny- I realize now she was saying goodbye to me then and she asked if I had heard from you.
Jason- What did you tell her?
Sonny- The truth.
Jason- How did she seem? I mean did she look happy or…
Sonny- She was missing you.
Jason- [quietly] And I miss her.
Sonny- That’s what I told her.
Jason- Thanks Sonny…
Sonny- I wish I could have done more.
Jason- You did more than you know.
Sonny- If you want me to find her…
Jason- No… but if I change my mind…
Sonny- Just call.
Jason- I will…

Carly destroyed Elizabeth’s studio and without thinking he destroyed what he and Elizabeth had. If only he had of stayed and fought for what they had. If only…

Chapter 68
The Deli

Elizabeth was gone. And again because of the decisions he made she may have slipped from his life. Since the days he discovered she had left Port Charles he life became consumed with “if onlys”. If only he had made different decisions… if only he had stayed by her side regardless to what Lucky or Carly or anyone else had to say. If only she was in his arms right now… if only he could show her how much he loved her. If only… Unable to stand to confines of his room and his bike no longer having it’s effect he returned to The Deli knowing what he had to do yet still hoping he had the strength to do it.

Kallie- [surprised to see Jason as he walked through the door] What are you doing here?
Jason- [softly smiling] Ordering lunch. That still is allowed isn’t it?
Kallie- [nodding] Yeah… it’s just… I haven’t seen you in a while and I thought. I thought you took my advice and called Elizabeth.
Jason- [shaking his head] No… no I didn’t call her.
Kallie- Why not?
Jason- [shrugging his shoulders] I don’t know…
Kallie- Jason… you should… you have to call her.
Jason- You were right… it’s too late…
Kallie- What do you mean?
Jason- She’s gone…
Kallie- Gone?
Jason- She…she left. She’s no longer in Port Charles.

Jason slowly stood and walked to a corner table in The Deli. Despite the best of Kallie’s intentions he wanted to be alone in his thoughts. He wanted to be alone with his thoughts of Elizabeth.

Kallie- [coming to sit at Jason’s table] Are you ok?
Jason- I don’t have a choice but to be ok.
Kallie- What do you mean?
Jason- [sighing] I mean Elizabeth is gone… I don’t know where she is… and there’s nothing I can do about it.
Kallie- If you wanted to could you find her?
Jason- [nodding as he quietly spoke] Yeah…
Kallie- Then what are you waiting on?
Jason- What if she… I mean what if she doesn’t want me to look for her?
Kallie- Jason… you told me you loved her. You still do?
Jason- [without hesitation] Yes.
Kallie- Then find her. Go to her…
Jason- But…
Kallie- [smiling] You said it yourself… no buts… this is something you have to do.
Jason- [softly smiling] No buts huh?
Kallie- [softly touching his hand] You love her go to her…
Jason- I want…
Kallie- What do you miss most about her?
Jason- Everything.
Kallie- Like?
Jason- [smiling despite himself] Her smile of course…
Kallie- Of course…
Jason- I miss watching her sleep. I remember the first time I watched her. She was lying in my arms and I looked down on her and it was like an angel was in my arms. Her face… [pausing as he thought of how Elizabeth looked lying in his arms] her face was so peaceful. It… she is/was so beautiful… I watched her for hours just watching as her chest rose and fell knowing that he heart beat for me as mine did for her.
Kallie- [lightly squeezing his hand] Jason find her…no matter how long it takes find her and tell her what you just told me.
Jason- I’m not sure if she would want to hear it…
Kallie- [nodding as she wiped at a stray tear] She would.
Jason- I might not see you again…
Kallie- I know… when you find her tell her… when you find her hold on to the love you have. Don’t let anyone come between it.
Jason- Thank you.
Kallie- Thank you.
Jason- For what?
Kallie- Giving me hope in the power of love.
Jason- [smiling] I did all that?
Kallie- Yeah you did. Goodbye Jason.
Jason- [smiling as he lightly touched her hand as he stood to leave] No…like Elizabeth told me a long time ago… I’ll see you later.
Kallie- [quietly] I hope so.
Jason- I know so…

He paused at the door looking back at Kallie one last time. Mouthing thank you he slowly closed the door readying himself for what he had to do. If it took his last breath he would find Elizabeth and tell her that he loved her. He would hold her in his arms and never let go.