regret.
i live my life, avoiding regret at all costs
willing not to wait in wonder
there are things i do regret, however
but i view these 
as elements that compose my existence.
holding your skin beneath mine
stimulates desideration for you
but the innovation of boundary 
does not allow me to reach across.
my face upon the contours of your neck
unfortunately recall previous conversation.
my resistance of you wears thin
as desire pulsates through each vein
beneath my skin.
awareness of reality keeps me grounded
pensive of your existence.
fear of your fading shakes me
forcing me to weigh consequence
i see myself within you
and i want to know that element
of who i am.
you contribute attributes of my being
i could never understand alone
i begin to understand 
i cannot do everything alone.
i see myself
i know myself
then i see you.
you challenge me to devulge
further into my thoughts
to embrace them
and to relinquish fear.
your ability to extract
these scattered pieces
has me questioning everything.
i cannot risk your intellectual stimulation
for your absence.
this fact is much too uncommon 
to be noted without
the most pristine care and protection.
i struggle with my hands
ordering them to confinement
i struggle with my lips
reminding them of the words 
which manuevered across so difficultly.
i realize what i must do 
and the solution is
nothing in its entirity.
nothing is still, 
and nothing is grasping of time
and its parallels.
my body tries to convinve itself 
of ignorance
and disreguard realism
that lies in my mind
but my heart controls both.
understanding dominates desire.
i could abolish my own emotions
and where they might venture
if my lips met yours
but i cannot intervene 
on your unsettled mind.
my heart rejects the theoretics 
of this idea 
for concern of your honest evolution
is the luminated objective.
i cradle respect
for the knowledgable definition
of honesty in you.
i can never be so selfish
to impede on such an important fragment
of my life's discovery 
of unquestioned bliss.
i close my eyes
and with them my mind
until...